2bfns

Hello i am new i had five years and blew it too. I have been trying to get sober again for five years. Tomorrow will be my first day, i am terrified, again. I know about the no support too. Mine is using also. Inpatient rehab has always been the best for me. This is my first post. I hope to get connected here. I am too ashamed to go back to AA. Bye for now.

Anna

Hi,

I moved your post to a thread of its own, so you could get a proper welcome.

You have found a great place for support and information. And, shame is such a big part of addiction and it's what keeps us sick, even though we know we need help. Don't be ashamed of what's happened, rather move forward in your recovery.

CarolD

Welcome to our recovery community......

Have you had an honest talk with your doctor
about how to be safe as you de tox?
That would be a wise idea and set your mind at ease.

I did return to drinking after I started AA.
I understand your hesitancy ...but...I was always
welcomed back without judgement.
I think you will be too.....

Keep posting with us....you will find
understanding and support on SR.

Rad44

I had two years sober and blew it (started sober again April 7 after 3 week 24/7 binge). My stupid addicted brain gave me zero credit for the sober time and picked up right where I left off (plus interest). Within 30 minutes I was right back in the Devils Triangle. I am in a good program now. Let me know if there is any way I can help.

least

Welcome to SR! As far as being too ashamed to go back to AA, I don't think they shoot their wounded, only welcome them back with open arms. I'm glad you're trying again. You've done it before so you know it can be done. I'm glad you found us. THis site has given me great support and friendship.:ghug

sailorjohn

welcome!!!

Keep coming back, you'll find a lot of support here.

Mary52

I have never heard of anyone in AA being turned away because they relapsed. A couple weeks ago, a woman I know with 16 years sobriety, came in and said she drank and was on day 1 again. She felt horrible! We all hugged her and told her we were glad she was there with us. It's where she belongs! It's where I belong! Glad you are here. We all have the same thing and that is "Today."

Wolfchild

joedris

Everyone who's ever returned to any AA meeting I've ever gone to (myself included) has always been welcomed with open arms. Don't let the disease of alcoholism talk you out of going back, as that's what's happening. It just hides itself in your pride and tells you that it's useless to return. It does that because it doesn't want to be treated. Remember, we deal with alcoholism - cunning, baffling, powerful.

2bfns

Wow, thanks everyone and thanks anna for putting me in the right thread i couldnt find the replies until today. I have 5 days today, but i am on suboxone, and abilify which kept me up all night I will get back to AA my counselor says i should try alanon too because of my husband. Anyway right now this is all i have and i am happy to have it.