ImagineMe

I am on day seven since my slip. I had 60ish days prior to that. Today my husband and I took our children over to my inlaws home for dinner.
I was able to sit back and watch as my husband's father had glass after glass of wine. My husband does not drink.
I was a three glasses a night gal and it was hard to watch. They don't know that I have a problem only that I quit Jan 1 of this year. I did explain that I did not think it was normal or healthy to drink every single day. Yet tonight they offered. I had no problem saying no because my slip made me feel so bad that I think I will remember it forever.

That being said, I found myself wishing I was normal. Wishing that I would not feel so crappy after a few glasses of wine. Wishing I could enjoy myself.

And then reality hits. Why on earth would I need wine to enjoy myself.
The way this disease messes with your mind is just amazing.

Anna

I'm glad you got through the dinner.

Yes, I definitely think addiction is a disease that messes with your mind. When you can recognize the addict voice for what it is, it's a big step forward. When you hear the voice, dismiss it and move on.

ANGELINA243

Just don't give up and keep moving forward in recovery.

CarolD

Good jpb on thinking your way into staying sober!
Congratulations...

aardvark

Hi Imagine,

Actually I think it is not normal for humans to drink alcohol. Outside of mammals eating rotting fruit, no other species on earth except man manufacture a poison made from natural products to consume.

Stay the course and have a great day!
E.

ImagineMe

aardvark, you are so right. I agree. I find it pretty silly that it is so used and accepted by so many. I know so many who use and well, they do think it is a normal thing.