Aysha

It said..Saw you in Schenectady. Cant stay clean?
That was it.
I just knew he was going to see me when I was out the last time. I kept thinking it on Sunday.
So now what? Does he stop talking to me AGAIN?
Who knows. I hope not.
I just replied and asked him how he did it. How he beat those freakin mind torturous urges. I tried so hard for a long time. I really did.
It wore me down so bad I couldnt take it anymore. It didnt get easier. It made me sick. I couldnt even think strait or function hardly.
I did all those things yall suggested. Aside from meetings. I dont even wamt to go there with meetings right now.
I guess I am just weak minded.

vegibean

I hope he writes you back. :ghug3

Dee74

I dunno Trish - it took me most of the first 90 days, if not longer, not to want to rip my, or someone elses, head off - but I did it...cos anything was better than going back using.

I hope your dad emails you back.

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vegibean

You're the 1st Place person in the Arcade. WTG!!!!

:ghug3

How are you doing? Thinking of you.........