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Another new member
Hi all,
I've just joined the SR forums and have been reading through many of the threads and found them all to be full of generally good advice and always supportive.
My reason for being here is that I have come to the stage in my drinking life that I am recognising warning signs and want to stop now before I cross the line and alcohol starts to have more control over me than I have over it.
I would describe myself as a heavy drinker, doing about 8 cans of beer a day between the hours of 6pm and midnight - I've been escalated up to this rate over about 10 years. Earlier in my life (20s) I used to drink vodka but in the last 8 years or so I've never really touched spirits. Whether or not I would be termed alcoholic or heavy drinker isn't really important to me, the fact is that I recognise there's an issue with my drinking and I want to do something about it.
I don't have cravings for alcohol throughout the day, have never had the urge to drink in the morning or early afternoon, but come 6pm I seem to hit a trigger point and I go into drinking mode.
The warning signs I see are not physical but mental. I've noticed in the last 6 months or maybe even longer that I'm becoming less focussed at work, not contributing as much, less motivated and feeling anxious and sometimes isolated. I'm also beginning to doubt my self-worth and I'm certain that all of these things are alcohol related.
In the past 2 years I've managed to curb the drinking over short periods of time - anything up to 2 weeks of no alcohol and have felt great but then I sort of lose impetus or just get to the stage where I think I've proved to myself that I can control it if necessary. I think I have now accepted, though, that there is a very fine line between being able to recognise you're close to the edge and not, and I know for certain that by the time I recognise that I've crossed the line it'll be too late and things will get very bad, very quickly. I don't intend to consider social or controlled drinking as an option because as I see it, alcohol use is only ever a one way destination so sobriety is my goal - there will be other issues related to that however but I'll cross those bridges when I come to them!
Anyway, I had only intended to say 'hello' and have rambled a bit. This is now day 2 of the rest of my new, clean life!
I've just joined the SR forums and have been reading through many of the threads and found them all to be full of generally good advice and always supportive.
My reason for being here is that I have come to the stage in my drinking life that I am recognising warning signs and want to stop now before I cross the line and alcohol starts to have more control over me than I have over it.
I would describe myself as a heavy drinker, doing about 8 cans of beer a day between the hours of 6pm and midnight - I've been escalated up to this rate over about 10 years. Earlier in my life (20s) I used to drink vodka but in the last 8 years or so I've never really touched spirits. Whether or not I would be termed alcoholic or heavy drinker isn't really important to me, the fact is that I recognise there's an issue with my drinking and I want to do something about it.
I don't have cravings for alcohol throughout the day, have never had the urge to drink in the morning or early afternoon, but come 6pm I seem to hit a trigger point and I go into drinking mode.
The warning signs I see are not physical but mental. I've noticed in the last 6 months or maybe even longer that I'm becoming less focussed at work, not contributing as much, less motivated and feeling anxious and sometimes isolated. I'm also beginning to doubt my self-worth and I'm certain that all of these things are alcohol related.
In the past 2 years I've managed to curb the drinking over short periods of time - anything up to 2 weeks of no alcohol and have felt great but then I sort of lose impetus or just get to the stage where I think I've proved to myself that I can control it if necessary. I think I have now accepted, though, that there is a very fine line between being able to recognise you're close to the edge and not, and I know for certain that by the time I recognise that I've crossed the line it'll be too late and things will get very bad, very quickly. I don't intend to consider social or controlled drinking as an option because as I see it, alcohol use is only ever a one way destination so sobriety is my goal - there will be other issues related to that however but I'll cross those bridges when I come to them!
Anyway, I had only intended to say 'hello' and have rambled a bit. This is now day 2 of the rest of my new, clean life!
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Originally Posted by Capo 
I don't have cravings for alcohol throughout the day, have never had the urge to drink in the morning or early afternoon, but come 6pm I seem to hit a trigger point and I go into drinking mode.
The warning signs I see are not physical but mental. I've noticed in the last 6 months or maybe even longer that I'm becoming less focussed at work, not contributing as much, less motivated and feeling anxious and sometimes isolated. I'm also beginning to doubt my self-worth and I'm certain that all of these things are alcohol related.
The warning signs I see are not physical but mental. I've noticed in the last 6 months or maybe even longer that I'm becoming less focussed at work, not contributing as much, less motivated and feeling anxious and sometimes isolated. I'm also beginning to doubt my self-worth and I'm certain that all of these things are alcohol related.
And while I managed to keep my job I was certainly less motivated. I isolated myself away from my wife and children, slowly at first then I just wanted to hide away and drink alone without anyone noticing. While I was holed up by myself, they went away alright. I gave up the family I held so near and dear.
You seem to have a good understanding of where you're at and how much worse it could get if you don't stop. I'm glad you've joined us here and hope you find SR to be helpful and supportive.
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Welcome Capo. Your thought process is very good. I am pleased that you are here. For me, I thought that I could fix it myself, and I found that I needed the support of others. SR is a good place to get that support. I hope that you can reach your high bottom and just build from there. There is no reason to have to go through all the pain that many of us have. Welcome again!
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Hi Capo! Wise of you to see it coming. I could have avoided descending into hell if only I had been as self-aware. In my heart I knew I was going off the deep end, but didn't do a thing about it.
We look forward to hearing how it's going for you. Glad to have you here with us.
We look forward to hearing how it's going for you. Glad to have you here with us.
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Welcome!! Reading you post was a little strange because it is so familiar. That is my story except I went from beer to vodka instead of vodka to beer. If you have not stopped drinking yet you may want to check in with your doctor first. You may not be to the point I was, but this last time quitting I had serious withdrawal symptoms (life threatening blood pressure spikes). This is the first time I've had serious withdrawal symptoms. I wish I had gone to my Dr. first. Instead I wound up in the emergency room.
Again, welcome!!!
Again, welcome!!!
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Originally Posted by Hevyn
Hi Capo! Wise of you to see it coming. I could have avoided descending into hell if only I had been as self-aware. In my heart I knew I was going off the deep end, but didn't do a thing about it.
Once I realised that I was starting to notice warning signs in myself like hiding how much and how often I drink from family, turning down invitations if it meant I couldn't drink, getting to the pub an hour earlier than everyone else so that I could throw 3 or 4 drinks down my neck before they turned up - I knew it was time to accept that this isn't 'normal' drinking. I've admitted to myself that I have a problem with alcohol and I'm worried about how friends and family are going to interpret my sudden stopping - I'm not looking forward to telling them that I have a problem particularly since in my mind, and probably theirs, alcohol problem equates to my dad's way of living. But to be honest, it got to be their problem how they react, not mine.
Thanks for the welcomes
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