grrl77

So I discovered this band recently, and was busting through some of their older songs, and ran across this one:

YouTube - The Avett Brothers - The Ballad of Love and Hate

Sorta thought you might be able to relate to it, too.

miyah

Thanks!! Wow that is touching. The first time I cried since before he went to jail.
Was starting to wonder what was wrong with me.

grrl77

I guess I just never had something describe my prior relationship in a matter of four minutes. Y'know?

KeepPedaling

I loooooove the Avett Brothers! And you're right, that song is perfect!

grrl77

I pretty much ran across it randomly, listened here at work and felt the sting of tears come on, and now I can't stop thinking about it.

I've done so good for weeks now. Haven't really needed the forums, haven't been to a meeting, he's completely vanished, somewhat. Which should be good, right? The last time we spoke on IM, he told me the reason he stays away from us is because he wants to screw, and fight, in no particular order, and he knows that's not healthy. Well, at least he's got that right. I know he's alive, at least, I guess. But for two months now, I feel like I've been doing pretty good. Kinda left it in god's hand. Then for some reason, the last two days, I'm thinking about him a lot, missing him, feeling sad, etc. Needing the upswing again.

KeepPedaling

Ya, I go through bad days two. I'm truckin' along thinking I won't have anymore hard days, but they it hits me, and I miss him. Just keep swimming right! Hopefully the hard days will be less and less soon.