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Old 02-25-2009, 10:02 AM
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What if your H.P told you that... I love you and I'm sorry for everything that you had to experience in your life and the route it took. I know that you think it was simply unjust and you wish the cards you were dealt were better then given. I know you struggle to love yourself everyday and sometimes ask why is it worth living, but we all go through things that are a triumph and we can't give up on that alone. You are a fighter and a surviour. You can't go on throwing pitty parties, shake it off. Make yourself most importantly proud and change the outcome. You have to have strength, faith and forgivness. You never deserved none of it and remember the stone will melt in tears. You owe this to yourself aren't you tired of punishing yourself? The Devil will always try to steal your joy and dignity, you have to discipline yourself to give in and let what is be what is and know that you can't control everything, but you can control if you live or die. Stop running your feet are weary and your eye's are all dried out. Live this day and the next like it's your very last savoring every momment. Nobody is perfect and everyone makes mistakes. If you don't forgive you will never be able to fully move forward. If you don't accept that life is what life is and the things that simply have to be with out you will always be fighting.Everybody is not going to like you like you want them too and everybody is not going to be smiling because you are and everybody isn't going to always agree. Leave the dirty behind keep smiling keep your head up, remember the eye's are the keys to the soul. Whatever you have gotten dirty can be cleaned up.Come to a sense of terms of worthyness, be realalistic and stop setting yourself up for failure, but don't limit yourself either. Most of all know that you are loved, but you most love yourself first look in the mirror my child do you love you ?


Would you give in and let go ???
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Old 02-25-2009, 10:15 AM
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Hi I don't get the question, would you give in and let go ???
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Old 02-25-2009, 10:23 AM
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Originally Posted by yeahgr8 View Post
Hi I don't get the question, would you give in and let go ???
Yes like what if that was all you ever really wanted to hear, that nobody told you? Some of us feel as though our whole career of using was because we didn't feel loved, or were hurt, or seen some things we shouldn't have or just simply didn't grow up in the quote on quote ideal way....
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Old 02-25-2009, 10:32 AM
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Personally I don't think it would have made much difference. I enjoyed drinking, it gave me a buzz and thus I drank. I become obsessed with things, like running, computer games, chess, history - it's the way I'm wired. Unfortunately I became obsessed with drinking as well.
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I see what you mean:-)

It would be a cool thing to hear and is really great to read! I would be more keen that i got a sense of direction from it and some sort of inspiration to not use/drink again so that i could be happy.

It's more, for me, pretty factual and i think it would be followed by maybe HP saying ok that said now time for you to do the things you need to in order to achieve what i have said? Hope that makes sense!?!
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Personally I don't think it would have made much difference. I enjoyed drinking, it gave me a buzz and thus I drank. I become obsessed with things, like running, computer games, chess, history - it's the way I'm wired. Unfortunately I became obsessed with drinking as well.


Yea I guess that can be a factor as well, but I already hold the traits of a over addictive personality, just wish it can be directed into all possitives, but you know what they say about everything (Moderation) that's not inviting your own Demons....
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Originally Posted by yeahgr8 View Post
I see what you mean:-)

It would be a cool thing to hear and is really great to read! I would be more keen that i got a sense of direction from it and some sort of inspiration to not use/drink again so that i could be happy.

It's more, for me, pretty factual and i think it would be followed by maybe HP saying ok that said now time for you to do the things you need to in order to achieve what i have said? Hope that makes sense!?!
I totally understand and I'm glad that you do as well. I don't know the mind is a terrible thing to waste and mines is always eating at me, so I try to use it in a possitive way as much and long as possible....Thanks for the feedback
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All that you wrote is everything i wanted to hear.
And I did hear it from people that cared. People
that listened to me.

I grew up in a dysfunctional middle class
family. 2nd oldest of 4 kids. One parent
that was sick using alcohol and prescription
drugs to cope. The other caring, strong,
great role model.

I got the we love u and forgive ur mom
for she is sick and doesnt mean to do the
things she does to you. Physical and verbal
abuse.

So i got the strength and faith to move forward
from one parent and the well...i am an alcoholic.

I have no right to judge another so i let go,
forgive and let my HP take over.

Ive gone thru many changes in my life and
it has been a journey one day at a time.
Family intervention took place and i was
set on the path of recovery to live my life
following the 12 step provided to us.

Ive learned over the years that my main
purpose in life is to help the next recovery
alcoholic by sharing my own experiences,
strengths and hopes with them.

Giving them hope that it is possible to live
happy joyous and free with out drugs or
alcohol one day at a time.
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Old 02-25-2009, 04:13 PM
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Originally Posted by aasharon90 View Post
All that you wrote is everything i wanted to hear.
And I did hear it from people that cared. People
that listened to me.

I grew up in a dysfunctional middle class
family. 2nd oldest of 4 kids. One parent
that was sick using alcohol and prescription
drugs to cope. The other caring, strong,
great role model.

I got the we love u and forgive ur mom
for she is sick and doesnt mean to do the
things she does to you. Physical and verbal
abuse.

So i got the strength and faith to move forward
from one parent and the well...i am an alcoholic.

I have no right to judge another so i let go,
forgive and let my HP take over.

Ive gone thru many changes in my life and
it has been a journey one day at a time.
Family intervention took place and i was
set on the path of recovery to live my life
following the 12 step provided to us.

Ive learned over the years that my main
purpose in life is to help the next recovery
alcoholic by sharing my own experiences,
strengths and hopes with them.

Giving them hope that it is possible to live
happy joyous and free with out drugs or
alcohol one day at a time.
Thank you for the reply, you know it's so funny that you say that because I do went through the same thing and said the same things...I will never turn out to be like them. I darned them in every way possible and couldn't understand how a person can battle and struggle with addictions. I don't know maybe it would have never happened to me if I wasn't surrounded by it, or if it wasn't through my whole blood line (DNA) but that is a total whole no subject that I have mixed feelings about so moving right along...Yeah I ended up like them. The difference with me though is I will beat it....:ghug3
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