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Hello,
I ran across this site after doing a search for an online al-anon forum.
My wife is an alcoholic. Neither of us realized it until this past year. We just figured we both like to go out and have fun a lot. We were always going out drinking which was fun because I liked going out. But when it came time to settle down she couldn't. I could start to see that it was a bit more than just going out partying bit by bit.
She tended to drink whenever I went out of town for work. Drinking combined with her being very co-dependent wasn't very good when I was away. There was always some sort of drama that would come of it.
Eventually she hit a low while I was gone and we realized that she had a problem with alcohol. She went to counseling which brought her finally to Alcoholics Anonymous.
I went with her as well for support and to learn what I could do to help. She quit drinking for almost a month a couple of times but then after being unsuccessful she decided she didn't want to quit (all while I was looking for another job with no travel). She ended up having a mental breakdown with me being gone again combined with a whole lot of drinking and she ended up cheating on me (come to find out she just made out with the guy but she was drunk and messed up). When I thought that she had cheated I told her that we'd get a divorce unless she stopped drinking, even going as far as buying atibuse which would make her sick if she took a drink. When she read the bottle and all that it did to her and the fact that perfume and a bunch of other things have alcohol in it and it would make her sick we took the script back.
She got a little better after that whole incident. I got a new job and we relocated. She started drinking again but gave up wine (she'd start drinking wine after we got home from drinking and finish the bottle and stay up half the night).
For a little while she was using Xanax to help her sleep. Alcohol gives her a lot of energy and she can't sleep, so we decided we'd just have a few drinks and then she'd take Xanax and she'd fall asleep.
That wasn't a good idea because she became addicted to Xanax and when she ran out we found out that the withdrawl is severe. She was fortunate to get over the withdrawl after 3 weeks.
So now she drinks every other day almost like clockwork. She hasn't figured out the pattern but I have. She drank yesterday so today will be a good day. Tomorrow she'll want to go out when I get home or since she bought a 12 pack of beer yesterday and there is some left she'll probably be started on that tomorrow before I get home from work.
Things are ok right now as far as the drama goes. We're still in transition mode with moving and everything so that's enough drama to keep her going.
Anyway, just thought I'd get that out of the way since I don't really have anyone to talk to about all of this.
I ran across this site after doing a search for an online al-anon forum.
My wife is an alcoholic. Neither of us realized it until this past year. We just figured we both like to go out and have fun a lot. We were always going out drinking which was fun because I liked going out. But when it came time to settle down she couldn't. I could start to see that it was a bit more than just going out partying bit by bit.
She tended to drink whenever I went out of town for work. Drinking combined with her being very co-dependent wasn't very good when I was away. There was always some sort of drama that would come of it.
Eventually she hit a low while I was gone and we realized that she had a problem with alcohol. She went to counseling which brought her finally to Alcoholics Anonymous.
I went with her as well for support and to learn what I could do to help. She quit drinking for almost a month a couple of times but then after being unsuccessful she decided she didn't want to quit (all while I was looking for another job with no travel). She ended up having a mental breakdown with me being gone again combined with a whole lot of drinking and she ended up cheating on me (come to find out she just made out with the guy but she was drunk and messed up). When I thought that she had cheated I told her that we'd get a divorce unless she stopped drinking, even going as far as buying atibuse which would make her sick if she took a drink. When she read the bottle and all that it did to her and the fact that perfume and a bunch of other things have alcohol in it and it would make her sick we took the script back.
She got a little better after that whole incident. I got a new job and we relocated. She started drinking again but gave up wine (she'd start drinking wine after we got home from drinking and finish the bottle and stay up half the night).
For a little while she was using Xanax to help her sleep. Alcohol gives her a lot of energy and she can't sleep, so we decided we'd just have a few drinks and then she'd take Xanax and she'd fall asleep.
That wasn't a good idea because she became addicted to Xanax and when she ran out we found out that the withdrawl is severe. She was fortunate to get over the withdrawl after 3 weeks.
So now she drinks every other day almost like clockwork. She hasn't figured out the pattern but I have. She drank yesterday so today will be a good day. Tomorrow she'll want to go out when I get home or since she bought a 12 pack of beer yesterday and there is some left she'll probably be started on that tomorrow before I get home from work.
