Apparently, practicing shaking hands...
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Join Date: Oct 2009
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Apparently, practicing shaking hands...
..isn't the only thing I can't do by myself 
I'm not really sure how to start.. erm, my introduction? Atleast, I think that's what I'm trying to do; introduce myself and see if I can get some help *nods*
I suppose I'll just kinda explain the situation, tell you good folks a bit about myself, then pretty much just see what happens. So.. yeah... anyway, the reason I go by the Curious Gentleman is because one time someone asked me to define my core values, and the first three were: "Knowledge; never stop learning", "Dignity; always treat people with respect", and "Chivalry; upholding romanticism and the ways of a gentleman".
Once a friend told me: "If something gets to the point it keeps me up at night, I remove whatever it is from the equation." My addiction and my weakness has done this countless times, in addition to allowing me to waver from my commitment to my core values, so I've finally decided to eliminate addiction from my life.
My dad used to talk about how he'd blow the rent money on coke, then he'd come down and do it again to snuff the feelings of guilt and shame. Everyone always thought he was making excuses, but either way, I know how he feels.
I adore music of almost all kind. I always have. Listening to good music is the only thing that could ever put me in a good place emotionally other than my former drug of choice. My recipe for a good mood: Hot Shower (while listening to music), then hot coffee and a smoke while listening to more good tunes.
I'm clinicly a Schizophrenic individual with Sociopathic Tendencies. I tend to hate myself, but think I'm better than everyone. I feel guilt and remorse but have no qualms about hurting someone I don't know for superficial personal gain. I dislike this about myself, so I'm going to try and think of myself as a good person from now on *nods*
Monday, October 19th of 2009 was the end of my 2 year addiction to Hydrocodone. Atleast I keep telling myself that, but I know deep down that I am truly powerless against my addiction. I googled "Life After Addiction", found Sober Recovery, thought you fine folks were pretty cool, so I decided to reach out.
*is listening to "Help" by The Beatles*
Thanks for Reading, guys
The Gent
I'm not really sure how to start.. erm, my introduction? Atleast, I think that's what I'm trying to do; introduce myself and see if I can get some help *nods*
I suppose I'll just kinda explain the situation, tell you good folks a bit about myself, then pretty much just see what happens. So.. yeah... anyway, the reason I go by the Curious Gentleman is because one time someone asked me to define my core values, and the first three were: "Knowledge; never stop learning", "Dignity; always treat people with respect", and "Chivalry; upholding romanticism and the ways of a gentleman".
Once a friend told me: "If something gets to the point it keeps me up at night, I remove whatever it is from the equation." My addiction and my weakness has done this countless times, in addition to allowing me to waver from my commitment to my core values, so I've finally decided to eliminate addiction from my life.
My dad used to talk about how he'd blow the rent money on coke, then he'd come down and do it again to snuff the feelings of guilt and shame. Everyone always thought he was making excuses, but either way, I know how he feels.
I adore music of almost all kind. I always have. Listening to good music is the only thing that could ever put me in a good place emotionally other than my former drug of choice. My recipe for a good mood: Hot Shower (while listening to music), then hot coffee and a smoke while listening to more good tunes.
I'm clinicly a Schizophrenic individual with Sociopathic Tendencies. I tend to hate myself, but think I'm better than everyone. I feel guilt and remorse but have no qualms about hurting someone I don't know for superficial personal gain. I dislike this about myself, so I'm going to try and think of myself as a good person from now on *nods*
Monday, October 19th of 2009 was the end of my 2 year addiction to Hydrocodone. Atleast I keep telling myself that, but I know deep down that I am truly powerless against my addiction. I googled "Life After Addiction", found Sober Recovery, thought you fine folks were pretty cool, so I decided to reach out.
*is listening to "Help" by The Beatles*
Thanks for Reading, guys
The Gent
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<<<stretches out hand to shake
welcome gent! you are right-there are lots of cool people here at sr. and you've come to the right place for support. congrats on your sobriety date--dig in your heels and hang on for the ride. and don't forget you got sr in the back seat to yak at anytime you wish.
bo
welcome gent! you are right-there are lots of cool people here at sr. and you've come to the right place for support. congrats on your sobriety date--dig in your heels and hang on for the ride. and don't forget you got sr in the back seat to yak at anytime you wish.
