Drinkers that hide it
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Drinkers that hide it
I am just courious if there were other people that when they drank, would "Hide it" from others.
I always had no problem making a drink or doing shots with all my friends, family, heck they are all drinkers!
However when I started to figure out I could drink 2 to hubby's one, or I know its only 2pm and Im playing out side with the kids & probably not best for hubby or the neighbors to see me drinking I started sneaking sips in bottles I kept outside.
Well when Hubby found the bottles he got pissed.
Well as you can image he would start saying things like
"can't you go one night without drinking?"
Well of course if can!!! right?? It was then I had to get more & more creative because the kids were saying things.
God when I think of all the places I would leave little bottles its scary!
That way the nights hubby wasn't drinking or the kids were around I could go "do laundry" & have pleanty to drink in there.
I thought of this because today when I went under the kitchen sick, I found one of my water bottles of alcohol! EEK!
I will admit my VERY first thought was I should just re-hide this "incase" I need it later. But than before I could even have another thought something just made me open it & pour it out.
Just wondering if others used to hide it?
I always had no problem making a drink or doing shots with all my friends, family, heck they are all drinkers!
However when I started to figure out I could drink 2 to hubby's one, or I know its only 2pm and Im playing out side with the kids & probably not best for hubby or the neighbors to see me drinking I started sneaking sips in bottles I kept outside.
Well when Hubby found the bottles he got pissed.
Well as you can image he would start saying things like
"can't you go one night without drinking?"
Well of course if can!!! right?? It was then I had to get more & more creative because the kids were saying things.
God when I think of all the places I would leave little bottles its scary!
That way the nights hubby wasn't drinking or the kids were around I could go "do laundry" & have pleanty to drink in there.
I thought of this because today when I went under the kitchen sick, I found one of my water bottles of alcohol! EEK!
I will admit my VERY first thought was I should just re-hide this "incase" I need it later. But than before I could even have another thought something just made me open it & pour it out.
Just wondering if others used to hide it?
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Good for you for pouring it out. Big step. I was never a hider as I did most of my drinking at bars. I did spend a considerable amount of times trying to get the server to give me one more and if that didn't work going to the next bar and trying to hide the fact Iwas already way over.
Oh, yeah! I kept 100 proof vodka in a hairspray bottle, played miniature golf with my son with a Dr. Pepper can filled with vodka, kept a bottle of booze in my desk drawer to mix with my morning orange juice, walked the dog with a coffee cup filled with beer. Had to calm the shakes, you know. (I'm sure no one noticed, right?) I'm glad you brought that up, it's one of the side benefits of getting well - the not having to hide things and be deceitful. All the trouble we go to in order to stay in our numb state. I have no idea why I convinced myself I needed it to live.
Oh HECK YES I hid it!! Vodka, Jager, tequila, rum, even peppermint schnapps. I was careful about where I put my stash because I didn't want anyone else in the house to stumble upon any of it, but yes, oh yes. I most certainly hid my booze. Had to protect my habit, you know. If anyone figured out just how much I was drinking they might try to get me to stop!
And I was the QUEEN of sneaking booze into my can of Diet Coke, too.
Good lord I'm glad I don't live like that anymore.
And I was the QUEEN of sneaking booze into my can of Diet Coke, too.
Good lord I'm glad I don't live like that anymore.
I used Vitamin water bottles and gatorade so I looked real healthy. Right....I always had to hide those as I was afraid my kids would take a drink since they drink the same things. I hid bottles in all kinds of places. Very humiliating when I look back. I am only on day 4 and hope I don't ever go back to having to do that. Oh yea I would put it in my diet coke too as noone else in the family likes it. I felt pathetic. So Tobeabetterme, it sounds like you were far from alone!
Oh I always hid my drinking, at least I tried to.
The more I drank, the harder that became and eventually I was only fooling myself.
Getting honest with myself has been a huge part of recovery.
The more I drank, the harder that became and eventually I was only fooling myself.
Getting honest with myself has been a huge part of recovery.
