2nd meeting!
2nd meeting!
And it was great! I cried again because I saw some faces I knew. I saw someone I knew from years ago in Alanon and it reminded me of the old pain I felt from my mom and my ex being alcoholics. Now I am the alcoholic causing others that same pain that I felt? It was such an overwhelming feeling. I felt like a victim and a martyr and an enabler and a badass alcoholic all at the same time. And I guess I am all those things. But my child is not going to be, because the buck stops here.
It was a great meeting, and I left feeling exhausted but empowered. I'm going again tomorrow. I won't be doing 90 in 90 because I live in a remote area, but I'm ok with that. I can hit 3 a week and come here every day a few times a day!
It was a great meeting, and I left feeling exhausted but empowered. I'm going again tomorrow. I won't be doing 90 in 90 because I live in a remote area, but I'm ok with that. I can hit 3 a week and come here every day a few times a day!
That's awesome that you're taking action to break this chain for your child. Your recovery is your own - try different things, pick up tools along the way and most importantly, listen. Good for you.
That's great and 3 meetings a week is good.
There's one thing in AA that I find is overwhelming and that is the unconditional love and acceptance. I can just feel it when I walk in the room.
Keep in touch.
There's one thing in AA that I find is overwhelming and that is the unconditional love and acceptance. I can just feel it when I walk in the room.
Keep in touch.
helluvacook I found myself smiling as I read your post, I am still smiling, you never have to drink again unless you decide to drink.
I would suggest at this point that you ask a lady to be your temporary sponsor & call the ladies who gave you thier phone numbers. I promise you that you will not be bugging them, people calling me help me to stay sober more then I could ever help them. Call just to chat, this will make you more likely to call when the caca is hitting the fan.
I would suggest at this point that you ask a lady to be your temporary sponsor & call the ladies who gave you thier phone numbers. I promise you that you will not be bugging them, people calling me help me to stay sober more then I could ever help them. Call just to chat, this will make you more likely to call when the caca is hitting the fan.
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