Living for tomorrow...
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Living for tomorrow...
I guess that's how it feels at times for me in my sobriety.
completely the opposite of how I used to live previously. That was literally living for the minute and not thinking about the inevitable consequences of what's gonna happen when all the booze/drugs run out.
I could listen to my music and get smashed. For a short while I would stick two fingers up at sobriety. But then come the consequences and robbing from my future and my ability to do anything but drink away the hangover/comedown and then back to not wanting to be without my booze in my life and back to square one again.
Ah well, at least tomorrow I will feel good and pleased that i am still sober,I miss that feeling of just not feeling nothing but carefree and reckless joy. Sadly in don't last though...
Ah well it's all for the best...
xxx
completely the opposite of how I used to live previously. That was literally living for the minute and not thinking about the inevitable consequences of what's gonna happen when all the booze/drugs run out.
I could listen to my music and get smashed. For a short while I would stick two fingers up at sobriety. But then come the consequences and robbing from my future and my ability to do anything but drink away the hangover/comedown and then back to not wanting to be without my booze in my life and back to square one again.
Ah well, at least tomorrow I will feel good and pleased that i am still sober,I miss that feeling of just not feeling nothing but carefree and reckless joy. Sadly in don't last though...
Ah well it's all for the best...
xxx
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I know what you mean, Neo. I have a big thing about living in the moment (mindfulness) but a lot of what keeps me sober today is knowing how I would feel tomorrow, or whenever the binge ended.
There is stuff I wanna do that I wouldn't be able to do if I drank, it just isn't worth it.
There is stuff I wanna do that I wouldn't be able to do if I drank, it just isn't worth it.
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I'm trying to live in the moment but also keep my sights on tomorrow. As Stone says, I can't drink or that will ruin tomorrow. By staying sober today I'm making a better tomorrow.
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just FYI that phase passes
sobriety has phases, like alcoholism does
hard at 3-6-9 mos and again at 1 year
it's strange each year at your anniversary, it's different for different people but it's common to have some sort of strong emotions
the terrible twos sober people are insufferable
at 2 years women hit the wall and walk through all their family of origin stuff, very tough time, same thing happens to men at 5 years
at 7 years money stuff seems to come up, pretty common
then it's OK until 12-14 years, "the desert years"
17 years strange again
this is by no means anything but my observations and opinions, but what you two are going through is normal and it passes
sobriety has phases, like alcoholism does
hard at 3-6-9 mos and again at 1 year
it's strange each year at your anniversary, it's different for different people but it's common to have some sort of strong emotions
the terrible twos sober people are insufferable
at 2 years women hit the wall and walk through all their family of origin stuff, very tough time, same thing happens to men at 5 years
at 7 years money stuff seems to come up, pretty common
then it's OK until 12-14 years, "the desert years"
17 years strange again
this is by no means anything but my observations and opinions, but what you two are going through is normal and it passes
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