Yup: I was quite the pro at it. My oil and vinegar shelf was perfect: some of those bottles were pretty large, when I stashed a liquor bottle way in back, no one was the wiser. Looked like a big bottle of olive oil. The kitchen was my territory, I found lots of places for booze there. Beers were kept way back in the vegetable bin, hiding under carrots. My bedroom closet was a true wonderland of booze: it was jam packed with all sorts of stuff. I would stuff beers and wine bottles in with bags of clothes headed for goodwill, stash bottles behind a suitcase, etc, etc. The back of a shelf near my computer, in the storage shed, in the bathroom behind a small trash can.
why did I hide it? My drinking was excessive and 90% of the times I drank were inappropriate times.
why did I hide it? My drinking was excessive and 90% of the times I drank were inappropriate times.
I would venture to guess that 85% of alcoholics hide alcohol at one time or another. I know I did BUT my drinking was expensive because for the most part I only had as much as I could drink in a day or two. I never wanted my husband to find it or find more than one bottle. I could tell you most public trash cans within a mile radius from my house.
Wow, that is probably one of the very best feelings today. I don't have to hide anything anymore!
Wow, that is probably one of the very best feelings today. I don't have to hide anything anymore!
Heck yea. Hiding bottles is what actually brought me here. I was googling "hiding alcohol bottles" and found this:
Funny, yet sad.
This happened after my wife left three empty half-pint bottles of vodka on my desk with a harsh note about 2.5 weeks ago. I don't know where she found them, but apparently my string of hiding bottles had come to an end. I've been sober since and plan on staying that way.
Pepsi bottles were my favorite place, since i also drink water from them. Clear liquors tend to look just like H2O, ya know? I hid booze in my boots, my clothes dresser, behind my massive computer monitor, in my file cabinet (behind the hanging folders), in the basement ceiling, and in the garage. I'm so glad those days of hiding it over when i finally opened up and told my wife about the reality of the situation.
Ironically enough, she just walked in to tell me dinner is ready and i felt guilty about her possibly seeing this post (how sad is that?) and she felt something was wrong. She asked me if i had been drinking today. With a clear conscience, i was able to say, "Oh god, no. Not a drop." It feels good to be honest about this stuff finally, even though it's only been a short time so far. The damage will take years to repair.
I hope you feel a portion of my relief at not having to hide yourself and bottles. It's a weight that continually weighs upon you. No fun.
Funny, yet sad.
This happened after my wife left three empty half-pint bottles of vodka on my desk with a harsh note about 2.5 weeks ago. I don't know where she found them, but apparently my string of hiding bottles had come to an end. I've been sober since and plan on staying that way.
Pepsi bottles were my favorite place, since i also drink water from them. Clear liquors tend to look just like H2O, ya know? I hid booze in my boots, my clothes dresser, behind my massive computer monitor, in my file cabinet (behind the hanging folders), in the basement ceiling, and in the garage. I'm so glad those days of hiding it over when i finally opened up and told my wife about the reality of the situation.
Ironically enough, she just walked in to tell me dinner is ready and i felt guilty about her possibly seeing this post (how sad is that?) and she felt something was wrong. She asked me if i had been drinking today. With a clear conscience, i was able to say, "Oh god, no. Not a drop." It feels good to be honest about this stuff finally, even though it's only been a short time so far. The damage will take years to repair.
I hope you feel a portion of my relief at not having to hide yourself and bottles. It's a weight that continually weighs upon you. No fun.
Oh sure... when I was still married, I would stock the bathroom sink console with alcohol so I could "go to the bathroom" and get another drink in me. That way, ex-h would only actually witness about every other drink I had.
Once we split up, I was so excited I didn't have to hide it in the house, but I still felt so ashamed when I had to bring out the recycling bin filled to the brim with bottles or cans each week. I'm only wave-and-say-hello friendly with my neighbors but I was still so embarrassed.
Once we split up, I was so excited I didn't have to hide it in the house, but I still felt so ashamed when I had to bring out the recycling bin filled to the brim with bottles or cans each week. I'm only wave-and-say-hello friendly with my neighbors but I was still so embarrassed.
