A second of madness
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A second of madness
I just got a phonecall from a friend and colleague, he and others are going out clubbing on saturday nite and he invited me to join. For a split second, I was there, drinking, in bars, clubs, at a taxi rank, cueing to get home etc and already had the next few days drinking planned in my head. it was if I had never given up drinking at all!! Luckily I have a well rehearsed answer (for myself more than anyone) ready.
It is the moments that i am least tempted to drink that seem to be the most dangerous for me. I wish I could get a tiny bit more out of life and then I would be much less likely to faulter.
It is the moments that i am least tempted to drink that seem to be the most dangerous for me. I wish I could get a tiny bit more out of life and then I would be much less likely to faulter.
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Eddie glad to hear you did the right thing for you.
What are you doing in the way of recovery? The fellowship & program of AA have given me a totally new way of life, one that I never dreamed possible. When I got ready to go into detox my biggest fear was of life without drinking!!! That was all I knew, it had been fun for a lot of years, but those last 5 years were hell yet I thought that being sober meant leading a very boring mundane life filled with constant thoughts of wishing I could drink like normal people and knowing I could not.
The program of AA gave me freedom from my alcoholism and a new solution for life. The fellowship gave me new sober friends as well as people doing everything they wanted to do in life giving me hope that I could do the same.
Today there is not one thing I can not do sober that I did while drinking, the difference is now I do it better and I remember it the next day. Even better I can do things I could not do while drinking.
but I wanna start to feel alive again.
The program of AA gave me freedom from my alcoholism and a new solution for life. The fellowship gave me new sober friends as well as people doing everything they wanted to do in life giving me hope that I could do the same.
Today there is not one thing I can not do sober that I did while drinking, the difference is now I do it better and I remember it the next day. Even better I can do things I could not do while drinking.
Are you keeping busy with activities & doing things you enjoy?
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