coming_clean

hahahaha my last attempt failed horrible. I made it for about five to six hours before lighting one. Now almost two day's further. Tomorrow it's gonna be a good day, wether I smoke sigs or not, since i'm off the booze and weed. On the otherhand the sigarette smoking has gotta go.

So tomorrow, im at it again.

I want to look at myself in the mirror and see a 25 year old that is completely unconditionally free of all addictive substances. I know from experience that i will overcompensate with coffee and red bull, wich has become throughout the years an addiction as well. That proberly has to go too, but right now i don't want to think about it too much. One addiction at a time. I managed to conquer alcohol, weed, sex, over-excersising, gaming way too much, (damm i got a major addictive personality haha), over-spiritualizing, so those sigs can surely be beaten...

this makes me wonder tough.....were to stop?????

i'm off to bed, have a rough time ahead!!!