rahsue

I don't know what triggered it but he's using again. I don't have the energy to fight with him. I'm not going to be pulled in, not this time.
Just thought I'd check in and give you the crappy update.

thanks to everyone though, without all the support I've gotten over the years I know I would be in a much darker place.
I'm not wringing my hands like I used to. I'm still scared and I do cry but no where near what I used to. His choice his life his recovery. I'll be there to support and thats it.

Jewelz

I'm sorry Rahsue! My prayers goes out to you!

MsPINKAcres

hate to hear it for you and for him -

it was shared with me at my f2f meeting - "when they are at their worst, we need to be at our best in our own recovery"

please take good care of YOU!!

HUGS,
Rita

Ann

I'm sorry, Rahsue, I know that kick in the stomach feeling and it's just not good.

It's times like this when I really needed to hang on to my recovery, kick it up a notch and surround myself with support. I will always be grateful for the wonderful people who have and still do walk with me on this journey.

And we're walking with you, Rahsue, I've got bunny slippers enough for all of us.

Hugs

devastated

I'm so sorry to hear that crummy news! Darn it anyway!

I know how difficult it is to deal with the setbacks; however, thank the Lord we are able to deal with it better now than we use to.

Hugs & Prayers,

Devastated

greeteachday

I'm sorry to hear that!! Glad you are holding on to your recovery...I have also found working my recovery hard during such times helped me face the dark times with more strength. Prayers for you and your son.

lightseeker

rahsue,

so sorry to hear the latest. This is such a nasty disease. I'm glad that you posted. Having support for my own program really helps me a whole lot.

You know the deal - and I so understand about chosing not to get pulled in. Emotional sobriety is still possible even when a partner is in active addiction.

No matter what - it's still really hard. But you are right - not as hard as it used to be before recovery.

Loving thoughts -

Spiritual Seeker

Rahsue-
Thankfully, you are not willing to relapse with him
You can feel your sadness, but you choose not to go to despair, rescuing
or all the other unproductive places.

May his relapse be a mini one.

ItsmeAlice

((((rahsue))))

I wish recovery would take away all the heartache, but it can't. It can only make the coping outweigh the heartache even if only a little.

Alice

Impurrfect

((((Rashue)))) I'm sorry, my friend, but I'm so very proud of you for not going down with him. This may very well be a short-lived thing..who knows? We can always pray (and I am, believe me). Nothni' like a little recovery to ruin a high!!


Regardless, keep taking care of you, and remember that we are always here for you.

Love, hugs and prayers!

Amy

Seren

(((Rashue))) Yeah, my A stepson is on the way back downhill again as we speak. Sorry to hear about yours.....hugs and many prayers! HG

wuzzled

So sorry to hear of his relapse.

Although painful for you, it sounds like you are using tools of the program to survive. You know what you need to do.

I heard a lady at my f2f meeting last night say "when they are actively using is the time I need to lock them in my heart, and out of my mind".

Prayers for you and your son.

JMFburns

Rashue,

My prayers are added to all the others. Keep the focus on you - your son has ALL the tools necessary, he just needs to pull them back out and put them to use.

Thanks for the update, I'm glad everyone sticks around. I appreciate each and every one of you and feel the bond.