coffeenut

...that it's really not all about me...and I am actually thankful for that!

Before I got sober, I was angry a lot. Every real and/or imagined thing in the world would send me on a rage......giving me an excuse to drink? Then I'd drink....sober up, rage for the excuse, drink, repeat...

Now....not so much. I have developed an inner peace....I know that sounds corny, but it feels so good not to have the weight of the world on my shoulders. I just let things go....as they should be.

Anyone else have this kind of 'peace' with sobriety?

JerryBear2009

how did you find out what was making you angry at its deepest level? was it a slow process or an epiphany?

Horselover

I got it too or rather I should say more appropriately, "I'm working on it." I have read a lot about the Tao lately and am trying to learn to go with the flow of things instead of trying to resist everything constantly. The resistance is what was a major factor in my drinking. I do feel the peace you are talking about most definitely.

TheSunAlsoRises

Hey Horselove I was reading the Tao De Jing yesterday as well... some really great stuff in there... Jerry there was no epiphany, I slowly started placing the pieces together... Best of luck

coffeenut

Jerry, so slooooooooooow, and like HL said, still working on it. I read a LOT. Came to SR a LOT. Knowing I wasn't alone in this was a huge help.

But now working on/with sobriety makes sense. I get why I didn't get it before...and that helps so much in my sobriety.

thirtybubba

I'm about halfway there... I *know* it, but sometimes don't think to put the process into my life.


This is a good post.

-TB

Tazman53

Absolutely, but it is and has been an ongoing process, for me it took time and the steps, cleaning up that wreckage from my past, staying in the present, learning how to let go, thank goodness it is spiritual progress and not perfection.

One of the neatest things I have found is the ability when I am right with myself and the world to be alone and at peace!!! When I was drinking being alone was a very bad place for me to be, the committee in my head would get in an uproar, my past whirling in my head, the anger, the resentments, the fears all flying around.

Peace, at first I did not recognize it because I did not know what it was, sometimes I viewed it as boredom because I no longer had any dramas going on in my life, then I began to realize that life drama free for the most part was not boring at all, it was peaceful. What I had sought in a bottle for so many years and never could find, I found in sobriety and applying the steps daily.

It is so nice to just be able to sit still, look around and listen.......

tallcactus

"One of the neatest things I have found is the ability when I am right with myself and the world to be alone and at peace!!!"
I could not have said this any better (Taz.)
I'm so very glad 4 U coffeenut! That 'inner peace feeling' rocks,

Wolfchild

Yup!! That is one of the ongoing benefits i experience by working the 12 Steps & 12 Traditions and living a new way of life daily.

CarolD

Good for you coffeenut.....
Thanks so much for sharing

Forward we go ...side by side

Bamboozle

Yes...I still have a ways to go...but things are getting easier...and I find that as more time passes the less I care about what others think of me. I'm gaining confidence to be the person I want to be.

Zencat

Peace has come with the simplified living of life without drugs. I just keep doing the next indicated thing one day at a time.