hope213

i have been absence for awhile. things are still the same in my cornor of the world. my a.s. ( j) has pulled almost 2 of his 7yrs. it gets out in 2015. sounds like forever. little j ( mygrandson)will turn 18 in january. he has been released to the outside & he is doing all the wrong things again. it is like a carbon copy of the way he was living before. he was let loose from the "center" on sept.29th he has been living in 3 different households since his release. the first he lived with was family. i remind my self there is nothing i can do. they courts have a hearing on him till he is 18 & they had one last week. the word was they have tried to help him these 2 1/2 yrs & he will not accept the help & they have a cell ready for him. i told him what the judge said. he laughted & said is that suppose to scare me? i say nothing to him. i do not waste my breath. he is always polite to me & tells me he loves me.i believe they both do as much as possible. they need to learn to love themselves. i say a prayer for them every morning. it has been 20 yrs. with my son & i will not go thru this with my g-son.
since my fall in april i am just not as strong as i use to be. i give out of breath very easy. i am just blessed to be alive. i pray for you all every day & love each of you. merry christmas to you all.