GwenMarie30

Alot of you here know that I have some serious health issues. I have a general doc I see and a GI specialist. Well part of my treatment is pain pills. I have told both docs that I am a recovering meth addict for the last 3 years. Ive never even had a relapse. But as a RA, I tell my docs up front so I dont take advantage as addicts are want to do. I have been nothing but honest. Well I went to my general doc last month for routine stuff. He drop me for a drug test without my knowing. I have kidney stones an this will be the 3rd time this year that I need surgery for it. I have had kidney failure and etc, etc. So I was there to see him for what I thought was a kidney infection or UTI and when I thought he asked for a urine sample for a test, he was actually testingmy urine for other drugs too with out my knowlege. He came in the room with a sceptical look on his face and asked me what else I was taking. I ran off the things that he should alsready know that I was taking and he kept saying 'What else?'. He said I showed positive for benzo's. I was floored. FOr the the fact that he was actually testing me without consent(would he do this to a non drug addict?), and two was the fact that he wouldnt really believe me. I was mad. Told him to send it to a lab. Then I got to thinking that since Im on probation still, I needed to know what it was that would make me show positive. I was really mad. It came back from the lab as being a false positive. Well, I had to see him again this month for routine check up. He did another urine test and there was alot of blood in urine from the still constant kidney stones. I dont have mdical insurance and I have a bill thats really high that my kidney doc wont do the surgery unless I can come up with a $800-1000 first. SO I live in constant pain from the stones. Aside from the stones I have Crohns Disease that is very active and has me hospitalized at least 6-8 times since May of 2008. Anyway, I went to see general doc and he said that he had a letter from my GI stating that I was getting pain pills from both docs. I explained to both docs that I got my pain meds from regular doc and only got pain meds from GI doc when I couldnt get in to see other doc but always told the other that I had gotten a script from the other doc. Ive never lied or doctor shopped. Ive always been honest and up front. Well my docs seem to be in agreement that I have a problem with my pain meds and want me to now go see a pain management doc that I have to pay for out of pocket just to see if my pain is really valid. He doesnt feel comfortable giving me my pain meds anymore nd told me to ween off. HHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL LLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

6-8 hospital stays?
BLOOD IN URINE?

I AM SO SICK OF THIS I COULD JUST SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im sick of being punished for being honest. I feel like Im slowly dying and they could give a sh#* less. Whats it gonna take? ANother kidney failure and being in intensive care again? Almost dead? Or just permanant damage to my kidneys?

I cant see another doc as I dont have medical insurance. These docs have been seeing me with out payment. They know Im filing for Social security disability and medicaid. They are treating me with other meds buit are giving me a hard time with any kind of pain relief. The pills I take are my only way I can literally get out of bed during the day. Im becoming immune to them too where I am having to take more and more. I dont get a high sensation or any sensaion from them except just a little relief from the extreme pain.

I am really besides myself today. Im in so much pain today and nothing is helping. Its clouding my judgement. In the back of my head , I keep thinking I can self medicate and be better with out them. At least until I get medical insurance. And if I go to the ER, they just call my docs anyway. So me getting any kind of pain relief is next to nothingunless I want to go in the hospital and then they put me on a pain pump. I dont hurt enough at home to be on pills but as soon as I go to hospital, they put me on as much pain meds that they give me a pain pump with a button. Besides its my daughters birthday today. I was in hospital the week before xmas but came out to spend holidays with my 3 kids. I didnt want to miss the holidays with them or my daugter Kelsey's birthday. 6

Im sick of being sick. Im sick of hurting. Im sick of dctors who could care less and sit and doubt me because I told them I was a recovering addict.

I could really use some input here. What are my options? What would you do? Am I over reacting? Being a baby?

caileesnana

Hey Gwen,

is there a county hospital in the area? They have pain mgmt doctors and could see on a sliding scale fee type plan.

Kidney stones are rough and painful, i'm sorry you are struggling today. It will pass, you have been through worse and made it!!

you're in my prayers,
susan

winnie12

Your not overreacting and your not being a baby - your just in pain.

That being said - maybe just maybe the doc was doing the right thing in testing you to make sure you werent on something else. maybe he didnt want to prescribe anything not knowing. maybe he knows that with addiction we can slide so he felt it best to test you. its possible he is just a good doctor.

maybe he was being a jerk i dont know. you need to tell your docs these things so even if its crappy you keep being fair to yourself and let them know. Its not fair but what is.

Rebecca4

I would love to help you as I work in this field.
However, I am struggling to read your post, especially the first bit.
Could you break it down to paragraphs, there is a big block of text with no gaps and it is hard going on my eyes or just make it easier to read please?!

Thank you

cinderellawkids

Is there a health department with a pain management doc? Or a county hospital that can refer you?

NeedingHelp7

If you don't have medical insurance, how do you fill your scripts. Why can't you get county (Medicaid) medical insurance?

Same thing happened when AH was dropped from pain pills from his Primary Doc. He was referred to pain management and got his opiates there.


Being you are a RA, you have got to get off of those things. There lots of other pain meds that can be prescribed to you that are non-narcotic.

There are lots of good suggestions over on the Substance Abuse forum on how to wean off that crap.

Sorry..... just being honest Gwen.

hope213

sending prayers up for you. hang in there. do not give up. there is help somewhere. i know there has got to be. hugs,