A bit of soul searching/baring??
A bit of soul searching/baring??
I guess I'm going through the 'emotional' side of my WDs. So forgive me up front. This is a bit selfish. But I am going to type it. just skip if bored.....
alcohol is the most destructive thing that i have encountered- and I have seen a bit
I started drinking just because everyone else was- I didnt even like the buzz (THATS TRUE BTW) . Now I am struggling with it.....
Back then i did like mj and other things- but thats then.
i am completely functioning in life very well- other than my family life. which sucks exc my kids and dogs.
i need to change some things but it seems like so much...
anyway just thinking out loud and again i know it's selfish.
i plan to have a peaceful but curious night as i know it will be ok.
dub
alcohol is the most destructive thing that i have encountered- and I have seen a bit
I started drinking just because everyone else was- I didnt even like the buzz (THATS TRUE BTW) . Now I am struggling with it.....
Back then i did like mj and other things- but thats then.
i am completely functioning in life very well- other than my family life. which sucks exc my kids and dogs.
i need to change some things but it seems like so much...
anyway just thinking out loud and again i know it's selfish.
i plan to have a peaceful but curious night as i know it will be ok.
dub
i am completely functioning in life very well- other than my family life.
great line dub
and how timely
just tonight, at a meeting, someone was going on and on about the functioning alcoholic.
what came to my mind was,
looking back, i was alcoholic even before i picked up that first drink.
the behavour patterns and such...
we dont have to go into that here.
also looking back, i can now say, for me,
i was a dysfunctioning alcoholic up till the point the progression nearly killed me.
and dang, was it slow at first, then whammo!
yeah, i worked, had a home, a car, a marriage, things! ect.
then all of it was gone!
POOF!
today, after almost 7 years from the day of surrendering, now i can honestly say, i'm a functioning alcoholic!
with life, its terms, with others, and within myself.
and now, all is as it should, and as you say, i'm really ok.
good wishes dub
rz
I hear ya dedub -- I'm struggling too. I have been a high functioning alcoholic for many years and for the first time my functioning is being hampered. I've resisted AA meetings because I have so much social anxiety.
When I tell people this they can't believe it because I seem so outgoing. But alcoholism casuses me shame on top of the anxiousness I feel sharing anything about myself to a group of strangers and I stay stuck. Well I'm tackling that hurdle because I can't stand the fear of this disease taking what's left of me away. Have you tried AA or any other program?
Hang tough partner -- we get it -- and it's never a selfish of you to share
When I tell people this they can't believe it because I seem so outgoing. But alcoholism casuses me shame on top of the anxiousness I feel sharing anything about myself to a group of strangers and I stay stuck. Well I'm tackling that hurdle because I can't stand the fear of this disease taking what's left of me away. Have you tried AA or any other program?
Hang tough partner -- we get it -- and it's never a selfish of you to share
i was making more money than i ever made in my life at the very End of my Drinking.. i could Very Easily have Died an Alcoholic Death. i thought i was OK till About the last Year of Pure Hell.. it Takes what it Takes!
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