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Old 08-23-2009, 09:23 PM
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Things I won't miss

1. Sleeping on the bathroom floor.
2. Waking up and feeling like I would rather be dead.
3. Waking up and wondering, "What the hell happened and how did I get here!"
4. All of the above at the same time.
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Old 08-23-2009, 09:40 PM
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I won't miss:

1. looking for my keys in the morning wondering if I drove
2. being afraid to open up my computer to see who I emailed and what I wrote
3. checking my cell phone to see who I called or texted
4. wondering who pissed on the chair thinking it was the toilet *shudders*
5. waking up wishing I hadn't
6. feeling the huge guilt and shame the next morning
7. waking up to smelling alcohol on my breath so strong that I could light it on fire
8. feeling the pain in my right side
9. the overwhelming anxiety/depression the next day
10. looking in the mirror the next morning wondering what I ate that was still all over my face and if the oven was still on
11. trying to remember the long time spans between flashes of remembering
I could go on and on....LOL glad I don't have to deal with ANY of that anymore!!!
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Old 08-23-2009, 10:01 PM
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1. Hiding "sacrificial" bottles of vodka for my wife to find to protect my real stash.
2. Carrying a water bottle full of vodka with me wherever I went so I always had a fix.
3. Waking up throughout the night so I wouldn't sleep away drinking time.
I could go on and on but I choose not to focus on the past any longer when its enough to truely live in the present
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Old 08-24-2009, 02:11 AM
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I won't miss:

the next day's depression and anxiety.

the money wasted.

the feeling of shame and guilt.

the bad things that can happen as a result of drinking - and there are so many bad things that can happen...
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Old 08-24-2009, 02:16 AM
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I won't miss:

the next day's depression and anxiety.

the money wasted.

the feeling of shame and guilt.

the bad things that can happen as a result of drinking - and there are so many bad things that can happen...
Exactly what I would have wrote.
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Old 08-24-2009, 02:29 AM
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I wont miss:

Waking up on and off thru the night in a sheer panic, heart racing, brain trying to piece together events the previous night.

Waking up dreading to hear what my children have to say about my behaviour the night before...I'm ashamed to admit my eldest has started to notice when I've had a drink now.

Trying to guage what I said/did the night before by asking my husband strategic questions...replying 'o yeah, now i remember'...then giving up asking the q's ..too ashamed to admit how much I actually really cant remember.

The waves of deep regret/shame about what I do remember doing and saying...the sheer dread of what I may have agreed to do when in the grip of a 'what the hell' mentality.

Numerous visits to the bathroom thru the night...dodgy guts...

Counting the numerous bruises over my body and trying to piece together how they got there...the flashes of memories that bring on the shame...

Remembering that I spoke to my neighbours the night before, pissed as a fart and knowing I have to walk out the door the next morning, sober and face the world...

Lying about how much I have drunk.

Denying that the fact I have a 'dead foot/leg' is down to abuse of alcohol.

Wasted days....god there has been so many.
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Old 08-24-2009, 02:55 AM
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Lying, cheating, scheming, hating and being frightened...
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