thinking i am going crazy
thinking i am going crazy 
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Canada
Posts: 367
Jowinbo, I'm a relative newbie at being sober, only 8 days.
That's the best I've done in the last twenty years, when I laid off for 4 months.
It's a freakin' monster we're dealing with.
Just make it through today.
That's all.
Just today.
I'm a newbie 8 day sober man, but have spent the last 35 years drinking professionally.
Very professionally!
I'm not drinking today.
Just today.
You can do it too.
You can win.
Take a deep breath.....
Tell that monster to get lost, go away, beat him down.
Just for today.
If I can do it, you can do it.
Kill the monster.
Just for today.
That's the best I've done in the last twenty years, when I laid off for 4 months.
It's a freakin' monster we're dealing with.
Just make it through today.
That's all.
Just today.
I'm a newbie 8 day sober man, but have spent the last 35 years drinking professionally.
Very professionally!
I'm not drinking today.
Just today.
You can do it too.
You can win.
Take a deep breath.....
Tell that monster to get lost, go away, beat him down.
Just for today.
If I can do it, you can do it.
Kill the monster.
Just for today.
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Toronto, Ontario
Posts: 4,150
It does get easier as time goes by so as Richard says do it one day at a time. If it is hard then come here and post. For me the first week was indeed the hardest and the more time that passes the more confidence you will gain.
The biggest fight is now and you can win it. Good luck.
The biggest fight is now and you can win it. Good luck.
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Join Date: Dec 2003
Posts: 12,136
Cravings can be really intense in the beginning, but they don't last long. Do anything you can to distract yourself. Brush your teeth, eat, go to bed, read a book, take a bath, go for a walk, phone a friend, pray, meditate, punch a pillow.
Just don't drink.
It gets easier.
Just don't drink.
It gets easier.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
For me....early sobriety was very difficult and confusing.
I joined AA and the understanding was immensley helpful.
Keep in focus...Yes! you too can find a better future...
I joined AA and the understanding was immensley helpful.
Keep in focus...Yes! you too can find a better future...
Member
Join Date: Mar 2005
Posts: 1,947
there's probably a few different reasons.
1 is because it's an outright habit. and habits are hard to break.
2 is because, physically, your body wants it
3 is because when we get uncomfortable or bored we want to drink/drug. we don't want to feel these so we cover them up with booze or drugs.
1 is because it's an outright habit. and habits are hard to break.
2 is because, physically, your body wants it
3 is because when we get uncomfortable or bored we want to drink/drug. we don't want to feel these so we cover them up with booze or drugs.
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Join Date: Nov 2005
Location: my room in ct.
Posts: 58,110
jow if it was easy, this recovery board would not be needed...
jow the "isms" in alcolohism...
good wishes to you jow...
rz
wow this is so hard
jow
yet i do not know what makes it so...................
good wishes to you jow...
rz
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Join Date: Dec 2008
Location: Oregon
Posts: 212
Hi Jowinbo- I am on day 7 today and am finding the urges lessening somewhat. What I have found helpful is to completely change my normal routine. Last week I had to get in my car and just drive after work as I associate being home after work with drinking. I also bought some jig-saw puzzles that I am working on while watching TV. Normally I would be holding a glass of wine. I have never done puzzles before in my life and I find doing something new (albeit somewhat silly) is helpful.
I also keep telling myself I don't want to drink. If I wanted to, I would be... so really WE don't want to- it is that dang imp that wants the DOC, not us.
good luck! I will be thinking of you!
I also keep telling myself I don't want to drink. If I wanted to, I would be... so really WE don't want to- it is that dang imp that wants the DOC, not us.
good luck! I will be thinking of you!
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: MN
Posts: 528
I hope today is going better for you!
We are both on the same sobriety date. I can fully understand. I was really having a tough time Friday night. And I thought about it a couple times tonight when it seemed as if everyone else was drinking there tonight but me.
But now I am glad I didn't, and I will be able to get up early & feel good!
Hang in there, new week tomorrow! We made it through another weekend of being sober!
We are both on the same sobriety date. I can fully understand. I was really having a tough time Friday night. And I thought about it a couple times tonight when it seemed as if everyone else was drinking there tonight but me.
But now I am glad I didn't, and I will be able to get up early & feel good!
Hang in there, new week tomorrow! We made it through another weekend of being sober!
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Join Date: Mar 2005
Posts: 1,947
3 is because when we get uncomfortable or bored we want to drink/drug. we don't want to feel these so we cover them up with booze or drugs
whew...i'm exhausted from all the stinking thinking that occured over the course of maybe 2 little hours of my day. it's so nice to go through the uncomfortableness and make it out on the other side--where there is peace and gratitude and inclusion and connectivity
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