justtired

Just thought I'd share:

Trying to get to the bottom
Of what's down deep in my heart

The pain that I'm constantly feeling
Shoots through my heart like a dart

You and I are on opposite sides of the fence
Are we forever to be divided?
You are NOT an addict, is what you have decided

But your troubles, they hide themselves from you
And I feel so helpless because I can't help, no matter what I do

So I sit and wait and hope things will change
But I feel like I'm sinking, just feeling so drained

Forward we must move, but forward in which direction?
I'm hurt and scared and unable to show you affection

All this... because of a cunning disease, and it's knack for complete deception

I feel frozen in place, unable to move
With love in my heart there's so much to lose

Trusting myself and what I see
Is a gift that God has recently given to me
I see with my eyes and feel with my heart
And hoped this would not tear us apart

But it's done it's duty of taking you from me
You are in it's grips, not even wanting to be free
If only for a moment you could see, I'm certain that you would choose me...

Ann

Thank you for sharing this justtired.

Sending hugs because you sound like you could use a few.

teke

((((((((((justtired)))))))))))

coffeedrinker

thinking of you...

justtired

Thanks you guys. Just having a hard time. It's the abf's and my 10 year anniversary coming up on Thursday. He's reminiscing about the past 10 years, and I'm just asking myself why the heck I stayed this long. He said the other night that if we can make it through everything we've made it through, we can make it through anything. He just doesn't understand that we didn't make it through this...

Thanks for letting me share. I was going to give him that poem, but it would do no good, so I thought I would share with you all who understand instead.