weird stuff
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weird stuff
I dont have a job, people are calling me left and right. and I just passively respond. I dont know what the crap is going on with me. Welll here I am in my depressive state. what a piece of crap. This is crazy.
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Flint MI
Posts: 4,455
Ded,
you know how things are in recovery we have our ups and downs as for the out of work thing, I DO KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN.....I havent held a job now in 2 years, mainly because of my health and I want to so badly not only to get the bills paid but in order to feel some sort of self worth again......sometimes we as adicts define ourselves by who or what we are....ie.....Father, Mother ,Sister,Volenteer,Construction worker, Lawyer ect......it is when we step out of our normal definitions we find new ones that had been hiding........try a new hobby, start your own business, I started one with only 34 bucks, went without paying my water bill but I started it!!!!! I dont do much but then again I have to finish building my site, try reaching past the depression get outside try doing something, even this morning I went out and raked leves until I began to hurt.....pushing past the depression and agoraphobia!!!!
Good Luck just try something new and you will feel better I promise!
Hugs,
Pamm
you know how things are in recovery we have our ups and downs as for the out of work thing, I DO KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN.....I havent held a job now in 2 years, mainly because of my health and I want to so badly not only to get the bills paid but in order to feel some sort of self worth again......sometimes we as adicts define ourselves by who or what we are....ie.....Father, Mother ,Sister,Volenteer,Construction worker, Lawyer ect......it is when we step out of our normal definitions we find new ones that had been hiding........try a new hobby, start your own business, I started one with only 34 bucks, went without paying my water bill but I started it!!!!! I dont do much but then again I have to finish building my site, try reaching past the depression get outside try doing something, even this morning I went out and raked leves until I began to hurt.....pushing past the depression and agoraphobia!!!!
Good Luck just try something new and you will feel better I promise!
Hugs,
Pamm
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,236
If I told my sponsor i felt like a failure or a
piece of crap, she as well as others in recovery
would flat out and tell me I am an alcoholic,
or to be blunt, a drunk.....and that is exactly
what i am. Hi Im Sharon and Im A Drunk.
Sounds cruel doesnt it?
If some one told me to my face I was
an alcoholic and a drunk and the only
reason why i continue to feel like crap
is because im drinking.
Then they would tell me to get off my
azz and quit whinning about it. Get off
my pitty pot and get my azz to a meeting.
They can take me to a meeting if i ask them
to, and they can come pick me up if i want
them to. If not i know what i need to do.
They are not gonna make me sober. I
have to want to do it myself.
If not, then i deserve to stay in my own
sh*t or crap. Right?
People in recovery can guide me or
lead me but i have to do the foot
work. Simple as that.
I didnt get where i am in recovery
from just sitting on my azz.....those
that have stayed clean and sober
have walked the walk. Have done
and continue to do the foot work.
I used to be a miserable so and so
until i was forced into recovery
by my family because i couldnt do it
myself. 28 days in rehab and then i
took the tools and knowledge of
my disease and did something about
it.
And it wasnt sitting and whinning about
how sorry i feel about me and how
much of a loser i am.
piece of crap, she as well as others in recovery
would flat out and tell me I am an alcoholic,
or to be blunt, a drunk.....and that is exactly
what i am. Hi Im Sharon and Im A Drunk.
Sounds cruel doesnt it?
If some one told me to my face I was
an alcoholic and a drunk and the only
reason why i continue to feel like crap
is because im drinking.
Then they would tell me to get off my
azz and quit whinning about it. Get off
my pitty pot and get my azz to a meeting.
They can take me to a meeting if i ask them
to, and they can come pick me up if i want
them to. If not i know what i need to do.
They are not gonna make me sober. I
have to want to do it myself.
If not, then i deserve to stay in my own
sh*t or crap. Right?
People in recovery can guide me or
lead me but i have to do the foot
work. Simple as that.
I didnt get where i am in recovery
from just sitting on my azz.....those
that have stayed clean and sober
have walked the walk. Have done
and continue to do the foot work.
I used to be a miserable so and so
until i was forced into recovery
by my family because i couldnt do it
myself. 28 days in rehab and then i
took the tools and knowledge of
my disease and did something about
it.
And it wasnt sitting and whinning about
how sorry i feel about me and how
much of a loser i am.
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Join Date: Feb 2008
Location: Kansas
Posts: 10,182
Dub, I've been reading your posts for quite some time, and I'm still not too sure what you want for your life?
I see people post here every day who are struggling. Sometimes they fall and they pick themselves back up and try again. They are taking action.
What do you want?
I see people post here every day who are struggling. Sometimes they fall and they pick themselves back up and try again. They are taking action.
What do you want?
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Join Date: Apr 2009
Location: NW Ohio
Posts: 164
I can relate to what you say, Dub. I lost my job almost a year ago due to my disease of addiction and have not had a job since. I went thru treatment and legal issues including jail. In a couple months I'll find out if I have lost my license for my career (I'm an RN). Before jail last year, I even went to classes for truck driving and obtained my CDL-A. Then find out afterwards that trucking companies don't hire recently convicted felons even though it has nothing to do with driving a truck. They don't care about my squeaky clean driving record. How fair is that?
I have a disease of drug addiction which led me to this stupid felony which I regret. I feel worthless and useless and rejected. I am a nice person and I like to do things for people and to help them. I've been doing everything required by whoever plus doing things I want to do to stay clean and sober and get my life back. Unfortunately, others won't let me move on. They keep throwing the "bad" in my face.
Many times I feel like giving up and I cry a lot and I pray a lot. I am frustrated and tired but I will keep trudging the path and hopefully, someday, the AA promises might come true for me, too.
I have a disease of drug addiction which led me to this stupid felony which I regret. I feel worthless and useless and rejected. I am a nice person and I like to do things for people and to help them. I've been doing everything required by whoever plus doing things I want to do to stay clean and sober and get my life back. Unfortunately, others won't let me move on. They keep throwing the "bad" in my face.
Many times I feel like giving up and I cry a lot and I pray a lot. I am frustrated and tired but I will keep trudging the path and hopefully, someday, the AA promises might come true for me, too.
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Join Date: Oct 2008
Posts: 6,947
Well dub... time to get started with your life... things can always be worse, no matter how bad they are! You have a lot that could be going on in your life... music, bicycling, work, family... Don't p!ss it away dude.
Get out and ride anyway... there is still time in the day!
Mark
Get out and ride anyway... there is still time in the day!
Mark
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