louis

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I don't know how many times i can fail at this... it gets harder to stop each time.... One day at a time just isn't working for me just now...
I need to see an end in site....
Im sooooo tired....
I moved flat...
back to work... so working loads.
I work... i don't drink... it helps control it.
My head hurts all the time with craving thoughts.

Sorry i haven't been around.... I had to deal with it alone.... i've got back to a week now but my head still wont let me be happy or give me peace... If im not occupied i think of drink... if im occupied im tired...
When does it end?

Sorry.... cant do happy posts just now.

I hope you guys are doin ok?

Be well
louis

Rusty Zipper

keep plug'n away lou, it does get better...

backporchpoet

Try to find a hobby that isn't so exhausting to occupy your time when you are not at work. Do you play an instrument? Do you like video games or computer games? I went out last week and bought a puzzle. Every night before bed I work on it little by little. It's relaxing and challenging at the same time and it's something that I can actually visualize progress with. With each new night, I am getting closer to completing the puzzle. It's sort of symbolic of my sobriety. When it's done, I plan on gluing it together and framing it and heading out to the store to get a new one! You should try it! Keep your head up. Things will get easier!

Anna

Recovery doesn't end, but it will get better for you.

Keep moving forward and you will positive changes in your life.

Fubarcdn

Good to see you posting again Louis.
I did notice that when you were more active here that your mood was improvimg with each and every post.
It sounds as it isn't going to be easy for you but you can do this.

aardvark

Hi Louis,

I am no expert but Backporch is right, you need to find something to exercise the mind. I really like the puzzle idea because that is what my life is like..

Take Care,
A.

nickishine

Louis....

I get ya! DON'T GIVE UP THOUGH! They say "Don't leave before the miracle happens"...!

It's one heck of a roller-coaster we're on, for sure! Please be aware, however, that there WILL be brighter days ahead. Maybe not in the last several hours, maybe not right now...... but it'll be there...... just up and over the hill you're on!

Take GOOD care, friend!

louis

Thankyou guys.....

I really appreciate your words....
I will head out and get a puzzle when im next off work.... sounds like a good idea.
I've fell out with my computer chess set anyhow.... it cheats!!!!!!

Will try and hang out here too.....

Thanks again...

Be well
louis