Introducing myself...
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Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: Arizona
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Introducing myself...
Hey everyone,
I just wanted to say hello. I am new to the forum and am looking forward to talking with everyone. I have been reading this forum the past few days and decided that I should contribute.
Recently, I had a two week long period where I did not drink at all. Like many of you have said, it felt like I found myself. The real me. I felt like I hadn't felt in years. Then, I decided I could have ONE drink. You all know how that turned out. Right back to drinking myself to sleep every night. I have no clue what time I went to bed last night because I do not remember. I woke up this morning still reeking of liquor and dragged my red-eyed unshaven ass to work where I felt like crap all day. I had a bad case of the shakes and my anxiety is really bad. This is the first time I have ever admitted to anyone that my drinking is definitely an issue. Alcoholism runs strong in my family and I have almost lost an uncle because of it. Numerous times we have picked him up from the hospital or jail. I can't ever let that happen to myself. It needs to stop now. Actually it needed to stop a long time ago. I am still fairly young and I already find myself wishing I had not given the weeks/months away to the bottle. I have a lot of potential and I need to get on the right track. Thanks for reading.....I take my first step......
I just wanted to say hello. I am new to the forum and am looking forward to talking with everyone. I have been reading this forum the past few days and decided that I should contribute.
Recently, I had a two week long period where I did not drink at all. Like many of you have said, it felt like I found myself. The real me. I felt like I hadn't felt in years. Then, I decided I could have ONE drink. You all know how that turned out. Right back to drinking myself to sleep every night. I have no clue what time I went to bed last night because I do not remember. I woke up this morning still reeking of liquor and dragged my red-eyed unshaven ass to work where I felt like crap all day. I had a bad case of the shakes and my anxiety is really bad. This is the first time I have ever admitted to anyone that my drinking is definitely an issue. Alcoholism runs strong in my family and I have almost lost an uncle because of it. Numerous times we have picked him up from the hospital or jail. I can't ever let that happen to myself. It needs to stop now. Actually it needed to stop a long time ago. I am still fairly young and I already find myself wishing I had not given the weeks/months away to the bottle. I have a lot of potential and I need to get on the right track. Thanks for reading.....I take my first step......
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Join Date: Mar 2009
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Welcome to SR Catfish. It takes awhile for us to learn that its the FIRST drink that gets us drunk. You have admitted you are powerless, that's a good start. Do you go to AA meetings? I find that they really help me, I try to go to 2 a day. I will go to any lengths to stay sober. Good luck with your sobriety and keep posting. There are many people here with a lot of wisdom and will help you in your journey. 
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Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: Arizona
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Thanks for the warm welcome everyone. It is good to finally admit it to someone even if you are all just imaginary internet friends (KIDDING!) 
I hope I can help some of you as well.....I am going to take today off to recover from one of my heavier sessions of drinking last night. Then tomorrow I will start going to the gym again after work instead of coming home and getting a drink. Keeping busy is KEY!!
I hope I can help some of you as well.....I am going to take today off to recover from one of my heavier sessions of drinking last night. Then tomorrow I will start going to the gym again after work instead of coming home and getting a drink. Keeping busy is KEY!!
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Join Date: Apr 2009
Location: in France
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Hi Catfish
Welcome to SR -there are some great people here who'll be able to help you and give advice.
I'm not one of the experts but I find that even just the fact of posting here helps me in my recovery and you're right physical fitness helps a lot too.
Like you said we all help each other.
Welcome to SR -there are some great people here who'll be able to help you and give advice.
I'm not one of the experts but I find that even just the fact of posting here helps me in my recovery and you're right physical fitness helps a lot too.
Like you said we all help each other.
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Join Date: Jun 2009
Location: Rural OK
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Welcome catfish- You are right on target . It is that FIRST drink that will take you back down the road to ruin. It has taken me a long time to realize that but i'ts true. I also think you have the right idea about staying busy, it is a key issue for me, if I'm not doing something the temptation to drink is greatly increasrd. You are moving in the right direction, keep it up! Keep reading and posting on SR- try AA meetings, keep working in a positive direction, you can make it!
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Welcome Catfish. Posting here is a great first step. There are others that many alcoholics find it necessary to take.
I always raise an eyebrow at statements like this. The only time I ever felt like that when not drinking is when the abstinance was fleeting. Like some kind of fantasy game. I've observed it in enough other people to think it's very common.
It's easy to sit back on the sidelines and listen to people say how wonderful this new sobriety is, how their life is so much better, how they are really feeling something different, and all the while waiting for it to crumble.
If you are an alcoholic and feeling this way with a couple of weeks away from a drink, be careful. Be very careful.
Getting and staying sober is not easy. It may require some serious upheaval in life long beliefs and perceptions of the world. That kind of stuff is bound to be uncomfortable. If you're not feeling uncomfortable, and you're an alcoholic without a drink, I'd urge caution.
I'm sure others have had these magical wonderful, everything is great from day one experiences, but I see enough of that false hope right here on this forum to be little distrustful of it.
Originally Posted by Catfish83 
Recently, I had a two week long period where I did not drink at all. Like many of you have said, it felt like I found myself. The real me. I felt like I hadn't felt in years
It's easy to sit back on the sidelines and listen to people say how wonderful this new sobriety is, how their life is so much better, how they are really feeling something different, and all the while waiting for it to crumble.
If you are an alcoholic and feeling this way with a couple of weeks away from a drink, be careful. Be very careful.
Getting and staying sober is not easy. It may require some serious upheaval in life long beliefs and perceptions of the world. That kind of stuff is bound to be uncomfortable. If you're not feeling uncomfortable, and you're an alcoholic without a drink, I'd urge caution.
I'm sure others have had these magical wonderful, everything is great from day one experiences, but I see enough of that false hope right here on this forum to be little distrustful of it.
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