Things are ok right now as far as the drama goes. We're still in transition mode with moving and everything so that's enough drama to keep her going.
Anyway, just thought I'd get that out of the way since I don't really have anyone to talk to about all of this.
Hey there, CAE, welcome to SR. So glad you found this place -- especially right now, we seem to have a bunch of husbands who are searching for support with alcoholic spouses, so you're (for better or for worse) in good company.
Read around the stories on this forum - take some time, and keep an open mind - and especially have a look at the "Sticky" posts at the top of the forum. There is a huge wellspring of wisdom and experience here, complete with success stories, suggestions, ideas, tough love, and everything else you might need to improve your situation.
Living with an active alcoholic can be miserable. Have you ever considered finding a local Al-Anon (friends & family) group to sit in on? You've gone to AA with her, but what have you done for YOU ?
Hugs,
GL
Read around the stories on this forum - take some time, and keep an open mind - and especially have a look at the "Sticky" posts at the top of the forum. There is a huge wellspring of wisdom and experience here, complete with success stories, suggestions, ideas, tough love, and everything else you might need to improve your situation.
Living with an active alcoholic can be miserable. Have you ever considered finding a local Al-Anon (friends & family) group to sit in on? You've gone to AA with her, but what have you done for YOU ?
Hugs,
GL
Welcome CAE, I'm glad you found this place and us!
Sounds to me, reading your story, that she has exactly what she wants. She still drinks, she has you home and not out of town working. Her "dramas" are, in my opinion, nothing more than manipulation.
Keep in mind that this is a progressive disease, it doesn't get better on its own.
What have you done for you lately?
Sounds to me, reading your story, that she has exactly what she wants. She still drinks, she has you home and not out of town working. Her "dramas" are, in my opinion, nothing more than manipulation.
Keep in mind that this is a progressive disease, it doesn't get better on its own.
What have you done for you lately?
Are you certain she didn't cheat on you? You say she was "drunk and messed up." If she was telling you she ony made out with the guy, how could she be certain that's all she did if she was drunk?
She hasn't figured out the pattern but I have. She drank yesterday so today will be a good day. Tomorrow she'll want to go out when I get home or since she bought a 12 pack of beer yesterday and there is some left she'll probably be started on that tomorrow before I get home from work.
I hope you will give Al-Anon and/or counseling a try. It sounds like you have a rough road ahead of you. Right now, she isn't ready to seek recovery. That doesn't mean she won't try again in the future. In the meantime, please take care of YOU.
Hello,
I ran across this site after doing a search for an online al-anon forum.
My wife is an alcoholic. Neither of us realized it until this past year. We just figured we both like to go out and have fun a lot. We were always going out drinking which was fun because I liked going out. But when it came time to settle down she couldn't. I could start to see that it was a bit more than just going out partying bit by bit.
She tended to drink whenever I went out of town for work. Drinking combined with her being very co-dependent wasn't very good when I was away. There was always some sort of drama that would come of it.
Eventually she hit a low while I was gone and we realized that she had a problem with alcohol. She went to counseling which brought her finally to Alcoholics Anonymous.
I went with her as well for support and to learn what I could do to help. She quit drinking for almost a month a couple of times but then after being unsuccessful she decided she didn't want to quit (all while I was looking for another job with no travel). She ended up having a mental breakdown with me being gone again combined with a whole lot of drinking and she ended up cheating on me (come to find out she just made out with the guy but she was drunk and messed up). When I thought that she had cheated I told her that we'd get a divorce unless she stopped drinking, even going as far as buying atibuse which would make her sick if she took a drink. When she read the bottle and all that it did to her and the fact that perfume and a bunch of other things have alcohol in it and it would make her sick we took the script back.
She got a little better after that whole incident. I got a new job and we relocated. She started drinking again but gave up wine (she'd start drinking wine after we got home from drinking and finish the bottle and stay up half the night).
For a little while she was using Xanax to help her sleep. Alcohol gives her a lot of energy and she can't sleep, so we decided we'd just have a few drinks and then she'd take Xanax and she'd fall asleep.
