dedubya

I touched base here a while back. and well dont really have anything to say except i want to stop drinking. I can drink 12+ (or more) and function (which is scary to me)- i know its killing me. and not doing a dam thing for me. so, i need to set a date- anyone been here? it takes me 6 to feel like I am a human being. thats ridiculous i know. the first day and the next few are what are scaring me....i work 50 hrs a week, and slam at night- usually around 8 or 9 on weekdays- then the weekends its morning to night. what a shame.
anyway- love to all
Dub

jowinbo

hey been there done that! i have to admit it is an awful feeling for the 1st few days! are you worth it? YES,YES,YES!

it is not easy, but you will truly be a different person! give yourself a break, try to not be so hard on you! try, try and try again, we are all hear for you!

grab onto the love that is here and look for a little peace, it will come to you!

God Bless you!
luv jow

jowinbo

i was for years a "funtional drunk" i hid it well, but the it hid me?

:praying

dedubya

thanks man- i need to commit and find a window of time that will give me a couple of days. i know i will detox. apreesh the support.
god bless to you also

Anna

Hi,

Good to see you!

Yes, the first few days will be hard. But, you can do it.

Talk to your dr and you can make a decision to change your life.

dedubya

couldnt tell if you are female- so no insult for man....cool name tho. thanks for the comments.
D

dedubya

hey 51- what are some tips for the first days. the tapering thing never works for me- except for a few days. then whammo- back to the old crap

michigangirl

Just keep trying, keep coming back to SR. (I am not an AA person, but for many here, it has made the difference- so maybe go to a meeting). If you fall, stand up and try again. We are here for you.

Lenina

DW,

Good to see you back! I was worried about you. Why are you waiting to quit?

Love,

Lenina

dedubya

hey there lenina! well- habit, is my first response. i have done this for so long. but also have no idea what my brain is going to do. thanks for caring..
DW

FreeinMilwaukee

Thats fantastic you are going to stop drinking. The first few days are difficult, especially when you're bogged down with other stuff. For me, work diverts my attention from alcohol and helps me to stay straight. If I work too much, however, my defenses get weak. Good for you for reaching out! You can do it!

dedubya

work is why i am alive- to be honest. idle time is a killer for me- and i need that responsbility. thanks.

dedubya

im not a meeting person either- seen a psychologist tho- no probs with that. i just dont like groups to discuss this. but i know it (aa) does work for most..

Lenina

Have you talked to your doctor about an out patient detox plan? You probably will need a few days off but it's doable if you are motivated enough. Keep in mind you have a lot of support here and we are glad to have your company!

Love,

Lenina

dedubya

no i havent Lenina- maybe should. i was really thinking about a counseling dr, i actually know my family dr- he knows people i know- and guess im paranoid. got a pretty good job and well....maybe i will pick a vacation for 3-4 days and take care of this. i need to do it, thanks for the idea.

Lenina

Dub,

Maybe you could ask your doctor for a referral to an addiction specialist. Many doctors haven''t been trained in dealing with alcohol addiction. Don't worry about your doctor knowing friends or family of yours. S/he must abide by confidentially and won't blab.

It's worth looking into!

Love,

Lenina

dedubya

Lenina- I actually have a plethora of addiction specialists around here, wonder why...actually have picked one but havent called them yet. you are a kind person- i think the plan is to plan 4 days off- but meet with the specialist day before my first day off or sometime before. then get to work. we'll see how it works out. thanks- D

FreeinMilwaukee

Withdrawal is much less painful when treated by a doc. You are wise to plan some days off to deal with this. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Horselover

That's exactly why so many have success through AA. I'm not currently in the program, but it keeps people busy and through helping others you get outside of your own head. Just a thought. I know you said you don't believe in God, but there are others that are in the program that manage to get something out of it and aren't Christians. Hope you'll find some sort of group recovery that you can meet at especially on the weekends because that will probably be the hardest time.

Taking5

Definitely see a Dr if you can. There is a sticky called "what to expect" that you should read too.