I made it!
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I made it!
I went to the bbq and as I expected there were a few people hitting the bottle hard/using, others drinking 'normally'. As it has happened to many here, I was offered a drink the minute we got there and often over the 7 hours we were there, but I wasn't really pushed to do it. I declined, though it was hard. The surprisingly beautiful weather, music, laughter, good natured ribbing, firing up the grill - all stuff I have associated with drinking since time out out of mind - big triggers.
It was a challenge/a bit overwhelming and I thought I might need to leave a couple of times, but I made it through. Not that I didn't entertain the thought of getting completely wasted - I could smell all the alcohol and was stupid and took a few big whiffs of a few of the drinks. But I did not drink. We went and saw a fireworks display and then headed home.
I went for a walk to clear my head and then logged in. I'm still processing everything that happened and trying to figure out how I feel about it (still struggle with id-ing my feelings). I guess I'm just grateful that I didn't give in.
Thanks for listening to me babble.
It was a challenge/a bit overwhelming and I thought I might need to leave a couple of times, but I made it through. Not that I didn't entertain the thought of getting completely wasted - I could smell all the alcohol and was stupid and took a few big whiffs of a few of the drinks. But I did not drink. We went and saw a fireworks display and then headed home.
I went for a walk to clear my head and then logged in. I'm still processing everything that happened and trying to figure out how I feel about it (still struggle with id-ing my feelings). I guess I'm just grateful that I didn't give in.
Thanks for listening to me babble.
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Right back at'cha Ready2Live! I know what you mean, I am so much less tolerant of drunk people these days. I had patience when I first quit but as the months go by it takes less and less to annoy me. LOL
It was only day 2 for me and I wanted to smack the first two people that tried to maul me when I walked in the front door with my 3 yr old daughter. They had been drinking since the day before. The whole time (2 hrs.) I was there, I looked around and it made me never want to drink again. I'm sure the temptation will come... I have no doubt; but, I really, really want sobriety!!!!!
Hey, most things worth doing are hard, Its what makes them worthwhile. You did the right thing even if it wasn't the easy thing, or the fun thing. It gets better, just takes time, mindfulness and committment. Moment by moment you get it done, you become a sober warrior in the battle against addiction. You'ne got a lot of comrades walking point and watching your back.
“For practitioners or spiritual warriors—people who have a certain hunger to know what is true—feelings like disappointment, embarrassment, irritation, resentment, anger, jealousy, and fear, instead of being bad news, are actually very clear moments that teach us where it is that we’re holding back. They teach us to perk up and lean in when we feel we’d rather collapse and back away. They’re like messengers that show us, with terrifying clarity, exactly where we’re stuck. This very moment is the perfect teacher, and, lucky for us, it’s with us wherever we are.”
From: When Things Fall Apart, by Pema Chodron.
“For practitioners or spiritual warriors—people who have a certain hunger to know what is true—feelings like disappointment, embarrassment, irritation, resentment, anger, jealousy, and fear, instead of being bad news, are actually very clear moments that teach us where it is that we’re holding back. They teach us to perk up and lean in when we feel we’d rather collapse and back away. They’re like messengers that show us, with terrifying clarity, exactly where we’re stuck. This very moment is the perfect teacher, and, lucky for us, it’s with us wherever we are.”
From: When Things Fall Apart, by Pema Chodron.
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It was only day 2 for me and I wanted to smack the first two people that tried to maul me when I walked in the front door with my 3 yr old daughter. They had been drinking since the day before. The whole time (2 hrs.) I was there, I looked around and it made me never want to drink again. I'm sure the temptation will come... I have no doubt; but, I really, really want sobriety!!!!!
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Thanks. I need to not make a habit of it either, it was a stupid thing to do, you play with fire eventually you get burned, right?
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Hey, most things worth doing are hard, Its what makes them worthwhile. You did the right thing even if it wasn't the easy thing, or the fun thing. It gets better, just takes time, mindfulness and committment. Moment by moment you get it done, you become a sober warrior in the battle against addiction. You'ne got a lot of comrades walking point and watching your back.
“For practitioners or spiritual warriors—people who have a certain hunger to know what is true—feelings like disappointment, embarrassment, irritation, resentment, anger, jealousy, and fear, instead of being bad news, are actually very clear moments that teach us where it is that we’re holding back. They teach us to perk up and lean in when we feel we’d rather collapse and back away. They’re like messengers that show us, with terrifying clarity, exactly where we’re stuck. This very moment is the perfect teacher, and, lucky for us, it’s with us wherever we are.”
From: When Things Fall Apart, by Pema Chodron.
“For practitioners or spiritual warriors—people who have a certain hunger to know what is true—feelings like disappointment, embarrassment, irritation, resentment, anger, jealousy, and fear, instead of being bad news, are actually very clear moments that teach us where it is that we’re holding back. They teach us to perk up and lean in when we feel we’d rather collapse and back away. They’re like messengers that show us, with terrifying clarity, exactly where we’re stuck. This very moment is the perfect teacher, and, lucky for us, it’s with us wherever we are.”
From: When Things Fall Apart, by Pema Chodron.
That is a great quote!
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