I am drained
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I am drained
Many of you know that I just lost my 4th dog in a little over a year on March 1st. Three were old-age related, and one to cancer.
Today I had to say goodbye to my 15 year old FIV+ tuxedo kitty, Mister Kister. When I took him in as a stray a little over ten years ago, my vet said if I didn't euthanize him right then and there after he tested positive, that he was due to have a lifetime of illness because of a compromised immune system.
That cat was completely asymptomatic the entire 10+ years till a few months ago. He weighed in at a hefty 24 pounds for a long time (he was a tank to begin with).
My vet said Raven, my AD's dog I took in for the last time when she was 12 years old and in congestive heart failure, would have maybe one good year with me after we started her on heart medications. She made it to 16 1/2 years of age, and it wasn't her heart that gave out. It was her legs.
My Newfoundland mix I lost last month was treated for an extremely heavy heartworm burden at age 4 and wasn't expected to make it through the treatments. She did. The vet said she would not live as long as a dog who had been healthy and heartworm free the entire time. She was 15 when she passed last month.
I told myself today that I wasn't going to cry, that I was going to celebrate Mister Kister's long and happy life.
In the end, I took a long hot shower and cried.
I will come to the point where I can celebrate his life. It just isn't going to be today.
I just feel plum drained and with a bad headache to boot.
Today I had to say goodbye to my 15 year old FIV+ tuxedo kitty, Mister Kister. When I took him in as a stray a little over ten years ago, my vet said if I didn't euthanize him right then and there after he tested positive, that he was due to have a lifetime of illness because of a compromised immune system.
That cat was completely asymptomatic the entire 10+ years till a few months ago. He weighed in at a hefty 24 pounds for a long time (he was a tank to begin with).
My vet said Raven, my AD's dog I took in for the last time when she was 12 years old and in congestive heart failure, would have maybe one good year with me after we started her on heart medications. She made it to 16 1/2 years of age, and it wasn't her heart that gave out. It was her legs.
My Newfoundland mix I lost last month was treated for an extremely heavy heartworm burden at age 4 and wasn't expected to make it through the treatments. She did. The vet said she would not live as long as a dog who had been healthy and heartworm free the entire time. She was 15 when she passed last month.
I told myself today that I wasn't going to cry, that I was going to celebrate Mister Kister's long and happy life.
In the end, I took a long hot shower and cried.
I will come to the point where I can celebrate his life. It just isn't going to be today.
I just feel plum drained and with a bad headache to boot.
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Join Date: Sep 2009
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Oh Freedom, you have experienced a lot in the past few months.
It's ok to cry.... I know you know that.
Mister Kister knows you will be celebrating his life.
I am so sorry for your loss. Take as many long hot baths as you need to. Sending you hugs.
It's ok to cry.... I know you know that.
Mister Kister knows you will be celebrating his life.
I am so sorry for your loss. Take as many long hot baths as you need to. Sending you hugs.
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Join Date: May 2006
Location: Louisiana
Posts: 7,545
awww - I hate so much to hear of another loss of your beloved pets!
my sympathy goes out to you my friend!
Please allow yourself all the time you need to grieve -
remember we can celebrate life thru tears, laughter, smiles, and silence.
celebrate Mister Kister how ever you feel like you need to!
HUGS to you!
Rita
my sympathy goes out to you my friend!
Please allow yourself all the time you need to grieve -
remember we can celebrate life thru tears, laughter, smiles, and silence.
celebrate Mister Kister how ever you feel like you need to!
HUGS to you!
Rita
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Join Date: Mar 2002
Location: By The Lake
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(((Freedom))) Sending huge hugs because I know how awful you feel.
It's almost 9 months since I lost my Toby, and it still makes me cry when I think too hard.
But as much as it hurts, it is worth every tear because of all the joy and love they brought us.
I hope Mister Kister and Toby are getting into mischief somewhere and laughing about how much we spoiled them.
Hugs
It's almost 9 months since I lost my Toby, and it still makes me cry when I think too hard.
But as much as it hurts, it is worth every tear because of all the joy and love they brought us.
I hope Mister Kister and Toby are getting into mischief somewhere and laughing about how much we spoiled them.
Hugs
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Join Date: Oct 2009
Location: Missouri
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Ahhhh Freedom, I'm so sorry. Good bye Mister Kister from everybody on SR who loves your Mommy who takes care of us as much as she took care of you. Super healing HUGS to you (((((((FREEDOM)))))))
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Tigg
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Tigg
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Location: UK and Australia
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Its ok to be sad...its ok to cry...its...OK.....it is all part of the grieving process my friend.
Keep posting you have lots of love and support here and may Mister Kister and all your furry friends RIP.
Over the last three years I have lost three very dear friends.....all died way too young (My best friend commited Suicicde age 37, Another dear friend died after a heat bypass age 40, and Peter died of cancer at 46).....it has been hard it still is hard but I see them all reuniting on the other side.......as my family and friends pass on before me I see the family and friends getting bigger the other side! It brings me comfort somehow......maybe it will for you too. It does take time there is no set rule. I still have bad days about my best friend.....but they are few and far between now and the beuatiful memories live on and for that I am grateful......I can still here her laugh! It took time but i got there.
Take care and ((((hugs))))) Phiz
Keep posting you have lots of love and support here and may Mister Kister and all your furry friends RIP.
Over the last three years I have lost three very dear friends.....all died way too young (My best friend commited Suicicde age 37, Another dear friend died after a heat bypass age 40, and Peter died of cancer at 46).....it has been hard it still is hard but I see them all reuniting on the other side.......as my family and friends pass on before me I see the family and friends getting bigger the other side! It brings me comfort somehow......maybe it will for you too. It does take time there is no set rule. I still have bad days about my best friend.....but they are few and far between now and the beuatiful memories live on and for that I am grateful......I can still here her laugh! It took time but i got there.
Take care and ((((hugs))))) Phiz
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