bo
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*shakes hands with a smile*
Oh mate, any doubts or hesitations I had about SR were eliminated, if for no other reason than your name is "Bohemian Zen" and you have a Hemingway quote in your siggy
Now if someone quoted Voltaire I'd feel right at home! Haha xD
Oh mate, any doubts or hesitations I had about SR were eliminated, if for no other reason than your name is "Bohemian Zen" and you have a Hemingway quote in your siggy
Now if someone quoted Voltaire I'd feel right at home! Haha xD
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Welcome! I'm new here also, Day 10 today, a large hurdle to get into double digits. A bit like running 10 miles the first time (and last for me apparently as I injured myself!). I'm curious - do you have a mental health clinician you see regularly as well given your clinical diagnosis? I do know that numerous mental health disorders have co-occurring disorders with them. Typically addiction. Hope that you stick around. This site has been a savior for me these last days as I come to terms with who I am, what I need to be, and how to get there. Some great people with great kindness and support.
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Welcome Curious Gent
You'll find a lot of help and support here - some enouragement too
I'm sure we'll see each other around a bit
Feel free to have a look at our substance abuse forum as well
Substance Abuse - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
D
You'll find a lot of help and support here - some enouragement too
I'm sure we'll see each other around a bit
Feel free to have a look at our substance abuse forum as well
Substance Abuse - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
D
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Welcome! I have a brother with clinically diagnosed paranoid Schizophrenia and he is lost, mixed up and is a chronic alcoholic. No hope in sight for him.
I feel a lot of hope reading your post.
Keep coming back: I would like to get to know you....
I feel a lot of hope reading your post.
Keep coming back: I would like to get to know you....
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Welcome to SR... 
I'd put a Voltaire quote, but I decided a while ago to keep my signature line on a case-by-case basis...
And I'm too tired to say much more than
Good Morning!
Take care,
-TB, groggy again on a Monday morning...sober
I'd put a Voltaire quote, but I decided a while ago to keep my signature line on a case-by-case basis...
And I'm too tired to say much more than
Good Morning!
Take care,
-TB, groggy again on a Monday morning...sober
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Watson: Aye, indeed. I go to my primary caregiver every 4-6 weeks and take Seroquel regularly. I've tried a few recovery places, and this is the only one I've ever felt comfortable with. I'm actually even considering going to a local NA meeting
SikkiSirus: Thanks, mate =D I tried to find something that personifies my usual stressed-out, coffee and marlboro morning self
Xenodamus: Haha! Indeed! One can never have too much material to procrastinate with
LittleFish: I'm glad that I could share a bit of my wide eyed optimism =D Anything you'd ever want to know, just ask away! I'm pretty much an open book =3
SikkiSirus: Thanks, mate =D I tried to find something that personifies my usual stressed-out, coffee and marlboro morning self
Xenodamus: Haha! Indeed! One can never have too much material to procrastinate with
LittleFish: I'm glad that I could share a bit of my wide eyed optimism =D Anything you'd ever want to know, just ask away! I'm pretty much an open book =3
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Welcome Gent! You will find a lot of support here!
I can relate to this:
And for me, in the end, listening to music was the only thing. Strangely enough, when I went to concerts, I always managed not to get wasted, because I didn't want to miss out on the experience.
But I have also to admit that listening to some songs proved to be triggering, so I had to refrain from listenig to them for a while. Probably because they were connected to some drinking experiences
Take care and have a good day, S.
I can relate to this:
Listening to good music is the only thing that could ever put me in a good place emotionally other than my former drug of choice.
But I have also to admit that listening to some songs proved to be triggering, so I had to refrain from listenig to them for a while. Probably because they were connected to some drinking experiences
Take care and have a good day, S.
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If the 19th was the end, then you have just a about a week in the can. Congratulations! I myself am on day 10 but it seems like a WHOLE lot longer. I have found this site very helpful in keeping my memory fresh on the agony of overdoing my DOC, alcohol. I read the posts frequently, at least once or twice a day. It seems there are a lot of great people here. I hope you stay. I care.
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Ah, at least one thing I can relate to : You're actually even concidering going to a local NA meeting. This might just bolster two of your core values: Knowledge, never stop learning (especially about addiction and recovery), and Dignity, perhaps you could begin to treat yourself with respect. I doubt a Curious Gentleman woiuld have a lot of self respect knowing he was an addict. That sounds like a good start on the road to recovery.
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Welcome Gent...The first thing I recommend to you being here, is to read, read, read...then read somemore. I think you'll see you're not the only one in your position, then start posting until your fingers are ready to fall off if it helps you. This will probably be the best decision you will ever make in your life...getting clean. Way to go on the clean time, you're off to a great start!!! 
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