Reddmax

I'm feeling new and unusual (for me) feelings. While we had a huge blow up last week, with me moving out, I actually took the advice of people here, and surprisingly enough, it worked.

I did what felt right at the time. And while I and my SO are working out the details of either seperation or divorce, something has changed within me.

The situation occured Sunday night, where the AW went absolutely bats---t. She became distructive, abusive, the typical alcoholic rage. You know something.... while I did what I needed to do to ensure her safety and my own, it didn't bother me. It was trash coming out of a pit of despair. It's not my problem. It's her problem, its her venom, its her issue. Not mine. While it took me a while to get to sleep, mainly because of all the excitement, I don't have that pit of the stomach feeling about the now or the future.

Maybe I'm in shock, or maybe, maybe I've figured out the live in the moment thing.

I'm actually in a good mood. I'm planning on communicating with the AW, but I'm not taking responsibility for her decisions.

Wish me Luck

Redd

denny57

Good luck, Redd.

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woot

(that means very cool in geekspeak)

MsPINKAcres

Keep taking good care of you, Redd!

HUGS & prayers,
Rita

justaboutus

I've been referring to these as my "zen" moments... I can just say "whatever" and go about my business. You were so zen, Redd. I'm proud of you.

BBD

I do~~I wish you all the luck you need to stay in the moment....Good for you! Smiles, Bonnie

ToughChoices

Yeah to a good night's sleep!!!

Good luck to you, Redd!
-TC

peaceteach

Good Luck, Redd. From this day forward and all, you know the speak .....