Welcome Tobeabetterme!
My head was nodding all the way through this post. I thought I was pretty clever with some of my hiding techniques but some here have me beat lol!
I wanted my family to think I was done drinking so in order to continue the charade I had to hide it.
What a game -- it went like this: I'd have to find a store I hadn't visited recently buying groceries or wine so the cashier wouldn't remember me from a few days ago, I had a whole rotational routine. Next, I'd have to sneak the bottle in my house (in my gym bag etc.). Then hide it in the closet upstairs or in the basement closet (depending on who was home as I would have a better chance to sneak filling my cup). Then I'd stash travel mugs all over the house, one in the kitchen under the sink because it was easier to actually get a drink with my head in there. One would be in the bathroom under the cabinet so I could really pound some wine down with no one around. Another one would be in the bedroom so I could put away clothes and have more. Oh it was exhausting. That is what brought me here too. I was so ashamed about that, how much time and thought went into my insanity.
Nevertheless, I'm done and it feels better. You are not alone, you will find much support at SR. I'm glad you're here
My head was nodding all the way through this post. I thought I was pretty clever with some of my hiding techniques but some here have me beat lol!
I wanted my family to think I was done drinking so in order to continue the charade I had to hide it.
What a game -- it went like this: I'd have to find a store I hadn't visited recently buying groceries or wine so the cashier wouldn't remember me from a few days ago, I had a whole rotational routine. Next, I'd have to sneak the bottle in my house (in my gym bag etc.). Then hide it in the closet upstairs or in the basement closet (depending on who was home as I would have a better chance to sneak filling my cup). Then I'd stash travel mugs all over the house, one in the kitchen under the sink because it was easier to actually get a drink with my head in there. One would be in the bathroom under the cabinet so I could really pound some wine down with no one around. Another one would be in the bedroom so I could put away clothes and have more. Oh it was exhausting. That is what brought me here too. I was so ashamed about that, how much time and thought went into my insanity.
Nevertheless, I'm done and it feels better. You are not alone, you will find much support at SR. I'm glad you're here
I never hid mine at home as I did most of my drinking out and at times I would kind of make that look different than it was. Due to the fact I drank so much even around my drinking friends I felt ashamed to show that. I started drinking at home in during the day before I even went out. Towards the end of my drinking days I would never hide it and would keep plenty of Vodka in my freezer to be sure I would not lose it as it became a true need every morning starting as soon as I got out of bed which was usually around 5 30 am, wow what a deal those days were. I am glad that I can remember them so well as they provide me with the fear needed as to the pure fact that I will die if I drink again.
JT
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Yep I to hid it from everyone, my family, coworkers, neighbors, even my doctor and therapist. I had to tell everyone the truth when I was hospitalized at 27 with alcoholic pancreatitis and hepatitis.
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I would buy large bottles of wing(cheaper) and pour it into two smaller wine bottles and then I would have to dispose of the large wine bottle in a public garbage can , not in our recycle bin. then if my husband found the two bottles in our kitchen he never could tell how much I had because I had two bottles going. I would also hide a 3 liter box of wine in my cupboards way in the back and fill the bottles as needed.
I went to great lengths to protect my drinking. I would hide my wine glass on the counter behind things and gulp it when I would walk by so my husband would not notice.
I really hated the deceit. I am so glad I can finally wake up in the morning and living a real life
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I went to great lengths to protect my drinking. I would hide my wine glass on the counter behind things and gulp it when I would walk by so my husband would not notice.
I really hated the deceit. I am so glad I can finally wake up in the morning and living a real life
jules 67
Oh jules, your post just reminded me of something else I used to do. I'm almost too ashamed to even type it here.
