Didn't Make it Last night
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Didn't Make it Last night
Last night was terrible. I had cravings so bad I wanted to hurl myself out the window. I was in alot of physical pain for overexerting myself (walked for two miles, up hill).
Everyone was drinking last night, from the people outside my apartment to everyone one of my friends on Myspace or Facebook updating their status' to say that they just opened a bottle of Champagne or going to go out and get rip roaring drunk. I can't describe the lonliness I felt last night. And two people who broke their sobriety yesterday also were a bit of a trigger also (that is always a trigger for me for some reason).
I came on here last night, contemplating posting what I was going through, but I didn't want to be talked out of it this time.
Anyway, part of me feels glad that I did it, to remind myself how horrible it is. And I feel some relief and comfort in posting this, and seeing my counselor in an hour. I'm making a promise to myself to post next time I have a craving whether I want to or not.
Thanks.
Everyone was drinking last night, from the people outside my apartment to everyone one of my friends on Myspace or Facebook updating their status' to say that they just opened a bottle of Champagne or going to go out and get rip roaring drunk. I can't describe the lonliness I felt last night. And two people who broke their sobriety yesterday also were a bit of a trigger also (that is always a trigger for me for some reason).
I came on here last night, contemplating posting what I was going through, but I didn't want to be talked out of it this time.
Anyway, part of me feels glad that I did it, to remind myself how horrible it is. And I feel some relief and comfort in posting this, and seeing my counselor in an hour. I'm making a promise to myself to post next time I have a craving whether I want to or not.
Thanks.
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I think early sobriety involves a lot of hard changes.
My suggestion is to stay away from facebook and myspace until you feel stronger.
Maybe you could try to get involved in an activity that would have you meeting new people.
You can do this, LaDita!
My suggestion is to stay away from facebook and myspace until you feel stronger.
Maybe you could try to get involved in an activity that would have you meeting new people.
You can do this, LaDita!
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Originally Posted by LaDita 
I'm making a promise to myself to post next time I have a craving whether I want to or not.
I hope you have a good visit with your counselor, and I hope you're not feeling too horrible today.
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I have faith that you will start over again and post here when you feel like picking up. I really wanted to pick up a few days ago and I am glad I came here for the support instead.
Much love
Much love
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Originally Posted by LaDita
Thanks. Yes, I do need to stay off Myspace and Facebook.
They have been triggers for me often.
They have been triggers for me often.
Please, come here next time. I don't think you need to continue learning this lesson. Take Care of Yourself Sweetie :ghug3
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LaDita,
So glad you posted here and let us know what happened! "Cunning, baffling & powerful" is this disease!!! Glad you're seeing this as a reminder for what drinking does to you. We all understand here and have been there -- or are there right now! This is such a great place to unleash to those who truly know what it's all about --- the insanity!
Keep posting, reading and reaching!
Hugs, Nicki :ghug
So glad you posted here and let us know what happened! "Cunning, baffling & powerful" is this disease!!! Glad you're seeing this as a reminder for what drinking does to you. We all understand here and have been there -- or are there right now! This is such a great place to unleash to those who truly know what it's all about --- the insanity!
Keep posting, reading and reaching!
Hugs, Nicki :ghug
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I spent everywaking hour that I wasn't busy here at SR, for about 9 months. This is the one and only place I felt safe untill I began therapy.
If you need someone to talk to - there is always someone here to help you out. :ghug2
If you need someone to talk to - there is always someone here to help you out. :ghug2
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It's close to the end of Day 3 and I've felt horrible for the greater portion of it. I was totally out of my sobriety, thinking about 'the good times' and wanting to go back for more. Tomorrow will be a better day.
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Originally Posted by LaDita
I was totally out of my sobriety, thinking about 'the good times' and wanting to go back for more.
I feel ya...those movie clips keep rewinding and playing in my head too. But I know how the movie ends
Tomorrow will be a better day.
I feel ya...those movie clips keep rewinding and playing in my head too. But I know how the movie ends
Tomorrow will be a better day.
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Originally Posted by LaDita
Last night was terrible. I had cravings so bad I wanted to hurl myself out the window. I was in alot of physical pain for overexerting myself (walked for two miles, up hill).
Everyone was drinking last night, from the people outside my apartment to everyone one of my friends on Myspace or Facebook updating their status' to say that they just opened a bottle of Champagne or going to go out and get rip roaring drunk. I can't describe the lonliness I felt last night. And two people who broke their sobriety yesterday also were a bit of a trigger also (that is always a trigger for me for some reason).
I came on here last night, contemplating posting what I was going through, but I didn't want to be talked out of it this time.
Anyway, part of me feels glad that I did it, to remind myself how horrible it is. And I feel some relief and comfort in posting this, and seeing my counselor in an hour. I'm making a promise to myself to post next time I have a craving whether I want to or not.
Thanks.
Everyone was drinking last night, from the people outside my apartment to everyone one of my friends on Myspace or Facebook updating their status' to say that they just opened a bottle of Champagne or going to go out and get rip roaring drunk. I can't describe the lonliness I felt last night. And two people who broke their sobriety yesterday also were a bit of a trigger also (that is always a trigger for me for some reason).
I came on here last night, contemplating posting what I was going through, but I didn't want to be talked out of it this time.
Anyway, part of me feels glad that I did it, to remind myself how horrible it is. And I feel some relief and comfort in posting this, and seeing my counselor in an hour. I'm making a promise to myself to post next time I have a craving whether I want to or not.
Thanks.
i got some good advise to just pour a big ole soda & sit next to him. It some how worked, but wasn't easy!
:praying for you.
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Use every resource at your disposal to stay sober. Those old "friends" who drink and go on about it to you are not real friends.....Stay in meetings, stay on here, just don't give up. All the old needs to go on hold until you feel you are far enough into recovery to revisit them. We are all here for you...........
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