colagirl

I've noticed that, while my addict voice likes to find new ways to trick me, it often returns to some common themes. I was making a list in my head earlier today and thought I would write them down so I can remember them later. I also feel like writing them down gives me some power over them, so I might post more as they come to me. Feel free to post your own if you want to.

"You're probably not really an alcoholic - after all, you still have a good job and a house and nobody would ever even know you drink too much. You totally overreacted."

"When you were drinking the most, you were going through a stressful time. Now that things have calmed down, you can probably handle a couple of drinks."

"You won't be able to stop drinking forever, you know. You might as well just get it over with now and have a drink."

"It's not in your personality to not drink. You are a party girl and everyone has fun when you're drinking. You don't want to disappoint people, do you?"

"You have that event next month and you KNOW you'll drink then, so you might as well not bother stopping until after that."

"When your drinking was a problem, you were drinking alone. It can't hurt anything to have a couple when you're out with your friends."

Anna

It's so good to be aware of your addict voice.

I think that it's a big step in recovery.

Once you recognize it, in all its disguises, you can ignore it, and move on.

ExNavyInHouston

Colagirl -- get out of my head -- hehe!

I have used all of those ... well not the "Party Girl" part.

I am headed to Las Vegas this weekend. I am not weak in anyway going, except that I hope I can loosen up and have a good time even with my wagons all in a circle.

colagirl

Good luck in Vegas... I think that would be hard!

Glad to know you haven't called yourself a party girl too

KenL

I never had a addict voice. I just robotically went to the store for more booze without giving it a second thought. I knew it was the wrong thing to do but I did it anyway. Like I said, I was a robot. That's what alcoholism did to me at least.

michigangirl

Wow Colagirl, my voice has used everyone of those on me!! What a great idea to write them down. Tonight mine said "you worked so hard today, you deserve at least one to relax"

masseyman

I have told myself, "Look at you, you've drank a pint and a half of vodka and no one can tell, your in control..."
Probably the only voice I heard from the addict in me. The other ones told me to get my frickin act together.
I think I've been more like KenL, a vodka drinking robotic machine. Like a steam engine only with ethanol.

Good thread.

Peace.

coffeenut

Good for you for facing that voice!

You can do this!

Mariposa18

OMG, those are ME!!!! You know what I did to that voice when it popped into my head the other day? Then I had a Cherry Sprite =) Although it sucks that we still have these thoughts it's nice to know I'm not alone~

colagirl

I know, that's about the only sanity in the whole thing

jsml1234

One time at band camp...

Katie09

One drink won't hurt, one bottle won't hurt, one bottle each Saturday night won't hurt, I can handle one bottle, red wine is good for you, you breathe better when you're drinking red wine, everyone can handle one bottle of wine, you haven't had a drink in 7 days and that is pretty good, it's no big deal if I have to start over, one bottle won't lead to withdrawals, no one has to know, you'll sleep better, you'll clean the house if you get some wine (quite the opposite). However, most of all, I forget the physical pain I was dealing with that led to my commitment to not drink.

snowdog

Colagirl- your voice and my voice must have went to the same school!!

ToABetterMe

K, this made me laugh!!!

Zetebi

That just sounds like a normal person having a normal problem.
How does those thoughts make you an addict?

ToABetterMe

Really?

They pertain to alot of us that get up every day & pray for strength to not be sucked back in, to not talk our selves out of the fact that we are addicts.

123bubblegum123

same!!!

shaun00

hi cola girl.......what a great post and i fully relate to it,..i posted a few times about the "whispering voices"..

They have bothered me from day one really...

I think they will always be there its just how i manage them that is different.
They have changed over the years and have become less direct..

For the first year or two it would be......."come on give it up your never gonna make it anyway"........your boring if you dont drink......just drink weekends........just drink beer....just dont drink this week and next week reward yourself....la la la la fantasy nonsense.

These days it comes in what i call "sidewinders" or "through the back door "rather than the front.

Stuff like.....you can have that dish it only got a bit of alcohol in it.....or
lets go to the bar...your be fine.........or...lets go to a club....or casino.
Not coming directly as booze.... rather trying to talk me into going to places with booze in them...

It number one goal is to get me back on the booze..

What it dont realize is....ITS BEEN RUMBBLED.....I KNOW THE TRUTH!

I know in the pit of my stomach and its branded on my brain that i am an alcoholic.
And i fully accept that...........I CANNOT DRINK SAFELY AND WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO DRINK SAFELY.

These voices have taken many i newcomer back out round the block again...only some dont get back.

Thanks again for that post........make me feel that im not alone......trucker

IO Storm

Wow, CG.. you covered the bases.

The above were probably my last two to go. Except..I never calmed down and I

never could stop at one drink!

Good for you for the ability and awareness to recognize the "voice."

Dark and deadly thing it is.

Hugs and prayers for your continued success.

kels

"You won't be able to stop drinking forever, you know. You might as well just get it over with now and have a drink."

This is a big one for me. Along with

"Just have a few drinks tonight - you'll quit next week."

"You'll only have one or two - come on!" (knowing that is a lie)

"It's Friday night" or Saturday or midweek, or if it's Thus, it's almost Friday...

The one that gets me lately comes from out of NOWHERE. Mid afternoon.

Why don't you have a drink tonight?

ARRGGG. I quit smoking years ago, and used to get the same voice. Why not have a nice cigarette. It took quite some time to shut that one up, but I did.

Positive thoughts for our continued success!





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