Waste products and oscillating mechanisms
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Waste products and oscillating mechanisms
Well, it finally happened. I hit my limit. Forgive me for being a woozy, but I only got about 3 hours of sleep last night.
My AW crossed a big boundary, and I left. I'll probably need lots of support in dealing with this, as I love the woman dearly. This is the hardest thing I've ever done.
The details are like this. Last night, I fell asleep on the couch. I woke up, and went to the bedroom. Then, the AW comes in, turns on the light and wakes me up. She's very drunk. She doesn't want to sleep, she wants to watch TV. I tell her that I'm sleeping. She leaves. Since I'm awake, I have to go to the bathroom and then I go to the kitchen to get a drink of water. Her office door is closed. I walk in to give her a good night kiss, and she's on the phone with her Ex. I had set a boundary several weeks ago, that if she does it again, I'm done. So, I packed and left. Now we're making arrangements to divorce.
Pray for me.
Redd
My AW crossed a big boundary, and I left. I'll probably need lots of support in dealing with this, as I love the woman dearly. This is the hardest thing I've ever done.
The details are like this. Last night, I fell asleep on the couch. I woke up, and went to the bedroom. Then, the AW comes in, turns on the light and wakes me up. She's very drunk. She doesn't want to sleep, she wants to watch TV. I tell her that I'm sleeping. She leaves. Since I'm awake, I have to go to the bathroom and then I go to the kitchen to get a drink of water. Her office door is closed. I walk in to give her a good night kiss, and she's on the phone with her Ex. I had set a boundary several weeks ago, that if she does it again, I'm done. So, I packed and left. Now we're making arrangements to divorce.
Pray for me.
Redd
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I'm so sorry to hear this Redd. It sucks when we have to enforce our boundaries but in the end .....isn't that all we wind up with anyway?? She called her ex because SHE wanted to talk to someone in a drunken state...I wonder how her ex felt. Does he drink also? Just keep reminding yourself this: Nuthin changes if nuthin changes. If you are like me then change doesn't happen easily nor do we embrace it nicely. We actually have a fear somewhat of change. Co-dependents just don't handle change well UNLESS its our idea. Luckily this change is one that you made. I hope that this will be her bottom and she gets some badly needed help. Take care and try to have a good day...she will be contacting you for sure.
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((((hugs))))...
I am surrounding you with love and prayers right now. I know that this is difficult. I am happy that you decided to care of Redd first. No advice now...just hugs and support.
I am surrounding you with love and prayers right now. I know that this is difficult. I am happy that you decided to care of Redd first. No advice now...just hugs and support.
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Okay ladies and gents,
How do you keep from crying at work?
Also, did anyone try and be a nice person during the divorce? If so, what happened?
I sorta want to know what to expect?
Redd
How do you keep from crying at work?
Also, did anyone try and be a nice person during the divorce? If so, what happened?
I sorta want to know what to expect?
Redd
I was a very nice person during the divorce. What should you expect? The unexpected.
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Maybe don't think in terms of how not to cry, but rather how to manage your grief. You're gonna have to go THROUGH the grief, so embrace it the best you can, and stumble through. I've snuck off to bathrooms for sobbing breaks and such things - just so it's not in the middle of public. And let people have a clue what's going on with me, why I'm weird. They are surprisingly understanding and accomodating, if they have a general clue why one's game is off.
Sorry it hurts so much, Redd. It just.... does.
Sorry it hurts so much, Redd. It just.... does.
I am so sorry but I think it is a HUGE accomplishment that you are enforcing the boundary!!!!
This is horrible right now but you will be so much stronger and so much more at peace in the end! Have you thought about a new hobby? Give it some thought. You are going to need something to fill all the time you will have when you are not living in the drama!
Peace :ghug2
This is horrible right now but you will be so much stronger and so much more at peace in the end! Have you thought about a new hobby? Give it some thought. You are going to need something to fill all the time you will have when you are not living in the drama!
Peace :ghug2
I was a very nice person during my divorce, too. xAH was not. Divorce from an active alcoholic is not to be attempted without tons of support. My suggestion would be to keep it as businesslike as possible. I have no regrets for how I conducted myself, except in the beginning, when I tried to be "fair," which meant giving in to the alcoholic - he never reciprocated, just demanded more; this is where the support of those not close to the situation really helped.
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Sorry to hear about the ex thing, but I suspect it's been going on more than you care to admit here. It's a sign of a very unhealthy person doing very unhealthy things. You don't have to take it anymore Red, time to move on. Give yourself permission to mourn the loss and move on.
I took the high road during my divorce only so I could look at myself in the mirror with a clear conscious that I didn't make it any harder than it needed to be. Business like and professional.
I took the high road during my divorce only so I could look at myself in the mirror with a clear conscious that I didn't make it any harder than it needed to be. Business like and professional.
Crying? It's been over a year since he left, and today even I feel like crying. I just let myself feel those hard feelings. I take bathroom breaks- 15 minute walks around the building. . . and at night when I can let go I sob like crazy. Journaling also has helped, as well as a good counselor. Hang in there Redd. I've been rooting for you!
When it comes to crying at work, I'm much more like a guy than like a girl....I just don't like to do it. So I started taking short walks too (serves multiple purposes: get to cry, fresh air/light, exercise, clear head) And on the days when that wasn't enough, I got in my car, drove to a private spot, and screamed. Wiped my eyes and went back to work. Four or five of these mini-breaks a day and I got through the worst of it.
I'm sorry, Red, that she had to do this. That's very disrespectful treatment, and you deserve better.
I'm sorry, Red, that she had to do this. That's very disrespectful treatment, and you deserve better.
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This is the hardest thing I've ever done.
It DOES get better and you will embrace your ability to BREATHE again and to have that nawing in your stomach feeling ease up day by day.
Hang in there and hugs your way.
You can be nice during a divorce but also remember the more money she gets as a settlement the more she'll drink. It might as well be in your pocket as opposed to flushed down the toilet. It's painfull now but in time you'll do just fine.
Im sorry Redd for all your sadness , Ive been following your posts and wondered where you been for a few days , Today i see why you havnt been here. Tho Ive never experiecnce anything of this sort my heart still bleeds for your pain , Im glad your finally takes the big step, we all know youe hurting right now , But this will lessen in time . All my prayers of strenght and courage for you .. keep shareing hug's Mrs O
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