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Old 12-17-2008, 05:34 AM
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Thumbs up TOPIC: SoberRecovery A Place To Let Go And Share. Thank You SR.

Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.

By the Grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR I havent found it
necessary to pick up a drink of
alcohol since 8-11-90.

For that and you I am truely grateful.

What am I gonna do? A question
that is definitely on my mind today.

Yesterday I was let go of my little
bakery job because of a text message
i sent a fellow employee. A little child
who was promoted as manager over
us had this go to her head.

I had worked well with her praising
her for a job well done. However the
pressure placed on her has made
a monster out of her. In my opinion.

Several takes to the office and resent-
ment set in for me. A text to say i work
with u for business reasons only and
that i dont have to like u. Saying a
prayer may relieve pain. Other than
that stay away from me.

In other words my inner thoughts were
i work with u but i dont like u, ill keep
u in my prayers while u go thru growing
pains and stay out of my personal
life.

Of course she printed the text and
between her mom and others she
took it as a threat. I think her mom
blew it terribly out of proportion to
protect her child. Which made me
out to due harm to her.

A mom and pop business sided with
her of course because she had been
with them the longest.

You know i could blow this situation
completely out of proportion and
what good would it do.

This bakery is well known ....ambrosia
bakery.com if u wish to visit the site.

Just like most business they have
have their problems....and like most
it has poor management and disfunctional.

Ud think they would hire a better qualified
group of employees to match the product
and yet they hire low income people. Or
mostly students. And because of that
people dont stay there long.

So u get poor help and problems all
over the place.

Anyway...i did my job well to the best
of my ability....not perfect and had
my share of problems, but i still came
to work dressed nicely and smiling
for the most part and got along with
just about all of my co workers.

I was told most felt threatened by me.

ME..! Why? Just cause i was happy
and looked nice......Maybe they
didnt want anyone better than them
working there.

Everyone had a position there. Bakers
in the kitchen...Stackers that stacked
and iced cakes.....Strawberry section....
Decorators ..where the money is made.
Wedding cakes etc.

Then us in Customer Service.....waiting
on customers ......up front to greet them.

We put up with the snooty moody
customers. And yet the customers r
to be treated royally.

Ok....ill end here for now and return
with more thoughts . SR gives me
that freedom to share whats bothering
and still allows me to return.

Its that unconditional respect you have
for us members. A wonderful online
fellowship.

THANK YOU SOBER RECOVERY.
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Old 12-17-2008, 06:54 AM
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Wow!

That is a tough one, Sharon!
I'm sorry you lost your job like that.

I agree that SR is a wonderful place to come for
support, concern and sharing. I have always enjoyed
your thoughtful posts.

I hope you will find a rewarding job in the very near future!
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Old 12-17-2008, 08:33 AM
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I sit here feeling useless. Like something is
missing. I guess its because when u get up
each morning and do the same thing each
day which is refered to as routine.....then
something happens.....illness, vacation,
family, work throws u off balance then
u dont know what to do with urself.

Im an early bird kinda person where i
get up at 3am to be at work for 5.

Why so early....well i dont like to rush
in the mornings. Drink coffee, shower,
dress, listen to VH1 music, a bite to eat
vitamins and off i go.

The bakery doesnt open till 6:30, so
i get there early to glaze donuts and
set up for the morning. My work ends
at 2:30 and to bed around 7.

Ive been working there for a yr
and 1/2 now. Moved from a small
building to a very nice building to
accomidate more customers.

Anyway....I know that time heals
all. Once im away from that routine
for awhile the better i will feel.

No im not depressed and yes Im so
grateful to have support here in SR and
face to face meeting to attend as
often as i need them.

Ive had the word HUMBLE flowing thru
my brain. To be HUMBLE. How to be
HUMBLE. How to HUMBLE urself.
What is it be Humble.
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Old 12-21-2008, 07:14 AM
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Morning SR. Good to be here. A safe haven to share
my pent up feelings and harboring resentments.

This is a perfect time to put into practice all that
I have learned in AA. To let go and let my HP
remove those annoying defects of character that I
have carried with me for so long.

My stubborness to follow direction. To listen instead
of running my mouth.

Ok, let me back up.....for the past week ive been
trying to accept the fact that i lost my job because
i wouldnt follow directions from a peep squeak.

I know only time heals all and a week had past i was
beginning to let this situation go. THEN....i get
a PINK SLIP in the mail officially separating me
from the bakery.

