It comes down to me.
I got nothin'
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Join Date: Jun 2008
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It comes down to me.
It's all about me! I'm selfish! Ha ha!
*Just need to rant here in an effort to stay sober.*
I'm the only one who can do this. It's up to me to stay sober. Although my mental health is not well, at least I'm feeling a little better physically. When I look into the toilet it's not so scary anymore...things are starting to improve. :P
The longer I stay sober, the harder it is to remain that way. No matter how much I try to scare myself, being afraid isn't enough. I have to dig deeper than that and just plain deal with it. I have to do this...who knows what health problems I'll have next if I start up again.
I've been complaining about the money I've been spending. I only do that because I like to whine.
The truth is, even though I'm going to be paying a nice chunk to the hospital, that amount pales in comparison to the cash I've spent on alcohol. It makes me sick to think about it...I could have bought a nice used car with that money AND I wouldn't be spending more right now on visits to the doctor. Oh, well. I cannot change what I've done. I need to keep moving and looking forward.
Keep up the good fight, everyone!
*Just need to rant here in an effort to stay sober.*
I'm the only one who can do this. It's up to me to stay sober. Although my mental health is not well, at least I'm feeling a little better physically. When I look into the toilet it's not so scary anymore...things are starting to improve. :P
The longer I stay sober, the harder it is to remain that way. No matter how much I try to scare myself, being afraid isn't enough. I have to dig deeper than that and just plain deal with it. I have to do this...who knows what health problems I'll have next if I start up again.
I've been complaining about the money I've been spending. I only do that because I like to whine.
The truth is, even though I'm going to be paying a nice chunk to the hospital, that amount pales in comparison to the cash I've spent on alcohol. It makes me sick to think about it...I could have bought a nice used car with that money AND I wouldn't be spending more right now on visits to the doctor. Oh, well. I cannot change what I've done. I need to keep moving and looking forward.Keep up the good fight, everyone!
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Join Date: May 2007
Location: New England
Posts: 1,390
It's a great challenge to choose to stay sober but the benefits surely out weigh the hard work in staying sober. The past is the past can't change that.
Have you seen a doc to see exactly what drinking has done to your body? and mention the metal effect you have a doc can help with that too.
keep up the good fight just for today
Have you seen a doc to see exactly what drinking has done to your body? and mention the metal effect you have a doc can help with that too.
keep up the good fight just for today
Looking For Myself...Sober
Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Where the heart is
Posts: 10,209
Glad you seem to be feeling better Bam.
I know when I decided to stop using. It was like all these health issues were wrong with me.
I even joked with my Dr thta I had become a hypocondriact. (sp?)
He said that I just care what happenes to me now. And I am more aware. And now that we arent numbing every feeling in our minds and body. We can actually see some issues that may have otherwise gone unnoticed.
I am happy to see you thinking positive.
(((Bam)))
I know when I decided to stop using. It was like all these health issues were wrong with me.
I even joked with my Dr thta I had become a hypocondriact. (sp?)
He said that I just care what happenes to me now. And I am more aware. And now that we arent numbing every feeling in our minds and body. We can actually see some issues that may have otherwise gone unnoticed.
I am happy to see you thinking positive.
(((Bam)))
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: UK
Posts: 18,299
He said that I just care what happenes to me now. And I am more aware. And now that we arent numbing every feeling in our minds and body. We can actually see some issues that may have otherwise gone unnoticed.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,380
The longer I stay sober, the harder it is to remain that way. No matter how much I try to scare myself, being afraid isn't enough. I have to dig deeper than that and just plain deal with it.
It takes commitment to realise that and work against it, but I'm sure you can do it.
and...it is hard remaining sober, especially the early days...but you can get through those....it's not endlessly hard either - it gets easier
go you! :bounce
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