isittime

I was here a while ago, now I'm back. I feel like an *******. I am one so I should feel like one. I'm so sorry everyone, I have let everyone down, including myself. My husband is pissed at me, told me he's had enough. I went back to drinking, not sure why. I know now that I have to stop, well I guess I've known it for awhile but of course I kid myself and think I'm okay. I have to be done for good. I'm not a normal drinker and never will be. Oh God help me. Anyways, I am hoping to attend an AA meeting, maybe on Friday, that seems the soonest possible.

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Impurrfect

Welcome back to SR!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

Omega10

Welcome back!

isittime

Seriously, I am at a point where I think of myself as a complete lowlife loser.

Thank you all for being so nice!! I don't feel deserving of it but thank you.

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Impurrfect

You are NOT a low-life. I can call myself a "recovering crackhead" and that's okay. I did a LOT of bad stuff...sunk to lows I never thought I would.

We've done what we've done and we can't change that. I just celebrated 3 years clean, yesterday, and there are consequences I'm still paying for because I did some really, really stupid stuff.

But ya know what? I have a peace that I don't think I've ever felt in my life. I make decisions today, that I KNOW, without a doubt, I won't have any bad consequences come back and bite me in the a$$.

It all started, for me, with the realization that I'd had enough...I simply could not "do this" any more. Getting high just wasn't worth it any more.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

Toronto68

IsIt, you're the most important person in this and you are taking another important step! Good for you.

least

Welcome back!

Stayinfree

Welcome back.
You sound like me...you can do it!