That wasn't a good idea because she became addicted to Xanax and when she ran out we found out that the withdrawl is severe. She was fortunate to get over the withdrawl after 3 weeks.
So now she drinks every other day almost like clockwork. She hasn't figured out the pattern but I have. She drank yesterday so today will be a good day. Tomorrow she'll want to go out when I get home or since she bought a 12 pack of beer yesterday and there is some left she'll probably be started on that tomorrow before I get home from work.
Things are ok right now as far as the drama goes. We're still in transition mode with moving and everything so that's enough drama to keep her going.
Anyway, just thought I'd get that out of the way since I don't really have anyone to talk to about all of this.
I ran across this site after doing a search for an online al-anon forum.
My wife is an alcoholic. Neither of us realized it until this past year. We just figured we both like to go out and have fun a lot. We were always going out drinking which was fun because I liked going out. But when it came time to settle down she couldn't. I could start to see that it was a bit more than just going out partying bit by bit.
She tended to drink whenever I went out of town for work. Drinking combined with her being very co-dependent wasn't very good when I was away. There was always some sort of drama that would come of it.
Eventually she hit a low while I was gone and we realized that she had a problem with alcohol. She went to counseling which brought her finally to Alcoholics Anonymous.
I went with her as well for support and to learn what I could do to help. She quit drinking for almost a month a couple of times but then after being unsuccessful she decided she didn't want to quit (all while I was looking for another job with no travel). She ended up having a mental breakdown with me being gone again combined with a whole lot of drinking and she ended up cheating on me (come to find out she just made out with the guy but she was drunk and messed up). When I thought that she had cheated I told her that we'd get a divorce unless she stopped drinking, even going as far as buying atibuse which would make her sick if she took a drink. When she read the bottle and all that it did to her and the fact that perfume and a bunch of other things have alcohol in it and it would make her sick we took the script back.
She got a little better after that whole incident. I got a new job and we relocated. She started drinking again but gave up wine (she'd start drinking wine after we got home from drinking and finish the bottle and stay up half the night).
For a little while she was using Xanax to help her sleep. Alcohol gives her a lot of energy and she can't sleep, so we decided we'd just have a few drinks and then she'd take Xanax and she'd fall asleep.
That wasn't a good idea because she became addicted to Xanax and when she ran out we found out that the withdrawl is severe. She was fortunate to get over the withdrawl after 3 weeks.
So now she drinks every other day almost like clockwork. She hasn't figured out the pattern but I have. She drank yesterday so today will be a good day. Tomorrow she'll want to go out when I get home or since she bought a 12 pack of beer yesterday and there is some left she'll probably be started on that tomorrow before I get home from work.
Things are ok right now as far as the drama goes. We're still in transition mode with moving and everything so that's enough drama to keep her going.
Anyway, just thought I'd get that out of the way since I don't really have anyone to talk to about all of this.
Well, if you want to talk you've come to the right place, you'll find a lot of support here.
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Welcome to SR CAE! Glad that you found us
Please check out our other forums, Our stickys that are filled with a wealth of information.
Looking into going to an Al-Anon meeting would be a great next step!
We cannot change others and certainly not an A! We cannot make anyone see
what we see, although that would be grand!
The choice that you have reached out for support for yourself is wonderful and
the support you will find here will be a wealth of experience, strength & hope for you!
Keep posting!
Please check out our other forums, Our stickys that are filled with a wealth of information.
Looking into going to an Al-Anon meeting would be a great next step!
We cannot change others and certainly not an A! We cannot make anyone see
what we see, although that would be grand!
The choice that you have reached out for support for yourself is wonderful and
the support you will find here will be a wealth of experience, strength & hope for you!
Keep posting!
HI! welcome!
lots of good advice here!
I would just want to add, that you should try to educate yourself about the disease. A quick easy read that helped me was Marriage on the Rocks. There are other helpful book suggestions in the classic reading sticky!
Keep posting!
lots of good advice here!
I would just want to add, that you should try to educate yourself about the disease. A quick easy read that helped me was Marriage on the Rocks. There are other helpful book suggestions in the classic reading sticky!
