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As I've frequently posted on this forum, I was a life-long, staunch atheist when I started taking the Steps. I believed that belief in a higher power was a crutch for weak minded people who couldn't successfully face life.
Well, I was certainly in a position at that time where I couldn't successfully face life. I was definitely powerless. I was convinced of the hopelessness and futility of life as I had been living it. I knew I needed this power in my life. When it came to Step 2, and I had to confront the 'god' thing, my sponsor had me look at the bare minimum requirement on page 47. 'Do I know believe, or am I even willing to believe, that there is a power greater than myself?' The book assured me that upon that simple cornerstone, a wonderfully effective spiritual structure could be built.
What was asked of me was not easy. I had to set aside a life long belief system. I had to set aside my reliance on myself. The only way I was willing to do this was because I knew I was screwed. I knew I was beaten.
That cornerstone of willingness became the foundation for a wonderfullly effective spiritual structure. I didn't believe in a higher power, I didn't want to believe in a higher power, but I was willing to believe in one if it was required for me to get sober. With that willingness, I took Step 3 without any real belief. And I did the rest of the Steps and felt the conscious contact with that power, whatever it is.
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Well, I was certainly in a position at that time where I couldn't successfully face life. I was definitely powerless. I was convinced of the hopelessness and futility of life as I had been living it. I knew I needed this power in my life. When it came to Step 2, and I had to confront the 'god' thing, my sponsor had me look at the bare minimum requirement on page 47. 'Do I know believe, or am I even willing to believe, that there is a power greater than myself?' The book assured me that upon that simple cornerstone, a wonderfully effective spiritual structure could be built.
What was asked of me was not easy. I had to set aside a life long belief system. I had to set aside my reliance on myself. The only way I was willing to do this was because I knew I was screwed. I knew I was beaten.
That cornerstone of willingness became the foundation for a wonderfullly effective spiritual structure. I didn't believe in a higher power, I didn't want to believe in a higher power, but I was willing to believe in one if it was required for me to get sober. With that willingness, I took Step 3 without any real belief. And I did the rest of the Steps and felt the conscious contact with that power, whatever it is.
Quotes from BB 1st Ed.
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Originally Posted by Spawn 
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This was easy for me because "MY WAY DID NOT WORK"
I was in rehab when I did this step,...so I felt as though I was living it.
This was easy for me because "MY WAY DID NOT WORK"
I was in rehab when I did this step,...so I felt as though I was living it.
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