37 Hours since my last drink

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01-01-2009, 07:57 AM

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wrvalleygirl

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37 Hours since my last drink

and it's going pretty well. I have NO DESIRE to drink.... I just want to start feeling a bit better... the sedative qualities of the Ativan are wiping me out and I am going to wean them down today...

I slept in a little longer than I should have.... but my husband works later tonight and let me rest up a bit.... has no desire to be "with" me and says he is staying for the kids... I just don't know how much I can deal with that right now... He acts like he loves me, or at least cares, but... I don't know anymore.

I guess we just stay in this limbo for awhile....

01-01-2009, 08:16 AM

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lisa t

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hey wr...good for you...37 hours! you CAN do it...just focus on yourself right now...your husband has to deal with him...for now concentrate on not drinking....an hour at a time! try not worry about whether he is coming or going...what will be, will be...but know that you will be better equipped to handle whatever comes your way sober! i wish much continued success...my thoughts are with you!!
Big Hugs...hang in there...YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lisa

01-01-2009, 08:19 AM

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Anna

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Good for you!

Just focus on your recovery, and the rest will fall into place.

01-01-2009, 08:20 AM

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Try to just stay in the 'now' and keep doing the next right, sober, honest thing. Keep on doing what you're doing, and be true to yourself.

01-01-2009, 08:22 AM

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wrvalleygirl

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Yeah... he just came in to say he wishes we could really talk and I told him that I am just not ready.... I need to get a little stronger over the next day or two.... my anxiety is still right at the surface wanting to pop through....

I have been through hell with him. He has been arrested 2 times for abuse... both times he was drunk... (second time, so was I)... and I stayed with him because I love him... but he said the other night it was hurtful words that I say when I am drunk (I am a MEAN drunk) that drove him to hurt me....

I am so confusd right now...

01-01-2009, 08:49 AM

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shaun00

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YOU are the most important person at the moment i guess .....imo
Try not to pressurise yourself or be pressured by anyone...
It is a very diificult time for you and you need peace and quiet...
Certainly for a week or two anyway.
Be good to yourself........plenty of rest and fluids...
And most things will start to straighten out in time.
YOUR DOING JUST GREAT AND WELL DONE.....................trucker