Quse56

I can do anything. I have a great job, an awesome kid, and a good life when I don't get in the way... ALL OF WHICH I AM ON THE BRINK OF LOSING. I have been to 2 rehabs, and around the program for 6 years now, but have not been able to string together a year. Lately I havent been able to pull together 30 days. Is it too late for me? What do I do next? I am so ashamed to be in those meetings knowing that people know my story, so I stay away. I don't know what is next for me. Is there another way???? HELP.

Anna

Hi,

There are many ways to recover and the main thing is to not drink.

A question I would ask you, is what else did you change in your life, besides not drinking? For me, drinking was a symptom, and I had a lot of work to do on myself in order to recover.

There is always hope. I use SR as a lifeline.

Mark75

You wont be the first relapser at those meetings, you should be welcomed back with open arms, you would be at my home group.

To quote the Big Book... “Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path. Those who do not recover are people who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this simple program, usually men and women who are constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves..."

You seem like you can be honest with yourself, you understand how important it is to recover... all that is at stake, that it is, in fact, at stake...

Go back, get a sponsor... thoroughly follow our path.

I am pullin' for you... keep coming back.

Mark

shaun00

hi and thanks for your post...

Just a respectful question....what do you mean by "around the program"...

Do you mean what i did for quite a while....go to meetings and do nothing..or

Go to AA and not do the steps?

I spent a couple of years ish.....doing meetings on and off....sitting at the back.
Talking bs when i thought id share what everyone wanted to hear.

Gossiping with people that would listen and taking everyones inventory.

That was me....and along with that come yet more drinking....

Id ignored the big book and the steps.........with a fair bit of effort.

Only when i was totally ready to do anything did i stop drinking....

ive shared before....i had a good job......beautiful daughter......nice wife
nice house......and all the fast cars i could eat

None of it sobered me up .....in fact i couldnt give a toss when i was drinking.

Only the 12 steps.....god and aa have got me sober.

And happy being sober.....

this may not be you..........but it is my experience..

Get a sponsor get hold of that big book like your life depends on it...cos mine does.

I pray that you see YOUR truth............trucker