dingus3

This is the deal. i no longer trust myself with alcohol. Ive known this for a while and have avoided taking steps because i was waiting for "some day". I cant garantee the outcome anymore when i walk into a bar. i do not stop drinking until im drunk, or out of alcohol/money and the sun is comming up. Im going to hurt myself or someone else with the car, my lack of inhibitions or my actions toward the people i love because im too hungover to think straight. "Some day" is going to come with me in the hospital, jail or in a box. Not if... when. Today, I awoke late and slept through something i did not want to miss. Im so ashamed of myself. Im drinking alone, heroic amounts of beer and whisky at a time, and driving a car afterward, not even enjoying it as much. It is an escape, one that i can not affort on my body, my wallet or my life. This has been going on a while, (years). I don't know how to be sober some nights. that scares the **** out of me. Im ready learn how not to get drunk, **** my $$ away, almost wreck a car, be romantic sans booze, be not hungover and stay that way, go to sleep without a buzz.... Im a little desperate.

flutter

Just don't drink today. Tell your doctor everything, medical detox might be an important step for you. If anything else, if you're not ready, if you decide to keep drinking PLEASE stay off the roads.. innocent people out there will not deserve what could happen to them. Do you have a plan? Next steps?

adore79

Hi and welcome. Talk to your Doctor about detoxing, check out an AA meeting, keep posting and reading here. You can quit you just need a little help. I hope you stick around.

CrackQuack

Hi and welcome to SR! You are in the right place! I know I tell myself that I can always get loaded tomorrow. And when I get up the next day, it's today all over again. The beauty of telling oneself this is tomorrow never comes. It's something I learned in the NA. Consider finding a local NA or AA meeting to attend. You'll be among friends there. I hope you find peace and serenity soon.
Your realizations are a great first step towards recovery!:ghug3

lunarise

I cant add much to whats already been said...but I will repeat some things...

PLEASE stay off the roads, if you need too, cab it!

Im glad you have realized you need help. Definitely check with your doc about detoxing to make sure you are safe.

Welcome to SR, hope to see ya again soon.

CarolD

Being desperate is why I decided to quit drinking.
I use God and AA to enjoy my fantastic new life.

Welcome to SR

Anna

There is lots of hope that you can change your life.

Good for you in recognizing that you need to stop drinking.

least

Just don't drink, one day at a time. And please please PLEASE don't drive while/after drinking!

Maggot4Life

Definately stay off the roads while drunk, I learnt that first hand. I know it has been said many times on here but do take it one day at a time, when you start doing it you will realize the power in it. I wish you the best of luck on your journey to sobriety.

ToABetterMe

Thats great that you are being honest & know where you are headed if you stay this way. Wishing you all the best!

AlkalikeH

Hey there, welcome to SR.

And yeah, stop getting behind the wheel if you are to keep drinking.

For the rest, congrats on your decision to get sober.

Wolfchild

Welcome and keep coming back!!

If you have a problem with drinking, maybe you should go to a few AA meetings & find out what you can do about it.