TakingCharge999

Why?

Because I have wished nothing but misery to XABF. And his GF of course.


And he is a mirror of myself (just like any other human being).



When I find myself in him I can find a way to forgive.


Now I get why blessing "the enemy" (or "enemies"...) is a healing recipe.


Because when you bless someone else you are blessing yourself. You accept the reality of a HP. Of a link between us, a commonality beyond what meets the eye.



I am finding lots of resistance from my ego but even with that voice I am starting to wish good things for XABF.


Blessinn #1:


F, may HP bring you light and clarity in your journey.


Ok, that was not too bad. I think I can keep on.



In letting go I affirm I deserve good things to happen to ME. Not because I look this way or this someone likes me or I said, did, solved anything.

Just because I am. Because I deserve them.




That is why I have been hanging on to the misery and sadness and suffering and feeling "less than".


Because there is something in me that is afraid of receiving -nay, accepting what has always been mine-

the power
the joy
the freedom


... and is afraid of the potentials. Of my potential without these chains.



Words have power and its time I use them to my advantage.

So there goes

Blessing #2:

F, may your life be filled with abundance in all levels.

*Sigh of relief*


Ok, it was not that difficult. Now I will try to mean it.





Thanks for listening. Feel free to add any blessing to someone who hurt you, someone who you hurt, or someone whom you have never blessed before.

Blessing is also part of the "language of letting go", especially the ones you resist most.

TakingCharge999

I brought a lot of bad vibe within my current relationship.

Yesterday I started affirming:

"My partner is very understanding. He is a gentleman. He cooperates with $, housework, entertainment and we are a good team".

Yesterday night I arrived tired, we started fighting but there was a shift in me and him... I ended up crying and apologized for my harming words. He apologized too, hugged me and told me he is also my friend and he wants to see me happy.

I told him I was indeed enduring early grief about an upcoming geographical separation with my dad and cried on his shoulder. It felt good. He was understanding.

Today he offered to carry my laptop. He was a gentleman.
He also paid the full electricity bill. And his half of the rent. He cooperated with $.
He washed the dishes, swept, cleaned the kitchen and the cat's litterboxes. Cleaned both cars and watered the plants. He cooperated with housework.
He also rented the "Lost" series. (Nope I never watched it and now I'm hooked..). He brought entertainment.

I can't use my contact lenses today, so he drove me at work and will pick me up. I let him use my car because his doesn't have a radio (stolen..). Today, we are a good team.


Those "the secret" guys are right. Affirm it as if you already had it. And you got it.

CAPTAINZING2000

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Summerpeach

Nice thread. I find that we got lost in their "not so nice" ways sometimes, that we forget about their good ways.

I like this..........I felt angry tonight but read this and now feel better..thx

TakingCharge999

"The art of dettaching"

Remember the bad so not to go back
Remember the good so not to keep pain in my heart
Remember the past so I don't repeat it
Remember being grateful for the whole experience
Remember to be even more grateful, for the chance to start over again.

By: Tc999

TakingCharge999

I was also thinking (stay with me while I keep on with the introspection..)

That I successfully turned into another codie in my current relation.
Why?

Because I started living his life.
-I was starting to live mine-

I started worrying more than him
-I was starting to stop worrying-

I started feeling angry about life
-I was starting to feel at ease wtih life-

I started to see every penny spent
-I enjoyed my own money more-

I started to get angry at the cats
-I enjoyed them very much-

I started being pessimistic
-I usually like to enjoy my day-


Not that many days don't suck but I liked going home and feeling safe and doing something small but representative that I am more than my job and the ex nightmare and that my life has meaning and I can find beauty and got qualities to share and develop like playing the piano or paint.


My question is why am I so afraid to live my own life. Is it that bad or :wtf2

wicked

You know Takingcharge, I have wondered this about myself.
I read somewhere, I think it was "A Course in Miracles" that we are really not afraid of failing, we are truly afraid of what we really are capable of.
We are divine in our own right, and we must own that and bring our own best out into the world and share it.
something biblical too, paraphrased of course, "don't hide your light under a bushel"
let your light shine for you.