Prayers & more Prayers
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Prayers & more Prayers
Where to begin. I've been writing posts and then just deleting them. You know when things have been so bad; but not out of control bad. I do not have real reason to kick him out bad; but things have an under lying evil, bad. Maybe I should hit the delete button.
My AH keeps talking about getting a puppy. I of course said we are not getting one; for all the usual (too much work and I'm the only one who would be around to do it) reasons. It's kind of gone back and forth; but I've been told that no matter what he's bringing home a puppy sometime after Christmas. He's never even home to take care of anything living. When I said I wasn't taking care of it. I was threatened with divorce told I would have to live on welfare. Told what a rotten wife I am. Threatened how he would make sure to do me out of money from the sale of our house. On and on it went. Kind of like torture. He ended our "talk" with that "we" where going to work on our relationship. That's all crap. Working on it means me just shutting up and doing what he wants.
I hardly had time to wonder about hiring a private investigator when two days later I had surgery. He chased my children out of the room while I was under and when I woke up there he was. He put on quite the loving husband show. Thank God for my 22 year old daughter living with me or for the past 3 days I would be trapped in my room.
Today he just told me he wanted to know how long before I could decorate the Christmas tree. I have two holes in my stomach I'm glad he has such compassion! I'm sure if I'm not well by Saturday there will be an issue if I can't make it to his work Christmas party.
Anyway, Thanks for letting me complain... But I really need extra prayers. I need to find a place to rent so I can get out of here. My daughter has been waiting for full-time at her hospital or part-time at another hospital (she's going to help with rent when we leave)...I need a place that accepts pets...I also need prayer for safety...he keeps making me feel that some how he's dangerous even though he's never "really" hurt me.
Thanks all... Oh Don't worry I'm not telling him that I'm leaving! Until after...And no forwarding address...
My AH keeps talking about getting a puppy. I of course said we are not getting one; for all the usual (too much work and I'm the only one who would be around to do it) reasons. It's kind of gone back and forth; but I've been told that no matter what he's bringing home a puppy sometime after Christmas. He's never even home to take care of anything living. When I said I wasn't taking care of it. I was threatened with divorce told I would have to live on welfare. Told what a rotten wife I am. Threatened how he would make sure to do me out of money from the sale of our house. On and on it went. Kind of like torture. He ended our "talk" with that "we" where going to work on our relationship. That's all crap. Working on it means me just shutting up and doing what he wants.
I hardly had time to wonder about hiring a private investigator when two days later I had surgery. He chased my children out of the room while I was under and when I woke up there he was. He put on quite the loving husband show. Thank God for my 22 year old daughter living with me or for the past 3 days I would be trapped in my room.
Today he just told me he wanted to know how long before I could decorate the Christmas tree. I have two holes in my stomach I'm glad he has such compassion! I'm sure if I'm not well by Saturday there will be an issue if I can't make it to his work Christmas party.
Anyway, Thanks for letting me complain... But I really need extra prayers. I need to find a place to rent so I can get out of here. My daughter has been waiting for full-time at her hospital or part-time at another hospital (she's going to help with rent when we leave)...I need a place that accepts pets...I also need prayer for safety...he keeps making me feel that some how he's dangerous even though he's never "really" hurt me.
Thanks all... Oh Don't worry I'm not telling him that I'm leaving! Until after...And no forwarding address...
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hi
please keep posting. there are a lot of people here with great support and advice.
unfortunately, i know what it is like to live in fear. it is awful. i'm sorry you are suffering abuse. unfortunately, it doesn't get better as alcoholism is a progressive disease.
it will only get better when you seek help for yourself and the alcoholic seeks treatment.
i am sending many prayers your way. (((hugs)))
unfortunately, i know what it is like to live in fear. it is awful. i'm sorry you are suffering abuse. unfortunately, it doesn't get better as alcoholism is a progressive disease.
it will only get better when you seek help for yourself and the alcoholic seeks treatment.
i am sending many prayers your way. (((hugs)))
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