enough of this anxiety
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enough of this anxiety
I wanted to think of the first 6 weeks of my layoff as summer vacation...but it feels like crunch time at this moment. I need to chill out or something (or eat). all right that's it...enough of this anxiety...i'm gonna eat a big breakfast and enjoy a breakfast for one at LA Cafe...time and stop trying so hard to "do something". I definitely wont be 'wanting for food' shortly.
I decided on a burger and am experiencing WiFi at the restaurant/coffee shop. already a little relaxed.
the thoughts of using are fallling away.
i need to focus on possibility. i need to focus on the blue sky and green trees and warm feel of the air on my skin.
drugs and alcohol would bring me nothing good. they will add to the pain that is already within me. they don't work. it sometimes pisses me off. sometimes i just wish i could have 3 or 6 beers in the happy atmosphere of a pub. but it don't work that way for me. and running the streets to get crack don't work especially, and drink would lead to crack.
so this is nice and the food is here.
thank god i don't have to use today
I decided on a burger and am experiencing WiFi at the restaurant/coffee shop. already a little relaxed.
the thoughts of using are fallling away.
i need to focus on possibility. i need to focus on the blue sky and green trees and warm feel of the air on my skin.
drugs and alcohol would bring me nothing good. they will add to the pain that is already within me. they don't work. it sometimes pisses me off. sometimes i just wish i could have 3 or 6 beers in the happy atmosphere of a pub. but it don't work that way for me. and running the streets to get crack don't work especially, and drink would lead to crack.
so this is nice and the food is here.
thank god i don't have to use today
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Yes, blue skys and green trees
i thank You God for most this amazing
day: for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday; this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any--lifted from the no
of all nothing--human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
ee cummings
Nature and everything else is always present, however, we drunks aren't. Glad you could join us today sober, moment by moment, one breath at a time. Namaste
i thank You God for most this amazing
day: for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday; this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any--lifted from the no
of all nothing--human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
ee cummings
Nature and everything else is always present, however, we drunks aren't. Glad you could join us today sober, moment by moment, one breath at a time. Namaste
enjoy your food & sobriety. Member
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(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
ee cummings
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
ee cummings
You're not apt to be comfortable yet, because it probably feels strange to you. This is my experience. But I think if you find something to get involved in you can enjoy it. A similar relationship would be if I went into a 40 work week, I would probably feel ackward about it at first, then adjust. I think you just need to find a way to adjust. Projects like repainting a room, organizing photo albums, anything really I think will be good for you to kind of get your mind into a positive groove.
Way to go Ksplash enjoy your food & sobriety.
All of the best
NB
All of the best
NB
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