Dilemma - worried
Look at it as just another day. August 1st, 2009 - another chance to to the right thing. Keep doing what you are doing to stay sober (obviously its working).
Milestones are important but that's all they are - not end goals. You don't want to go back to where you were six months ago. I use my milestones to reflect of where I was and where I'm at today. Think about it!
Milestones are important but that's all they are - not end goals. You don't want to go back to where you were six months ago. I use my milestones to reflect of where I was and where I'm at today. Think about it!
Hmm... what do we do in our minds with milestones? Celebrate, reflect, another chip?
Coolmummy... I use my milestones as a source of strength... Maybe you can too... On days I feel like you do...
I am 10.5 months... If I've done it that long, I can handle another day, right??
Mark
Coolmummy... I use my milestones as a source of strength... Maybe you can too... On days I feel like you do...
I am 10.5 months... If I've done it that long, I can handle another day, right??
Mark
Think this through, coolmummy . . . do you want to feel like you did six months ago? I just came off a relapse and believe me, it gets harder, not easier. Took me about 3 weeks to get from a glass of wine to full-blown, hands-shaking, waiting for the liquor store to open ugly. Missed my three-year birthday by a couple of days. So maybe there is something to that anniversary thing. Wish I could transplant my brain, which is wired directly to the negative outcomes of drinking to yours. Cravings are just sensations. They'll pass. All the best to you.
Tis said PAWs often hits around these anniversary dates
Post Acute Withdrawl - Relapse Prevention Specialists - TLC The Living Center
I think the important thing to realise is, as Gravity said, no matter what we feel, or think we feel - the reality is it's just another day.
Keep doing exactly what you have been doing for the last 6 months and all will be well, coolmummy
Congrats on yr sober time!
D
Post Acute Withdrawl - Relapse Prevention Specialists - TLC The Living Center
I think the important thing to realise is, as Gravity said, no matter what we feel, or think we feel - the reality is it's just another day.
Keep doing exactly what you have been doing for the last 6 months and all will be well, coolmummy
Congrats on yr sober time!
D
Coolmum, I have similar "urges" that come on all at once for no good reason. I think it must be a part of the disease.
I had an episode today- I went to town for some lumber, right across the street was A ChiChies- A great place for double shots of Jose Curveo Gold (Tequila). Just one or two, I was confident I could walk away!--No harm--No one would know!!
Then I must come to the reality of step ONE-- I am powerless over alcohol-my life has become-UNMANAGEABLE!!! I am an ALCOHOLIC I can never control my drinking-- It will ALWAYS control me. My only choice is the gutter or complete sobriety, I choose total sobriety! I have to choose it every day- sometimes every moment! In order to continue to make the right decision I have my friends here on SR, my sponsor, my HP, and my family. Greatfuly these have been working.
I had an episode today- I went to town for some lumber, right across the street was A ChiChies- A great place for double shots of Jose Curveo Gold (Tequila). Just one or two, I was confident I could walk away!--No harm--No one would know!!
Then I must come to the reality of step ONE-- I am powerless over alcohol-my life has become-UNMANAGEABLE!!! I am an ALCOHOLIC I can never control my drinking-- It will ALWAYS control me. My only choice is the gutter or complete sobriety, I choose total sobriety! I have to choose it every day- sometimes every moment! In order to continue to make the right decision I have my friends here on SR, my sponsor, my HP, and my family. Greatfuly these have been working.
Anniversary dates can be difficult, it's like you feel you've done so well so give yourself a "treat" to celebrate it! You just need to learn of a new way to celebrate these milestones...like going out for an ice cream cone, or buying yourself something you've wanted with all the money you've saved from not drinking. Try to learn to associate something different with celebrating.
Perhaps you are used to sabotaging yourself from enjoying anything good in your life? i know that was my biggest difficulty in early recovery. i had all this new awareness of just how messed up my life had gotten and i didn't want to use drugs or alcohol to cover up those feelings. The Steps have revealed those beliefs i had about myself that kept me sick and suffering for so long. For me, that's another aspect of insanity..believing the very worst about myself based on something that happened so long ago. i looked for alot of ways to exclude myself from having any faith or hope in myself until i met a bunch of people just like me in the meetings i was going to. They had endured similiar things that i had gone thru, but they were OK with it. They even shared about it at a meeting and were living much better than they used to live. i stayed because i wanted that for myself.
You are an alcoholic who is choosing to live without drinking.
Give yourself a break and please keep moving forward with life!
You are an alcoholic who is choosing to live without drinking.
Give yourself a break and please keep moving forward with life!
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Thank you everyone! I came to an online meeting last night - sadly that got sabotaged by my three year old waking up, but it helped for the while i was there. You're all right. I thought I 'needed' a reward. Some reward that would have been. Feeling good today and hopefully stronger for it!
Thank you everyone! I came to an online meeting last night - sadly that got sabotaged by my three year old waking up, but it helped for the while i was there. You're all right. I thought I 'needed' a reward. Some reward that would have been. Feeling good today and hopefully stronger for it!
This is your reward!
I think that it is critical to never forget how bad it was waking up after a drunk. I don't mean that I should re-live those bad memories/feelings over & over. Rather, keep today in perspective - how grateful I am to wake up without that sickness & insanity.
I think that it is critical to never forget how bad it was waking up after a drunk. I don't mean that I should re-live those bad memories/feelings over & over. Rather, keep today in perspective - how grateful I am to wake up without that sickness & insanity.
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