If I ever drank from the "public" supply at our house instead of my own (hidden) stash, where my hubby could possibly notice the next day how much I drank, I made a point of positioning the bottle in an obscure location before I went to bed (put stuff in front of it, or lay it on its side so it was hard to see exactly how much was in the bottle). The next day I'd go to the liquor store and buy a new bottle and refill "our" bottle to a more acceptable level. That way if he ever decided to monitor the level in the bottle it would look like I was drinking a more reasonable amount than I was. The added bonus for me was, of course, I got to keep the rest of that newly purchased bottle as part of my stash.
*hangs head in shame*
If I ever drank from the "public" supply at our house instead of my own (hidden) stash, where my hubby could possibly notice the next day how much I drank, I made a point of positioning the bottle in an obscure location before I went to bed (put stuff in front of it, or lay it on its side so it was hard to see exactly how much was in the bottle). The next day I'd go to the liquor store and buy a new bottle and refill "our" bottle to a more acceptable level. That way if he ever decided to monitor the level in the bottle it would look like I was drinking a more reasonable amount than I was. The added bonus for me was, of course, I got to keep the rest of that newly purchased bottle as part of my stash.
*hangs head in shame*
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my husband came up behind me while I was typing the ways I hid alcohol and I freaked and covered the screen with my hand.
He was taken aback and asked what i was typing and I vaguely told him about the site and responding to questions ect.
I feel not ready to tell him all the dirty , shameful details of how I managed to lie about how much I drank for years. I think he would be shocked at how much I drank everynight.
jules
He was taken aback and asked what i was typing and I vaguely told him about the site and responding to questions ect.
I feel not ready to tell him all the dirty , shameful details of how I managed to lie about how much I drank for years. I think he would be shocked at how much I drank everynight.
jules
Jules, get out of my head! That's exactly what i was describing above wrt my wife! I was acting so odd, she asked me if i had been drinking! Ahhhhhhh!
Trying, i can't believe how many times i replaced the empty rum bottle with water until i could get another bottle. When it was down low or nearly empty, i would do just as you did and replace some to an acceptable level. We think we're so damn clever when we're doing it and really it's just rehashing the same old alcoholic behavior that's been done since the dawn of time.
*joins TSH in hanging head in shame*
Trying, i can't believe how many times i replaced the empty rum bottle with water until i could get another bottle. When it was down low or nearly empty, i would do just as you did and replace some to an acceptable level. We think we're so damn clever when we're doing it and really it's just rehashing the same old alcoholic behavior that's been done since the dawn of time.
*joins TSH in hanging head in shame*
No, Trying, the shame would be if we never told another soul. It's horrible for us to keep such secrets, and so freeing to be able to share this. I am so grateful to be in your company here on SR. Thank you everyone for your openness. It feels so good to get it all out in the open & let the light shine on it.
Hevyn, hiding takes effort. I have a poster in my classroom that reads, "If you tell the truth, you never have to remember what you said." This applies to what you do, as well. They have not invented a word in the English language yet to express how much of a weight came off my chest when i finally opened up honestly to my wife about my problem. As they say, the cat was out of the bag. He was not going back in. Relief.
I had a bottle just about everywhere on my farm. I have 5 barns, think of all the possibilities....
In my chainsaw case, in the tool box on both my tractors, in my mechanics box, on the shelves....on and on.
I put vodka in water bottles when I was away from home. One time when my son was little I had it in the back of my snowmobile during a family winter picnic at my mom and dad's house. My son came inside with this weird look on his face and asked why my water tasted so gross. He was 8 at the time. That was almost 10 years ago, I should've quit then but I joked to my wife that a little would'nt hurt him and kept on doing it.
I've been a jerk, and a pro closet addict for many years.
Too many stories to tell.
In my chainsaw case, in the tool box on both my tractors, in my mechanics box, on the shelves....on and on.
I put vodka in water bottles when I was away from home. One time when my son was little I had it in the back of my snowmobile during a family winter picnic at my mom and dad's house. My son came inside with this weird look on his face and asked why my water tasted so gross. He was 8 at the time. That was almost 10 years ago, I should've quit then but I joked to my wife that a little would'nt hurt him and kept on doing it.
I've been a jerk, and a pro closet addict for many years.
Too many stories to tell.
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