REASON FOR LEAVING......#2 DISCHARGED(fired)

EXPLANATION.....DISOBEDIENCE, FAILURE TO FOLLOW
DIRECTION, WRONGFUL CONDUCT.

OH MY GOSH...!

Moi....ME.....how dare they say that about little
ol me.

In my opinion i got along well with the owners...
husband, wife, 3 sons. They seemed to be pleased
with my performance in their bakery are else
i would have been let go long time ago.

I was mostly always happy, smiling, cutting up, joking
around, supportive and complimentary to my fellow
co-workers. However i knew i couldnt be liked by all.

Could have been jealousy, envey, threatened....who knows.


There was an on going joke about my last name being
MOSES....then it became Harley Chick, Lady Rider.

Even the Dad boss who also rides a Harley joked
with me and called me Harley.

I know the family liked me. Which makes me sad
that they let me go.

Last night i was reflecting on the word DISOBEDIENCE.

Why that word....and it dawned on me about how the
middle son would quote the bible at times and he would
often pass me whispering softly M-o-s-e-s.

Moses in the bible was disobedient to God wasnt he?

Thats what i was told.....an thus that is where the word
came from.

Disobedience is a word ud use toward a child. And here
I am 50 yrs. old and still child like in many ways....

Maybe ill eventually grow up.....but then i like being
childlike.
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Old 12-23-2008, 11:48 AM
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This is always a good place for me to
come to to release those annoying
thoughts that bother me so much.

I definitely have issues from my past
that keep haunting me. These problems
affect my ability to work with others.
It's mainly following direction or taking
orders from. Problems with authority
figures.

As an abuse child i had to DO as my
mom told me to do or else i would get
the crap beaten out of me. Many times
no even that made a difference. I still
endured verbal and physical abuse by her
hand....her sickness.....

Prescription meds and alcohol...a deadly
explosive mix.

With the abuse came fear.....then in time
survival....lieing, stealing, sneeking, decieving,
etc.

I recall as a small child going to the drug
store to get moms meds refilled....and
there the temptation to steal candy because
i couldnt have any at home.

Then at 18 my first dept store job....little
petty stealing never getting caught. However...
I take a polly graph and passed until i opened my
big mouth and spilled the beans about snitching
candy from the candy dept. then they politely
told me they couldnt keep me because small
stealing would lead to possibly bigger things.....

My next big job was a teller at a bank. I got on
thru family connections....I did ok and had fun
up until a new women entered to be the
new branch manager....she and i didnt see
eye to eye....maybe because i thought she
was an alcoholic....mean bi***. What ulimately
lead me out the door was me cashing a stolen
check shortly after recieving a notice of a
robbery down the street from us.....

Well.....this was the womens perfect
opportunity to get rid of me.....and besides
i was already into my drinking disease
and didnt want to work any more with
the public....

At this time in my life i was a yr newly wed
and all i wanted to do was stay home & raise
a family.

I got my wish...had 2 AWESOME kids and stayed
home for 16 yrs in which during that time my disease
progressed and about 7 yrs married family stepped
in to do an intervention on me sending me to
rehab for 28 days and a weeks out patiant program.

We moved to Houston for 10 yrs in which i took
on a part time job in customer service at a grocery
store...picking up carts and bagging.....did that
for 5 yrs in which i had once again problems with authority
telling me what to do.....these were kids....students
telling moi what i already know how to do....pissed
me off often and to the office i went.....i managed
to stay there 5 yrs before i moved back home here
to Baton Rouge, got a divorce and job.....

First job back was to enter the bank again with
so much change that i couldnt grasp it....so out the
door i went......then lastly the bakery.....

Was there about a yr and a half with numerous
office visits because i wouldnt listen or would
do what i was told.....again out the door......

Now....what is there for me to do? Me and authority
just dont get along......

I am a good worker....intelligent...kind....caring....can follow
direction.....what is it that makes people have to be so
mean to their employees unless u r kissing their "azz"

What makes these little kids....20's get to big headed
and think their shi* dont stink.....

or employers who think they are running a concentration
camp....or that we r in the Army? Sheesh......

I know im not perfect and i know i have problems
with those TELLING me what to do only because
it reminds me how when my mom lashed out at me
at 18...one more time before i finally left.....to say,
" I will NEVER EVER have her or anyone EVER TELL
me what to do again." Enough is enough....

I know my HP has a plan for me and im anxious
to know what it is....id be curious to see what
is in store for me down the road to where i wont
have to take orders.....hmmmmm
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