Freedom1990

I was sitting at the computer working on Access and database queries for my microcomputer aps class, youngest AD was gone all evening till 11 at work (she's a delivery driver for Pizza Hut). The dogs/cats were spread out in their respective places sleeping, and it dawned on me just how wonderfully quiet and peaceful this house is.

I am so grateful for no more insanity, no more violence, hatred, screaming, walking on eggshells, praying for relief. I liked to lost my mind for that month I allowed my oldest AD to move in temporarily, giving her one chance to do something for her life after her first stay in jail. I had forgotten just how crazy it can get with the lies, the odd hours, hiding the bottles, the self-centeredness when I let her move in.

I had no problem shutting that door behind her when I told her to leave and got a restraining order on her.

God has been so very good to me, and I am grateful he gave me the strength to walk through all the difficult times in my life.

Honestly, those of you who have chosen to stay with your AH or AB, I don't know how you do it.

I really couldn't care less if I never have another significant other in my life because I am content, working towards two college degrees, and cherish being by myself.

Who would have thought? I was the queen of codependency, and was so terrified of being by myself, and not having any 'worth' in my mind unless I was attached to a man, that I had lost all hope at one time.

I only wish I could give those of you who still struggle the peace of mind and joy that I have in my life.

However, it's your journey to walk, just as I've walked mine. :ghug

Mair

"I only wish I could give those of you who still struggle the peace of mind and joy that I have in my life."

Posts like this give me hope and peace of mind.

Gill

grateful2b

Yes, yes, and yes..
Freedom , I love this post, so full of strength and hope...it is so good to hear about your journey and the fruits of your beautiful recovery
Grateful

sodetermined

Posts like this, they give me hope, I'm the Princess of Codependency ;-)

cem001

Isn't recovery wonderful when you can finally grasp what needs to be done.

I am one of those who stayed with my RAH. To this day I still wonder why. But I can answer that, I love him and I knew he could be better.

I can choose today to walk away from his quacking and go do something constructive.

I can also choose today to work my program to the best of my ability and have serenity.

What a great post. Good luck with your school. I wish I had the guts to better myself. But school was never my thing. I admire those who go for it.

KUDOS

drained22

your Acoholic hides bottles, odd hours, is self centered and lies too? sounds like this girl I know.