Allow myself to re-introduce...myself
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Allow myself to re-introduce...myself
Lame, Austin Powers-ripped attempt at humor aside...
I was active here for a while. I went out for a good month or two there, and it's with moderate excitement and a whole lotta shame that I've returned. I guess I thought I might as well re-introduce myself as a newcomer.
I'm going back to my Sat AM meeting tomorrow, where I'm really dreading identifying as a newcomer again.
I'd love to hear about people's experiences coming back after going out...and going out...and going out. I know that getting deeply involved again is the only way I'm going to make it.
Anyway, my name's David, but here I've gone by B'sT. I'm glad to have this community, and hope I can make y'all glad to have me...again.
All the best, and to all a sober evening.
B'sT
I was active here for a while. I went out for a good month or two there, and it's with moderate excitement and a whole lotta shame that I've returned. I guess I thought I might as well re-introduce myself as a newcomer.
I'm going back to my Sat AM meeting tomorrow, where I'm really dreading identifying as a newcomer again.
I'd love to hear about people's experiences coming back after going out...and going out...and going out. I know that getting deeply involved again is the only way I'm going to make it.
Anyway, my name's David, but here I've gone by B'sT. I'm glad to have this community, and hope I can make y'all glad to have me...again.
All the best, and to all a sober evening.
B'sT
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Join Date: Jan 2009
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Originally Posted by Blake'sTyger 
Lame, Austin Powers-ripped attempt at humor aside...
I was active here for a while. I went out for a good month or two there, and it's with moderate excitement and a whole lotta shame that I've returned. I guess I thought I might as well re-introduce myself as a newcomer.
I'm going back to my Sat AM meeting tomorrow, where I'm really dreading identifying as a newcomer again.
I'd love to hear about people's experiences coming back after going out...and going out...and going out. I know that getting deeply involved again is the only way I'm going to make it.
Anyway, my name's David, but here I've gone by B'sT. I'm glad to have this community, and hope I can make y'all glad to have me...again.
All the best, and to all a sober evening.
B'sT
I was active here for a while. I went out for a good month or two there, and it's with moderate excitement and a whole lotta shame that I've returned. I guess I thought I might as well re-introduce myself as a newcomer.
I'm going back to my Sat AM meeting tomorrow, where I'm really dreading identifying as a newcomer again.
I'd love to hear about people's experiences coming back after going out...and going out...and going out. I know that getting deeply involved again is the only way I'm going to make it.
Anyway, my name's David, but here I've gone by B'sT. I'm glad to have this community, and hope I can make y'all glad to have me...again.
All the best, and to all a sober evening.
B'sT
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Hi B'st ang glad to see you came back. I can only imagine how hard it will be for you to go to that meeting and I can only hope that the people there will be as accepting and glad to see you as I know the people here are. Good luck. You should commend yourself on your courage.
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Join Date: Jan 2009
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Wanted to say HI & welcome Back. I Am on day 9. So pretty new to this, and don't really have any eperience on coming back after being sober for a while, its taken me a couple years to even think I had a problem!
Anyhow Hello & hope you stay!
Anyhow Hello & hope you stay!
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: UK
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Welcome back David, no need for the shame or whatever...if you are an alcoholic your natural state is to drink. We drink until we stop. Every alkie here knows exactly how you feel and what it is like to keep drinking when you really don't want to.
I joined this site in 2005 and posted a few times and then went off and drank for two years, I came back 2 years ago and the longest time I have had sober is 6 months...I am now 29 days sober and feel great, I haven't even wanted to drink. The past doesn't matter, only today matters.
Good luck this time around...it will click some time, why not this time?
I joined this site in 2005 and posted a few times and then went off and drank for two years, I came back 2 years ago and the longest time I have had sober is 6 months...I am now 29 days sober and feel great, I haven't even wanted to drink. The past doesn't matter, only today matters.
Good luck this time around...it will click some time, why not this time?
perpetual optimist
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Montana
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Hi David,
Try not to feel shame. Shame should go to those who don't even try. As they say the first step is the hardest and you've made it. Pat yourself on the back.
I have been sober a few times throughout my life.....but never for a long period of time. It always seems to seep back in. I always decide to "reward" myself for being so good and eventually that brings me back to square one.
