searching

Well it happened again.. fell off the wagon, my wife asked me to leave, Im sitting alone in a hotel room... money wont last long to stay here, not sure what to do. went to a concert, had a good time but the drinking went on and on. Im a binge drinker, things were going so well, was going to therapy, working out, trusting in god. Now its all over, no idea where its going from here.....

Anna

Don't give up!

You need to try again and to learn from this experience. Use it as a positive thing, to move forward.

TheSunAlsoRises

Its a real cliche around here... but AA has helped me out a lot. I hope you reach out for help... (I can see youve already started on here) and get back on track.

firestorm090

Sometimes it's the pain that makes us change.

Not knowing what to do is a good place to be, cause it forces us head-strong people to admit we're licked. I've busted my head against the wall for years and the wall still stands strong, but my head is reeling. Hang in there and keep trying. It will get better with time. Keep asking for help, others will be along to offer you more.

jade09

you have to somehow someway find help for someone or something. this is impossible, for me anyway, to do alone. and if you do choose to do it alone, it will be a very long and difficult battle. my husband has closed me out. he may be leaving me? i don't know what will happen? i finally gave in and went to my first meeting on Monday, and have been going daily. It is the only thing keeping me going right now. make it thru today, don't worry about tomorrow yet. don't give up on yourself, even if your wife has. try and focus on getting help right now, and making the changes you need to live a better life for yourself and hopefully your wife. good luck, keep posting....there is much support and acceptance here

smacked

Maybe this is the 'bottom' you need to make permanent decisions about sobriety.

Good luck.

Hevyn

It isn't all over, searching. You can do it all again - only this time maybe it'll last. Maybe being in that hotel room is the further proof you needed that you can't allow the poison to be part of your life. I had a few false starts, but here I sit sober, a slave no longer. You can do this thing - give it another shot.

Firehazard

Hi Searching, I would advise going to a AA meeting tonight and saying

verbatum what you shared here. You need to be around others for support

now regardless of how you feel.

Sikkisirus

Best wishes and luck dude

tallcactus

((searching))
U said, "Well it happened again.. fell off the wagon, my wife asked me to leave, Im sitting alone in a hotel room..."
It is not the end, just the beginning 4 U. If U want your wife back, then do this 4 yourself first, then maybe she will follow...
Get to a f2f meeting now. U can do this...One minute, one hour, "One day at a time." Just focus on today. Stop thinking, start doing.
Stay strong.

Dee74

It's only over if we say it is Searching.
There's a lot of support and many great ideas here - use them...figure out a plan

It's a million times better to get into action than it is to wallow and drink - we both know that.

so whats next? whats your first step?
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CarolD

My sggestion?
Get connected with a local AA group.

That's where I found understanding ...support
and a room full of positive sober people

All the best

vegibean

I believe through my own experience that this would be the absolute worse time to give up. This is when it's time to push on and get determined. I am suggesting what others have as well, go hit an AA meeting. If it were me, I'd share about what's going on. Good luck searching.

Tazman53

Searching I have been in a similar spot to where you are at right now, all I have to offer is my experience, strength and hope. I found that in the rooms and program of AA.

I surrendered, I surrendered to the fact that ALONE my way did not work!!!! I needed the help of others, those who had found a way to STAY sober and live life on lifes terms and who had a solution for life that worked and did not involve alcohol!