Taz Has 3 Years !!!!
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Join Date: Nov 2006
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Thanks folks..... odd thing, but I asked my wife this morning as I headed off to work "Do you know what today is?" She said "Friday.".... Wow!!! I then asked her if there was any thing else special about today and she said not that she knew of!
I then realized that to a point it is still kind off about ME!!!! I told her that today was my 3 year anniversary, she replied "Oh I am sorry, I know that means a lot to you, but your sobriety took time for me to accept, I guess I just see you staying sober as far more important in my eyes then the first day you were sober.".
Funny thing how our victims do not seem to apreciate our sobriety in the same way we do.
Only a fellow alcoholic or addict understands that even though we stay clean and sober one day at a time..... TODAY..... the signifigance of that first clean/sober day.
I view my sobriety as one day at a time and with the exception of TODAY, the second most important day of my entire sobriety will always be that first day without a drink.
My wife and many others view it as an overall thing I think. I think I understand why, before I reached the point where I was having to drink everyday I would promise her over and over again either "I will control it better next time." or the famous "I will never drink again, I promise." Then of course I would go any where from 3 or 4 days to a week or 2 and be drunk all over again!!!!
After a 5 year drunk that first day did not mean crap to my wife, even though it meant the world to me, whether I was in detox being feed hands full of pills or not, I was not drinking!!!
Thanks to all of you who do understand just how important that first sober day is and that every sober day beyond that first one is a gift that was worked for.
Do not get me wrong, my wife is very happy I am still sober today, but she is still in the process of beleiving I am staying sober. Years before that 5 year drunk began on more then one occassion when I would not be drinking and I was being a miserable irratable SOB, she would get mad at me and tell me I needed to have a drink..... which of course I would oblige her! LOL
I then realized that to a point it is still kind off about ME!!!! I told her that today was my 3 year anniversary, she replied "Oh I am sorry, I know that means a lot to you, but your sobriety took time for me to accept, I guess I just see you staying sober as far more important in my eyes then the first day you were sober.".
Funny thing how our victims do not seem to apreciate our sobriety in the same way we do.
Only a fellow alcoholic or addict understands that even though we stay clean and sober one day at a time..... TODAY..... the signifigance of that first clean/sober day.
I view my sobriety as one day at a time and with the exception of TODAY, the second most important day of my entire sobriety will always be that first day without a drink.
My wife and many others view it as an overall thing I think. I think I understand why, before I reached the point where I was having to drink everyday I would promise her over and over again either "I will control it better next time." or the famous "I will never drink again, I promise." Then of course I would go any where from 3 or 4 days to a week or 2 and be drunk all over again!!!!
After a 5 year drunk that first day did not mean crap to my wife, even though it meant the world to me, whether I was in detox being feed hands full of pills or not, I was not drinking!!!
Thanks to all of you who do understand just how important that first sober day is and that every sober day beyond that first one is a gift that was worked for.
Do not get me wrong, my wife is very happy I am still sober today, but she is still in the process of beleiving I am staying sober. Years before that 5 year drunk began on more then one occassion when I would not be drinking and I was being a miserable irratable SOB, she would get mad at me and tell me I needed to have a drink..... which of course I would oblige her! LOL
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Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Fredericksburg, Va.
Posts: 9,730
You know I must give thanks to my HP as well as the program and fellowship of AA which led me to find and trust in my HP. I want to thank every one here as well, you have all aided me as well.
I could not stay sober, but WE can!
I could not stay sober, but WE can!
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