filing for divorce today
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filing for divorce today
I moved my attorney appointment to today. I have all my paperwork in hand and I have no doubt I am filing the divorce papers. I feel like today is my new beginning. I am filing for divorce and happy about it. I dont have to live wondering what he will do anymore. Today I get to start over and I dont feel the tears and I dont need anyone to go to the lawyers office with me..I feel comfortable with my decision. Although I am Catholic so that part makes me feel bad but I am working this out with a priest as well.
This really is a liberating feeling. I can make decisions again because no one is here to make me feel guilty all the time. Wish me luck..
This really is a liberating feeling. I can make decisions again because no one is here to make me feel guilty all the time. Wish me luck..
I moved my attorney appointment to today. I have all my paperwork in hand and I have no doubt I am filing the divorce papers. I feel like today is my new beginning. I am filing for divorce and happy about it. I dont have to live wondering what he will do anymore. Today I get to start over and I dont feel the tears and I dont need anyone to go to the lawyers office with me..I feel comfortable with my decision. Although I am Catholic so that part makes me feel bad but I am working this out with a priest as well.
This really is a liberating feeling. I can make decisions again because no one is here to make me feel guilty all the time. Wish me luck..
This really is a liberating feeling. I can make decisions again because no one is here to make me feel guilty all the time. Wish me luck..
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I read your story and I'm really glad to hear you are moving forward with your plans. It sounds like you've been through hell. I hope that you'll get some support through therapy and/or al-anon to help you to focus on what you can do for YOU.
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Thanks so much. I go to Alanon regularly..I have a sponsor, a priest and a therapist and great friends. I have to say without all that I would be a mess but I am taking care of me.
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I filed the paperwork. I will be divorced in 3-6 months depending on how diffcult he makes it. I no longer need to be afraid. I feel myself coming back to serenity more and more everyday. I dont miss him or that lifestyle. More importantly..I dont miss the lies and guilt.
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Lulu I just read your story in a previous posting...congrats on your decision. As you know and have experienced, an alcoholic is difficult to get into recovery. An alcoholic surrounded by enablers -- impossible.
My boyfriend would call his sister every time we had a fight and complain about how horrible I was (of course she does not know he is an alcoholic). By the time our relationship ended his entire family blamed me and *I* felt like a failure.
It's hard to underestimate how much the wronged *and* blamed scenario can affect your resolve and self esteem. It took getting out of the relationship for me to appreciate what it's like to have peace each and every day of my life and to not be blamed for the chaos I did not create.
Welcome to serenity!
My boyfriend would call his sister every time we had a fight and complain about how horrible I was (of course she does not know he is an alcoholic). By the time our relationship ended his entire family blamed me and *I* felt like a failure.
It's hard to underestimate how much the wronged *and* blamed scenario can affect your resolve and self esteem. It took getting out of the relationship for me to appreciate what it's like to have peace each and every day of my life and to not be blamed for the chaos I did not create.
Welcome to serenity!
lulu, be prepared that even though you arent in the same house and havent been for sometime, he may act shocked. May act downright mean, or may come back on hands and knees promising you the world. Most of the time, the suddenly great person that shows up when served with divorce papers is temporary. Addicts dont like severing completely their strings of what they think may help them one day.
Be prepared for anything, stand your ground and remember the whole picture
Be prepared for anything, stand your ground and remember the whole picture
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lulu, be prepared that even though you arent in the same house and havent been for sometime, he may act shocked. May act downright mean, or may come back on hands and knees promising you the world. Most of the time, the suddenly great person that shows up when served with divorce papers is temporary. Addicts dont like severing completely their strings of what they think may help them one day.
Be prepared for anything, stand your ground and remember the whole picture
Be prepared for anything, stand your ground and remember the whole picture
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Lulu I just read your story in a previous posting...congrats on your decision. As you know and have experienced, an alcoholic is difficult to get into recovery. An alcoholic surrounded by enablers -- impossible.
My boyfriend would call his sister every time we had a fight and complain about how horrible I was (of course she does not know he is an alcoholic). By the time our relationship ended his entire family blamed me and *I* felt like a failure.
It's hard to underestimate how much the wronged *and* blamed scenario can affect your resolve and self esteem. It took getting out of the relationship for me to appreciate what it's like to have peace each and every day of my life and to not be blamed for the chaos I did not create.
Welcome to serenity!
My boyfriend would call his sister every time we had a fight and complain about how horrible I was (of course she does not know he is an alcoholic). By the time our relationship ended his entire family blamed me and *I* felt like a failure.
It's hard to underestimate how much the wronged *and* blamed scenario can affect your resolve and self esteem. It took getting out of the relationship for me to appreciate what it's like to have peace each and every day of my life and to not be blamed for the chaos I did not create.
Welcome to serenity!
His actions do not affect my self worth. I have decided to cut myself some slack and run from this..protect myself and my assests and most of all recover. I dont even want to know what his future holds. After all, he only lied when his lips moved. That was my life...a lie. But now serenity is here and it feels amazing. I have missed myself..
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I agree that some men like your STBX like to keep an eensy little toe in the door just in case. You might want to think about what you can do to prepare yourself for the possibility that he might not be done yet. What will you say if he wants to talk? Who can you call for support?
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I agree that some men like your STBX like to keep an eensy little toe in the door just in case. You might want to think about what you can do to prepare yourself for the possibility that he might not be done yet. What will you say if he wants to talk? Who can you call for support?
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Timely thread Lulu. Thank you. I visited my attorney for the first time today and your words and courage speak volumes for where you are today. I have a ways to go until I can march in with my final divorce papers, but it's ok. I have to get my ducks in a row first. At least-he isn't in the house. Locks get changed tomorrow (thanks to my son being home from Spring Break); move all my $$'s tomorrow. I couldn't take the lies anymore either...and charming though they may be...none of us deserves that kind of treatment from anyone. It has taken TLC to myself-to believe this to be true.
Thanks again! And good luck-you sound great.
Thanks again! And good luck-you sound great.
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Timely thread Lulu. Thank you. I visited my attorney for the first time today and your words and courage speak volumes for where you are today. I have a ways to go until I can march in with my final divorce papers, but it's ok. I have to get my ducks in a row first. At least-he isn't in the house. Locks get changed tomorrow (thanks to my son being home from Spring Break); move all my $$'s tomorrow. I couldn't take the lies anymore either...and charming though they may be...none of us deserves that kind of treatment from anyone. It has taken TLC to myself-to believe this to be true.
Thanks again! And good luck-you sound great.
Thanks again! And good luck-you sound great.
SR is here for you..I cancelled 7 lawyer appts before I finally went. And my AH helped me make the decision with his last antics..The best gift he gave me..strength to know what I DID NOT WANT ANYMORE..lol..lol..
If my A is using a manipulation tactic then I laugh picturing sitting and reading the divorce papers and rubbing his head saying ..this is not how I pictured my game ending. Oh well. I am probably wrong as logic has never been a strong point of his.
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I did the same last week. I'm waiting for him to be served and I'm sure he'll try to contact me once he is. Since he's halfway across the country, it will take a little while. I plan to give him a few days to cool off before even trying to talk to him. He's always wanted to "make it work," and even though he's had several proverbial shots across the bow, he isn't going to take it well.
I can't control his reaction. I can't control him at all. And I'm ok with that.
I can't control his reaction. I can't control him at all. And I'm ok with that.
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