Go easy on yourself. You are here and we are here for you. Like I have told a few folks here, this place is like a diary or journal that actually talks back to you giving support and friendship at any time of day.
Welcome!!
Try not to feel shame. Shame should go to those who don't even try. As they say the first step is the hardest and you've made it. Pat yourself on the back.
I have been sober a few times throughout my life.....but never for a long period of time. It always seems to seep back in. I always decide to "reward" myself for being so good and eventually that brings me back to square one.
Go easy on yourself. You are here and we are here for you. Like I have told a few folks here, this place is like a diary or journal that actually talks back to you giving support and friendship at any time of day.
Welcome!!
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
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Welcome back!! I had six months sober until a week ago. Last Sat I drank so I've started over. I too felt shame and regret over my slip but I"m right back on the wagon. I'm glad you came back! You can stay sober, starting with today!:ghug3
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David hi and welcome back...
Thanks for posting that........imo...a important message to all of us...
Before i stopped in 2000.....i spent 18months trying to drink like a man.
Convinced i could wind back the clock and drink for pleasure again...
I was riddled with denial even though i came close to death at one point..
I was the one that very nearly pursued it to the gates of death.
EVEN after all that i continued to try to control it.
Not until every ounce of denial and reservation was smashed did i surrender to the fact that i was alcoholic and id never drink saftly again.
I remember the moment clearly......"i cant do this anymore" and i actually felt relief.....if that makes sense.
Today i dont need a drink or want one.......and i havent wanted one for a good while.
so your not the only one to have a wobbly start.
The miracle is you havent lost the desire to stop and stayed stopped.
Some do and never get back.
Keep posting my friend..........and god be with you.......trucker.
Thanks for posting that........imo...a important message to all of us...
Before i stopped in 2000.....i spent 18months trying to drink like a man.
Convinced i could wind back the clock and drink for pleasure again...
I was riddled with denial even though i came close to death at one point..
I was the one that very nearly pursued it to the gates of death.
EVEN after all that i continued to try to control it.
Not until every ounce of denial and reservation was smashed did i surrender to the fact that i was alcoholic and id never drink saftly again.
I remember the moment clearly......"i cant do this anymore" and i actually felt relief.....if that makes sense.
Today i dont need a drink or want one.......and i havent wanted one for a good while.
so your not the only one to have a wobbly start.
The miracle is you havent lost the desire to stop and stayed stopped.
Some do and never get back.
Keep posting my friend..........and god be with you.......trucker.
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Originally Posted by ViciousCycle
this place is like a diary or journal that actually talks back to you giving support and friendship at any time of day.
Welcome!!
Welcome!!
Welcome back David. Glad you're here to help the cause.
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Welcome home, David.
I relapsed after two years sober in AA. I did this twice, both times after two years. I remember sitting at the back of the room, willing myself to be invisible, and swearing I wasn't going to get a newcomer chip. But they called it out, and I found myself standing, then walking, to the front of the room to collect it. A tremendous weight was lifted from my shoulders and I didn't feel shame. I felt relieved, loved, and hopeful.
Like Carol, I got active with Step work and working with others - and that's when things really turned around for me.
I've got 2 1/2 years clean now, and 3 years without a drink. My life has done a complete 360 - and I feel more whole and serene than I ever have before.
Stay close to recovery, David.
I relapsed after two years sober in AA. I did this twice, both times after two years. I remember sitting at the back of the room, willing myself to be invisible, and swearing I wasn't going to get a newcomer chip. But they called it out, and I found myself standing, then walking, to the front of the room to collect it. A tremendous weight was lifted from my shoulders and I didn't feel shame. I felt relieved, loved, and hopeful.
Like Carol, I got active with Step work and working with others - and that's when things really turned around for me.
I've got 2 1/2 years clean now, and 3 years without a drink. My life has done a complete 360 - and I feel more whole and serene than I ever have before.
Stay close to recovery, David.
Eternal optimist
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: northeast
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Originally Posted by Blake'sTyger
I know that getting deeply involved again is the only way I'm going to make it.
I'm glad you found your way back. Never give up, you're worth it.
BTW, are the lyrics at the bottom of your post from an Ozzy song?
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welcome back
I, too, joined SR about 2 years ago, read a little posted a little, and then went off the wagon. Well, I am back, enjoying day 6 again, this time a little wiser and more humble. Welcome back David, we can be "newcomers" together.
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