Day Five - maintaining focus
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Day Five - maintaining focus
Four days under my belt and I feel like a new man! Enthusiasm and joy about my new life carried me through both a Friday and a Saturday night. Though a non-alcoholic might find this silly as far as achievements go, to me it is a BIG DEAL. This is a holiday weekend. If I make it through this holiday weekend, it means I can make it through every weekend.
I feel fortunate in a way to have this disease. It's easier -- maybe that's not the word -- simpler to manage than most terminal illnesses. A diabetic has to go through a whole big regimen. A cancer patient goes through hell. All I have to do as an alcoholic is live each day without drinking. That's not necessarily going to be easy, but it is pretty simple when you boil it right down.
Of course I know that I have some demons to face, damage to undo, and a constant struggle to stay humble, but at the end of the day, it's simple: You drink, you die.
Anyway, I don't have much else to say today. I promised myself to post here every day for at least the first week as a way of helping to stay focused on what I have to do.
Thanks to everybody for your kindness and support. Have a happy and sober day!
I feel fortunate in a way to have this disease. It's easier -- maybe that's not the word -- simpler to manage than most terminal illnesses. A diabetic has to go through a whole big regimen. A cancer patient goes through hell. All I have to do as an alcoholic is live each day without drinking. That's not necessarily going to be easy, but it is pretty simple when you boil it right down.
Of course I know that I have some demons to face, damage to undo, and a constant struggle to stay humble, but at the end of the day, it's simple: You drink, you die.
Anyway, I don't have much else to say today. I promised myself to post here every day for at least the first week as a way of helping to stay focused on what I have to do.
Thanks to everybody for your kindness and support. Have a happy and sober day!
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What a wonderful attitude. I hope you'll hold on to it no matter what happens. Yes, a holiday weekend is a challenge. I used to think it wouldn't be summer without drinking - & I experienced alot of resentment my first sober holiday season - but that feeling faded. Now I feel as you do - joyful and thankful to be enjoying life without being numb. No forgetting what we did or said all weekend, no hangovers, no remorse. Welcome to your new life.
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you are right, four days is a major accomplishment! Keep up the good work. Im finding that being humble is about letting go of ego, which gets easier to do the more i work at it. eventually i plan on not having to struggle with anything, it will come naturally and easily.
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Welcome and Congrats!!!
Four days is fantastic! The toughest part is just getting started with sobriety. It really does get easier with time but this dang thing called alcoholism never goes away so we have to remain vigilant. Hope you immerse yourself in a recovery program as it makes it so much easier.
Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
Keep on trucking!!
Four days is fantastic! The toughest part is just getting started with sobriety. It really does get easier with time but this dang thing called alcoholism never goes away so we have to remain vigilant. Hope you immerse yourself in a recovery program as it makes it so much easier.
Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
Keep on trucking!!
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Join Date: Feb 2008
Location: Oahu
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You are headed in the right direction. One day at a time. I suggest going to more meetings than you think you need, getting two men's phone numbers at each meeting, and calling them regularly. This is how you meet other men in the program and its a great way to find someone who has the kind of sobriety you want and ask them to sponsor you.
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Join Date: May 2009
Location: Jasper, AL
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5th day for you too? Cool, I got a sobriety partner!
Hi, This is my first day on this site. I actually signed up several days ago, but wasn't "alive enough" to respond to the e-mail they sent until an hour ago! 6 days ago I was on 70 mgs of oxy 3 times a day! (40's & 30 mg IR's). I thought I wasn't going to make it, SERIOUSLY! My body is STILL so exhausted from the "drug purging". I FINALLY slept about 3 hours on my 4th day, and about as many last night. I don't know if you realize it, so I'll offer some unsoliticited advice. To curb cravings, sweets work for alcohol, and for narcotics, it's physical exercise. (Just be sure you can safely have sweets, and don't over do it!). I'm REALLY proud of BOTH of us!! You hang in there!! Best of luck, and GOD BLESS!
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Day nine and still feeling wonderful! Last night was a little tough because my friend invited me to shoot some pool -- which I love -- but I decided not to go to resist the temptation. After I get my feet under me a little bit, there will be plenty of time for billiards and dancing.
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