Keep posting!
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She freely admits that she is co-dependent and I am not too bothered by it because I enjoy being smothered with her affection. It just gets a bit out of hand when she's drinking. Like she -needs- me to be there when she's drunk and will make me well aware of the fact that I'm not there for her at that moment in any way possible.
She does not see the pattern because she is likely in denial that anything is "wrong" with her drinking. She wants to continue drinking. Although you see the pattern, what benefit is it to her? In fact, what benefit is it to you to see that she has a pattern (or, in other words, an addiction). Until she faces up to it, I'm afraid this is going to continue..
btw. The whole 'cheating' incident was at a time when I decided not to play the parent and let her hit a low that I knew she would hit from me not intervening. I love her too much to see her hurt herself. It's almost as if she's two people, and the drunk version of her likes to hurt her sober self. The best way to hurt her sober self is to hurt our relationship.
I went to one Al-Anon meeting. I had to time it so that we were both in a meeting at the same time.
Boy, you must be exhausted from taking care of her. That can be draining after years of trying to save someone from their own addiction. I tried it and failed miserably. Addiction won with him.
What are you doing to take care of yourself?
What are you doing to take care of yourself?
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Welcome CAE, I'm glad you found this place and us!
Sounds to me, reading your story, that she has exactly what she wants. She still drinks, she has you home and not out of town working. Her "dramas" are, in my opinion, nothing more than manipulation.
Keep in mind that this is a progressive disease, it doesn't get better on its own.
What have you done for you lately?
Sounds to me, reading your story, that she has exactly what she wants. She still drinks, she has you home and not out of town working. Her "dramas" are, in my opinion, nothing more than manipulation.
Keep in mind that this is a progressive disease, it doesn't get better on its own.
What have you done for you lately?
I can't think of much I've done for myself lately buy my wife could probably give you a detailed list of every nice thing she has done for me since we were married.
We've been married for just over a year so there's a lot of adjusting going on that's not just the alcohol but just regular marital difficulties as well. I'm certainly not the perfect husband and have my own issues but I think our hardest time was the realization of her addiction and our blind attempts to rectify it. And I'm sure we have much more growing ahead of us.
Welcome to the forum, CAE!
I'm glad that you found us.
When I first learned that my husband was an alcoholic, I still had a great deal of learning to do about what that word meant.
It was scary. When someone becomes chemically dependent upon alcohol, there are MAJOR psychological and physical complications. If the drinking does not stop, the disease progresses along a predictably devastating path. Those who do not find recovery discover that at the end of alcoholism's path lies sickness, madness, and death.
Grasping the truth of this terrifying reality helped me make well-informed, rational decisions about what kind of "growth" could be expected from my relationship with my husband if he did not choose address his addiction. Normal, healthy growth does not occur in the relationship if one member is mired in addiction. And you cannot control your partner's choices/addiction. But you can find lots of growth for yourself - you're in control of that.
It is serious business. Watching the progression is painful. I have discovered that my own network of support is ABSOLUTELY necessary to my sanity and well-being. Al-Anon works for me.
My thoughts and prayers for you and your wife.
Keep posting!
-TC
I'm glad that you found us.
When I first learned that my husband was an alcoholic, I still had a great deal of learning to do about what that word meant.
It was scary. When someone becomes chemically dependent upon alcohol, there are MAJOR psychological and physical complications. If the drinking does not stop, the disease progresses along a predictably devastating path. Those who do not find recovery discover that at the end of alcoholism's path lies sickness, madness, and death.
Grasping the truth of this terrifying reality helped me make well-informed, rational decisions about what kind of "growth" could be expected from my relationship with my husband if he did not choose address his addiction. Normal, healthy growth does not occur in the relationship if one member is mired in addiction. And you cannot control your partner's choices/addiction. But you can find lots of growth for yourself - you're in control of that.
It is serious business. Watching the progression is painful. I have discovered that my own network of support is ABSOLUTELY necessary to my sanity and well-being. Al-Anon works for me.
My thoughts and prayers for you and your wife.
Keep posting!
-TC
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