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I don't know how much longer I can last...three days of this and no end in sight...and I'm hopeless.
Every second is painful.
I don't have anything or anyone to look forward to.
Every second is painful.
I don't have anything or anyone to look forward to.
I know that feeling, Bam, and I know how much it really sucks. I'm sorry. I wish there was something any one of us could do or say to take it all away. You DO have people here who care about you - an awful lot, actually. We'll do whatever we can to help.
Let's see if we can find something to make you even a little bit happy today.
Let's see if we can find something to make you even a little bit happy today.
I hear ya, Bam... I'm not real happy at the moment either. I'm broke as f*ck on welfare, eBay sh*t ain't sellin', got 2 down computers, and I'll be lucky if my music collection can be saved.. and I'm bored as hell in this wack ass town... it would be really easy to take my last 20 bucks, hunt down a sack, and smoke until I bleed guacamole...
Have you looked into some counseling?
Have you looked into some counseling?
It's time to change!
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Location: lake tahoe
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I feel ya, friend! Some ideas to think about:
* A year, a month, a week, possibly a day from now you won't be feeling the way you are right at this specific moment in time! It passes, it really does! It sucks feeling the "feelings"... but we DO get through them!
* As I said "This Too Shall Pass"......... I know it's an old cliche, but one that is true none-the-less!
* YOU know you are not alone! You've got your friends here (and hopefully support out there with/near you) that care through-and-through about you... no matter what!
* YOU deserve recovery! YOU deserve love! YOU deserve a better life!
* Expect the "unexpected" over your seemingly dire circumstances in your life and/or feelings! One of the greatest joys is the "discovering" accidentally - HOPE in your life!
* Just cuz you can't SEE the light at the end of the tunnel,... doesn't mean that it's not around that up and coming bend! It is there, my friend!
* Success is failure turned inside out!
Bam, I understand "hopelessness".... My hopelessness was when I'd be drowning in that bottle (the many bottles) 24/7! Detoxing I felt it too! It's all a painful process, but then we start taking those tiny, small steps into life sober and it's overwhelming... but it will not last! We will find a new HOPE stemming from sobriety, one day at a time - one moment at a time!
Take care and keep posting, please. We're here and won't leave you! Please don't give in and let the things that have been robbing you of life win! You deserve so much better!
Love and Hugs xoxoxox, Nicki :ghug3:ghug
hi bam! i have drank for over 35 years, the last year on/off, but awful!
i relaspe because i feel restless, irritable and discontented. i stay sober when i feel peaceful, contented and serene...............i am not at this point yet............but am striving for it, and it is not easy, but hang in there, it only gets better!
grab some LOVE from this site to hold onto, everyone cares.......
hugs jowinbo
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Toronto, Ontario
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We are all here for you Bam and although you can't see us or feel us or hold us it doesn't make the support and friendship we are sending out any less real. It may in fact be more real than the support we all get from the people in real life. We are all going through similar feelings at different times. Be strong for yourself and your future.
Bam,
I do hope that somehow you find a way back through the darkness to see a better day. I know from my own wasted life just how alone a person can really feel. Its difficult to see past all the misery and have faith in ourselves at the lowest times of our lives.
You spoke in another thread about a physical illness, acne, and how that shapes your life. I can relate, as can many others, each in our own way, relate to your pain as our own. I totally admire your reaching out and sharing that personal side of your life. We are never so vulnerable as we are when we share ourselves. Bravo!
Bam, please contemplate how very strong, accomplished, and smart you have become facing your personal demons, how very loving you are of yourself and others, and how very likely that although the near future is still somehow bleak, it will get better. Many of us our proof of that, as are you each day, even if those days are impossible to get through. Survival is its own reward!
Thank you for being here, Bam!
Robby
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