One year ago today, where were you?
mergirl
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Join Date: Jan 2009
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One year ago today, where were you?
One year ago today I was living with my grand father who had end stages Alzheimer's, taking care of him. I also took care of my brand new nephew so my sister could work. The two of them were amazing together, it was a very significant part of my life.
I was also drinking maybe 3/4 glasses of wine or beers a day, and toking the occasion hit of pot.
I was at the gym every day, eating well, partying my face off some weekends.
Life was good. Life is still good today I think, in ways maybe better, time will tell.
I was also drinking maybe 3/4 glasses of wine or beers a day, and toking the occasion hit of pot.
I was at the gym every day, eating well, partying my face off some weekends.
Life was good. Life is still good today I think, in ways maybe better, time will tell.
bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
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One year ago I was trying, not very successfully, to stop drinking. I couldn't manage more than a day or two, and I went into a detox place for five days. I got drunk the night I got home. I was so ashamed of myself. But I still drank.
THis year is starting out better.
THis year is starting out better.
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Join Date: May 2008
Posts: 49
I was actually in a great place. I just had a baby, I had been sober my entire pregnancy. (my longest sober time) That was the best time of my life. I felt wonderful. Until I decided I could have just one drink, very soon after my baby was born. Now I sit here, depressed because after that first drink I never stopped. I’m trying…and I found this site, and it’s helping me stay hopeful. I would give anything to get back to that wonderful sober time in my life. I keep thinking, if I could do it once, I can do it again!
mle-sober
Join Date: Feb 2008
Location: Golden, CO
Posts: 1,243
I was drunk every single day. Hiding my drinking. Lying about it all the time. Hiding bottles. Trying to convince myself I could control it. Telling myself I would only have 1 and then drinking 8. Hating myself. Confusing my family. Becoming manic from drinking. Overspending. Doing sick and strange things when I was manic - like walking down the street naked. Or throwing raw chicken at people in a restraunt.
I was so sick.
I am so grateful for my sobriety and my wellbeing. I have been sober and well for 11 months.
I was so sick.
I am so grateful for my sobriety and my wellbeing. I have been sober and well for 11 months.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
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(Yes you can, Blue.) I was like Least, still fighting my battle with alcohol and losing. Still ahead of me was a scary binge and a nightmare withdrawal. I'm so thankful I don't have to go back there again.
Next stop: real life
Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: Madison, WI
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One year ago I was at my absolute bottom, and in the process of arranging my detox/inpatient treatment. That's one of the things I'm most proud of - my mother was in England and I was able to handle all the arrangements and do what needed to be done. A few days later I checked into the hospital. 
(((Blue)))
(((Blue)))
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I was coming out of rehab. I was upset because insurance wouldnt cover the whole stay.
I ended up having the longest time clean after that which was 3 mos. But I was left all alone for a week and I was off and running.
I did manage to get 4 mos over this past summer. But once again let my AV take control.
This year is going to be the one.
I ended up having the longest time clean after that which was 3 mos. But I was left all alone for a week and I was off and running.
I did manage to get 4 mos over this past summer. But once again let my AV take control.
This year is going to be the one.
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Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: Texas
Posts: 4,469
Yes, You CAN do it blue. I was here and sober a year ago. That is still strange to me. I used daily for 15 years and now I am nearly 2 years clean and sober. Totally and completely by God's grace. It is there for all of us!
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Join Date: Nov 2008
Location: Central, La.
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You CAN DO IT Blue77. So long as you keep trying and don't quit.
I drank/used 40yrs, thought I was doomed to die in that fashion. In the last few years I didn't give up, kept coming back, and, at last, found recovery for just over two yrs now. It's one day at a time.....I hope you don't take 40 yrs to surrender.........It will work.
We are all here for you
I drank/used 40yrs, thought I was doomed to die in that fashion. In the last few years I didn't give up, kept coming back, and, at last, found recovery for just over two yrs now. It's one day at a time.....I hope you don't take 40 yrs to surrender.........It will work.
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Originally Posted by Blue77 
Thank you Trying and Hevyn for those words. It brings me to tears...hopeful tears!
We're all helpless to this disease. But, if you have hope, you're not hopeless.
A child is a gift given to us.
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Syracuse, NY
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A year ago i would get off work at 7pm and drive home (15mins) and stop at the Mobil station, pick up about 3 24oz Miller Lites or Labatt Ice and go home hiding them in my bag until my girlfriend went to bed and then drink them in the bathroom, sad right? Makes me sick now i am in it for the long run.
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Join Date: Jan 2009
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I was at the hospital
A year ago today, my husband and I were arguing with the hospital about giving my mother in law morphine to ease the pain of her terminal illness. They just didn't seem to get that she was dying!
She died at the end of Jan 2008 and I remember (very clearly) having a couple of sherries to make myself feel better. That was after 18 months of not drinking!
2009 is sooooooooooo much happier, especially the last five days (of not drinking).
BB
She died at the end of Jan 2008 and I remember (very clearly) having a couple of sherries to make myself feel better. That was after 18 months of not drinking!
2009 is sooooooooooo much happier, especially the last five days (of not drinking).
BB
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Location: New England
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I was locked up in the mental health unit psychotic from unmedicated bipolar and it didn't help I was trying to self medicate with a fifth or more of Jack Daniels. Spent 2 months there.
I'm so glad I'm medicated and sober now
I'm so glad I'm medicated and sober now
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